tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-61078623903872827352024-03-12T19:56:06.020-07:00Regarding the pain of others- a solipsistic soloA blog about my difficulties, agonies, stresses, delights, angers, hapyness, boredom, distraction in the creation of this solo work.Unknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger29125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6107862390387282735.post-69992235557067767892008-09-23T00:43:00.000-07:002008-09-25T05:02:35.521-07:00The frames lost from a movie when my friend and my sister blinked<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhKxlb4dgmET-983_YqJcd2Z1w1nbJHKpRzgdM6RP13XvU2ENCa4Ou3i3klDZ9ymbeuTNJynL_5OEpJ7foZecOvo087KrrCS0CuDbX53rkw0t8yl_BNOoYQwCjD8yL5_Bf70tT3iy6gPWrD/s1600-h/reading+timeline5.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhKxlb4dgmET-983_YqJcd2Z1w1nbJHKpRzgdM6RP13XvU2ENCa4Ou3i3klDZ9ymbeuTNJynL_5OEpJ7foZecOvo087KrrCS0CuDbX53rkw0t8yl_BNOoYQwCjD8yL5_Bf70tT3iy6gPWrD/s400/reading+timeline5.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5249913935773375106" border="0" /></a><br /><span>This is my artistic research on the psychophysiological somatic responses to violence in films.<br />The video features the moments that Alejandro (my best friend) and Louiza (my sister) lost when they blinked while watching this movie.<br />Ofcourse it has been put in fast forward for two reasons (A) there is no website that allows me to upload a film of 1h 40 mins (unless I have the status of a director on YouTube; (B) it's faster for people to see some results (instead of watching the whole film). HOWEVER, the idea is to watch the whole film.<br />Pay attention to the fact that during scenes of violence and action there is less blinking, because they were very attentive.<br />Louiza blinks more often, probably because of her sex and also because she has had a serious brain surgery some years ago.]<br />This video took me approximately 50 hours... it's really detailed although you can't see it now... </span><br />Enjoy<br /><br /><object height="344" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/arQ8QU7sFNg&hl=en&fs=1&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/arQ8QU7sFNg&hl=en&fs=1&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowfullscreen="true" height="344" width="425"></embed></object><br /><br /><br /><br />And here is a very fast explanation of how I did 3 seconds from the movie... If you want to do 1 hour and 40 minutes then you have to start meditating...<br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiNQsSSpDi87rD8M-L1bwykxZfAZE-9tOw1R-Ms_QhTA_ygNMoDqRM4uoOMzA5XD4iuJS2HEyerzvYHZMcQqBgfB4JU3ZMuMUjEsDRreZ-axnRy_xqDPFZ9ubkxKnjXECf9F3JOXyh4K0gW/s1600-h/Louiza+Timeline4.jpg"><br /></a><div style="text-align: center;"><iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' webkitallowfullscreen='webkitallowfullscreen' mozallowfullscreen='mozallowfullscreen' width='320' height='266' src='https://www.blogger.com/video.g?token=AD6v5dxY-0hrDwTrawiLgm0dcah3Ddrpb7sWUrRPKpCkxnFacSldIda_toE3FDUxqGtVOGrFK4XmhWoVQLm3LGyDUw' class='b-hbp-video b-uploaded' frameborder='0'></iframe><br /></div><br /><br />And this is the printed version of the timeline of both Louiza's and Alejandro's Timelines. I have printed it out in order to mark the areas of density of blinking. My hypothesis is that it is more dense in the areas where little violence or action is depicted in the film. Less dense timeline is during violence. The same happens for both spectators although Louiza's timeline is per se more dense (read above my explanation). It is not wise to compare the two timelines. What I suggest is to find the moments of density in each timeline and then try to see if these periods are the same. If they are, then what is actually on the film?<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgDenAO6HZkk7EzVR_dwhSOH22t-tHJmPWjNoGSTky1czyR4RoAITAcCpMWGlMTz2YG_XMIEDTHEG86FFVXsBBQcW-x8MokjxRgWY-9Dg_jH5dIBgB0tLcJd7g97iI4pmSymBv5SP8Y48XA/s1600-h/reading+the+timeline+1.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgDenAO6HZkk7EzVR_dwhSOH22t-tHJmPWjNoGSTky1czyR4RoAITAcCpMWGlMTz2YG_XMIEDTHEG86FFVXsBBQcW-x8MokjxRgWY-9Dg_jH5dIBgB0tLcJd7g97iI4pmSymBv5SP8Y48XA/s400/reading+the+timeline+1.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5249913944656365026" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj4NvgREiQcu-BTyBIyEksXs43K8hYjQZsYupTL2aJfS6iJepdW5I1HLcsNpj6aChMnYmFKNRB5oOmYIRPc0L-CSGpBRURFnIf18TGwc-Pz_ZUgYYISbW_jeemu7fVa6Fu5zLHkJBb7gWiZ/s1600-h/reading+timeline6.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj4NvgREiQcu-BTyBIyEksXs43K8hYjQZsYupTL2aJfS6iJepdW5I1HLcsNpj6aChMnYmFKNRB5oOmYIRPc0L-CSGpBRURFnIf18TGwc-Pz_ZUgYYISbW_jeemu7fVa6Fu5zLHkJBb7gWiZ/s400/reading+timeline6.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5249913952955939890" border="0" /></a><br />Click <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjslNXGZmjATH2N1Hkepp1rq8IRzabFq_Kl04MoBBII2emywDLI3BhOURL9WoZcwp__P3iY7_tVFJbnxy9frS-Ywe4PcRUmLCSEhuxMMZiNnCQb83_ZovUzPW7NdZpEofhzENv6mV-T7eyn/s1600-h/two+stitched+together.jpg">here</a> to see the timeline. Drag right or left...<br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjslNXGZmjATH2N1Hkepp1rq8IRzabFq_Kl04MoBBII2emywDLI3BhOURL9WoZcwp__P3iY7_tVFJbnxy9frS-Ywe4PcRUmLCSEhuxMMZiNnCQb83_ZovUzPW7NdZpEofhzENv6mV-T7eyn/s1600-h/two+stitched+together.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjslNXGZmjATH2N1Hkepp1rq8IRzabFq_Kl04MoBBII2emywDLI3BhOURL9WoZcwp__P3iY7_tVFJbnxy9frS-Ywe4PcRUmLCSEhuxMMZiNnCQb83_ZovUzPW7NdZpEofhzENv6mV-T7eyn/s400/two+stitched+together.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5249913954330802146" border="0" /></a>A zoomed moment from Alejandro's timeline<br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhqQTLWnNWEMup4URzQ6XnJYwGJYHJ3C7qaXRdUCJUC30YBhti_5wtyvbk85JgGdNIDfHedFyNZ4aClmhcgWXKXVh7KELYWN4-lCglNuxadQFIGi-1vDH9XK4hfV9flg5UeqaBSw0kMHLvA/s1600-h/3a.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhqQTLWnNWEMup4URzQ6XnJYwGJYHJ3C7qaXRdUCJUC30YBhti_5wtyvbk85JgGdNIDfHedFyNZ4aClmhcgWXKXVh7KELYWN4-lCglNuxadQFIGi-1vDH9XK4hfV9flg5UeqaBSw0kMHLvA/s400/3a.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5249913965605165186" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br /><object height="344" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/arQ8QU7sFNg&hl=en&fs=1&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/arQ8QU7sFNg&hl=en&fs=1&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowfullscreen="true" height="344" width="425"></embed></object>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6107862390387282735.post-77725378177603828452008-06-26T21:35:00.000-07:002008-06-27T03:26:13.563-07:00How to read this blog (an introduction for newcomers)I know that some people that enter now in this blog might find it very hard to follow up certain things, not necessarily but yes I can understand that they might feel excluded.<br />So on this post, I would like to explain some very basic stuff on how to read the blog.<br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="FONT-WEIGHT: bold">Basic rules of the blog</span></span><br />1. Automatic writing (you are not allowed to go back to correct things... always write and write, never stop)<br />2. Write it after the rehearsal (in the evening) but continue it the next morning in order to have a more distanced approach.<br />3. While writing, reflect, don't just describe<br />4. This is a blog. Respect the character. It's not a notebook, an academic article, a documentary, an essay, a journal, a website, a book. Think of your language<br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="FONT-WEIGHT: bold">Videos- Photos</span></span><br />It's good if you have a look at all videos/photos. Click on the photos to enlarge them. Since photos don't say anything, on the strict sense (as Sontag says), most of the times you can read a caption or some text around it to understand what is going on.<br />Photos and Videos are the best visual means to explain elements of the creative process that otherwise would need pages of description.<br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="FONT-WEIGHT: bold">Colors</span></span><br />As you may notice, there are some parts of the text that are highlighted and some others that are not. Let's have a look to what these colors might mean:<br /><br /><span style="BACKGROUND-COLOR: rgb(255,0,0)">Red color is for extracts that speak about the working process </span><br /><span style="BACKGROUND-COLOR: rgb(255,153,0)">Orange stands for creative and critical strategies</span><br /><span style="BACKGROUND-COLOR: rgb(255,255,0)">Yellow is my critical thought and evaluation of the results of my strategies, processes, experimentations or however you like to call it.</span><br /><span style="BACKGROUND-COLOR: rgb(51,204,0)">Green color is feedback I got from my fans, haters, colleagues and tutors</span><br /><span style="BACKGROUND-COLOR: rgb(51,204,255)">Blue color is influences from other artists or academic articles/essays.</span><br /><span style="COLOR: rgb(255,0,0)">Any other color is just to highlight the importance of the text. </span><br /><br />Before going any further, I need to mention that many things could fit in different colors/categories. By coloring them I am not trying to say how you or I define "working process" or "critical strategies" or "feedback". It is just a way to help the reader. The idea comes from Martin Hargreaves who thought it would be easier for the assessors to witness the evidence of the above elements.<br />For you, as a reader, some things could be red, some others orange and some others yellow. It doesn't really make a big difference. Furthermore, I believe that these categories are a lot of times meeting each other and differentiation is not possible.<br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="FONT-WEIGHT: bold">Timeline</span></span><br />If you want to follow the canonical time then you should read from down to up each blog. Don't forget to read month May which is not shown here. Best option is to click on the links on the right.<br />Here is a small summary of the work:<br /><br />1. On <a href="http://painofothers.blogspot.com/2008/05/pain-of-me.html">Saturday 10/5</a> I decide to open a blog for the work I am already doing on "Regarding the pain of others" a book by Susan Sontag. I have long time now written my proposal and have started working, but only now I have concretized my methodology. That is being alone in the studio and receiving written feedback through this blog. Writing this blog is per se a moment of reflection. I worked on the representation of some photos (with playmobils) described in the book of Susan Sontag and Virginia Woolf and was troubled by the fact that I was alone and needed to by multitasky.<br />2. On <a href="http://painofothers.blogspot.com/2008/05/day-off-sort-of.html">Sunday 11/5</a> instead of taking a day off, I watched and thought over a performance by Miguel Gutierrez, processed the feedback I got from some friends and set out some rules on how to work effectively on my own.<br />3. <a href="http://painofothers.blogspot.com/2008/05/working-in-my-break.html">Here</a> you can see some of the photos from Sunday<br />4. On <a href="http://painofothers.blogspot.com/2008/05/serious-decisions.html">Monday 12/5 </a>I worked on how to make a script from the book of Susan Sontag, I thought over the idea of documentation and discarded it in general terms but understood that there was something important with it. I also thought on the format of a performance lecture and got some inspiration by another artist who is working with Legos and famous photographs.<br />5. On <a href="http://painofothers.blogspot.com/2008/05/virginia-woolf-her-images.html">Tuesday 13/5,</a> I fragmented my work in little different pieces and did a little bit of everything and nothing. I worked on setting up the space, on a new attempt for a script and thought over about a small experiment with playmobils and camera.<br />6.On <a href="http://painofothers.blogspot.com/2008/05/virginia-woolf-her-images.html">Wednsday 14/5</a>, I started taking photos to be able to see with my eyes how the space looked like when I was performing. I made some reflections on laser pointer as a means for documenting time and memory and on the performativity of documentation. And I explain how I was inspired by McCarthy on this multi-projection screen.<br />7. <a href="http://painofothers.blogspot.com/2008/05/to-all-you-that-read-my-emails-today-i.html">On the second blog of Wednesday 14/5</a>, I ask for people to read my blog in order to receive feedback. I process an email that was questioning my use of space. I reflect on why setting up the space in front of audience is not a good suggestion. I explain some of my thoughts on why naked and what is performance lecture for me (mainly pointing at the self-reflexivity of the medium). I give some rules to myself for keeping up the energy and program my work. I also pay a tribute to a YouTube great Channelist, Chris Crocker.<br />8. <a href="http://painofothers.blogspot.com/2008/05/crisis.html">On Thursday 15th of May,</a> I am in a crisis believing that my work is shit and that I am not an artist. I made the first version of the video with the playmobils and explained how I made my story line and I added some more thoughts on the idea of a performance lecture.<br />9. <a href="http://painofothers.blogspot.com/2008/05/yesterday-i-presented-my-work-to-some.html">On Friday 16th of May,</a> I showed a part of my work to my colleagues to receive some feedback and videotaped the presentation. In order to do that I took some last minute decisions. I tried to reflect on the moment of presentation and on the general feedback I received. I also set up the steps I needed to take further in this creative process.<br />10. <a href="http://painofothers.blogspot.com/2008/05/blog-post_17.html">Saturday 17th of May,</a> I processed and tried to digest the feedback that I got from each person, replying to the following questions: (A) what, in my words, did the people say on how that X thing functioned, (B) What, in my own words, they recommended, (C) What I decided to do, (c) What they actually said. Feedback was about Virginia's Image, the script, the playmobil video, the archiving of time with the laser and tags and the written feedback per person. I finish it by making some rough conclusions.<br />11.<a href="http://painofothers.blogspot.com/2008/05/working-from-home.html">Sunday 18th of May,</a> I stayed at home. Digesting was a hard job. I can clearly feel that a new day has come in this creative process after the feedback sharing session. Kate Bush featuring in "Army Dreamers"<br />12. <a href="http://painofothers.blogspot.com/2008/05/havent-done-anything-today.html">Monday 19th of May, </a>I didnt do much. Tired? Overwhelmed? I practically experimented though with Susan Sontag's idea of composition and staging of photos. Processing took another post this time even more critical.<br />13. <a href="http://painofothers.blogspot.com/2008/05/improvisational-technologies-no-its-not.html">Wednesday 21/5:</a> Ibon Aranberri's Politica Hidraulica. Two methods on how to make the script work and my first symptoms towards a solipsistic process that I will later call masturbation.<br />14 <a href="http://painofothers.blogspot.com/2008/06/asdxs.html">After a break of one week and a half, on June 3</a>, THE RETURN. I reflect on why I couldnt write my blog. I start making more coherent my choices of what the text of Susan Sontag means to me drawing a map of the most important elements and making a possible itinerary. I made a video that I wanted to circulate in the Plasma Screens of Laban before the performance. During this week, I met with Dr Elena Cologni whose work and academic lecture helped me understand more deeply my work.<br />15. <a href="http://painofothers.blogspot.com/2008/06/erer.html">Wednesday, 4th June,</a> still processing Cologni's ideas and playing around with them, I discover my idea on delay and repetition of voice. Deleuze and his Lost Time is a major influence. Efforts to keep my concentration.<br />16. <a href="http://painofothers.blogspot.com/2008/06/jn.html">Saturday 7/6,</a><a href="http://painofothers.blogspot.com/2008/06/jn.html"> </a>I reworked on the text, making myself feel comfortable with it. I understood that the days were passing and needed to give some time also in cleaning and learning how to perform. I made a plan. Masturbation starts hitting me. I am now officially recognizing that I might be suffering from an infected solipsistis masturbator.<br />17. <a href="http://painofothers.blogspot.com/2008/06/blog-post.html">Sunday 8/6</a>. If you can't work on your own you need others to help you. A cry for a helping hand from a solipsist masturbator. Is it politically correct to be self-indulgent in a performance? I try to rationalize my mood. On repetition: pscychoanalyzing the spectator, the choreograher and me<br />18. <a href="http://painofothers.blogspot.com/2008/06/blog-post_09.html">9th of June </a>, I made a photo speak to me and tell me what it wants to say. I understand that noone can help me from my masturbation, I need to take control of it on my own. I take a voice class and understand some basic practical principles on how to sing. I start cleaning<br />19. <a href="http://painofothers.blogspot.com/2008/06/aa.html">Next day</a>, I find some rules how to correct my song and I made a lot of rehearsals/repetitions<br />20. <a href="http://painofothers.blogspot.com/2008/06/laziness-gives-you-distance.html">On Wednesday 11/6</a>, I am thinking more in detail what I mean by the term war photography, of the links between choreography, lecture and present time and how the individual elements relate to each of these three spaces. I make the list of props I need and realize I miss my video with the playmobils.<br />21. <a href="http://painofothers.blogspot.com/2008/06/its-not-that-i-havent-worked-any-on.html">Friday 13/6</a>, I have to remake the playmobil video (2nd version), I question about the timing of the piece and work even further with the text writing a script according to the map I had drawn earlier. I also show my singing and receive some valuable singing.<br />22.<a href="http://painofothers.blogspot.com/2008/06/blog-post_14.html"> On Saturday 14/6</a>, I have to make a new text. I need to find new rules but I understand that I could have never arrived to this level if all the other steps were not made.<br />23. <a href="http://painofothers.blogspot.com/2008/06/today.html">Monday 16/6</a> I still need to figure out some basic stuff about the space to make it work. Still researching but also rehearsing the last version of the text. I start understanding what preparation means.<br />24. <a href="http://painofothers.blogspot.com/2008/06/countdown-1-day-before-presentation-of.html">Tuesday 17/6,</a> Opening up from self-indulgence to other people. And experimenting with lights and writing the last notes to remember for the presentation of the work in progress<br />25. <a href="http://painofothers.blogspot.com/2008/06/so-show-of-work-in-progress-is-over.html">On Thursday 19/6 </a>I write my first impressions on the performance, give my program notes and a not so brief brief.<br />26. <a href="http://painofothers.blogspot.com/2008/06/regarding-pain-of-others-lecture.html">On 24th of June</a>, I put the video (very bad I know but I didn't have any other) of the work in progress on line.<br />27. <a href="http://painofothers.blogspot.com/2008/06/so-here-i-am-nearly-at-end-of-first.html">Later that day</a>, I put down my reflectios on the research process, the result of the research so far, the performance moment and how it was perceived and received by the audience. I also set out some questions for me to further think.<br /><br />Any questions? Please email me.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6107862390387282735.post-2014340348985295892008-06-24T14:17:00.000-07:002008-06-27T01:06:21.823-07:00Reflecting back<span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">So here I am nearly at the end of the first part of the creative process.</span><br /> <span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I need to reflect on the research process, on the result, on the performance and on the reception of the piece.</span><br /> <br /> <span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);font-size:130%;" ><span style="font-weight: bold;">A. Research Process</span></span><br /> <div style="text-align: justify; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">The methodology of this investigative and creative period had a very specific restriction- character. It was a solo process that many times fell over to solipsistic nuances.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Interestingly enough, this solitary method was what I was avoiding many years now because I was afraid of it. Working like that, was a big risk for me far away from my usual paths.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">In comparison with my previous works, it proved much easier to work more hours. Practically speaking, I did not have to convince my unpaid dancers to come over for rehearsals. I was the master of my own timetable and as typical example of stressful workaholic this decision proved revelatory. Now, I could work almost 24/7. I didn't have to interrupt my thought and I didn't have to get frustrated with the need for break people might want (I very rarely take a break, but that doesn't mean that I don't get easily distracted).</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">What proved harder though was the fact that I could not see the work from outside. As I was the performer </span><span style="font-style: italic; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">and</span><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"> the choreographer at the same time, working in the studio and trying to correct myself could only happen on the basis of affect of the experience, which obviously was not enough. Therefore I decided to open this blog almost 1,5 month ago. The idea was playing with my rules as a lawyer. The rule was that noone is allowed in the studio to help me in any way. But that did not mean that I could not ask for the ideas and feedback of friends and colleagues. The blog thus served as a device for opening up my creative process to the public and being able to receive feedback support from a third eye that was able to detach him/herself from the studio research. Indeed, I got a lot of replies of various styles and with completely different ideas to thing about that otherwise would be kept out of my realm of investigation. More than that though, I got moral support and a feeling of still having friends. I have to admit that it was a solitary process, so closed and lonely that it felt like ascetism. And now that I am thinking of it "asceticism" comes from the Greek word "ascecis" which means practice/ excercise. Ascetic is the person who practices severe self-discipline and abstention from all sorts of indulgence.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Writing the blog forced me to research through the very act of writing. The moments when writing is was reflecting in the work and on myself and I was taking decision on how to proceed further. My deliberate decision to begin writing the blog late in the night and finish early in the next morning allowed for some sort of detachment and together with my choice to be as descriptive as possible I managed to maintain an acceptable level of objective criticism which was quintessential for the advancement of the work. Whilst typing, I was thinking, refelcting, diagnosing, conceptualizing, dreaming, programming, speculating, cerebrating, regarding, resolving, remembering, visualizing, guessing, hypothesizing, weighting, concluding, pondering, supposing, envisioning, articulating, deliberating, chewing on, burning my brain cells and so on....</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">However, in order to keep my readership going on, I had to make decisions on how to present the work and my questions. Different methods included coloring of videos or deviding the work in subparagraphs with a specific title, or sending emails everyday with a casual salute and an introduction to the titles of the subparagraphs, or posting many photos on and so on... Understanding the importance of keeping this blog readable and interesting for the audience, and being aware of the methodologies used to achieve this, has helped to understand the importance in converting the lecture text into a more presentational mode. Since the importance of maintaining the audience was big both for the blog and for the real performance, I realized that even in the very last moment I should revise the text to make sure that it is interesting and captive enough.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Writing the blog on the other hand, proved out to be a fastidious and tiring method. In order to avoid feeling that writing this blog takes precious time from my studio practice, I decided to adopt blogging as a feature of my work. Maybe this is why my work proved out to be so focused on the performativity of the document(ation) and the archiving, indexing of time.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Another aspect of the methodology that has influenced the content of the piece was the fact that I was alone without the help of anyone. As a result, I got so much used to this comfortability of non having a voyeur that I fell in the trap of what I called "masturbation". So lonely was the work that I started finding pleasure in myself with my loneliness, otherwise it would be too painful. In that sense, it proved really difficult for me to open up the performance to the audience and be able to perform something for somebody else. Even today my feedback on the result and the performance is that fact that I need to manage to be aware of my position in relation to the audience. I need to look at them. I need to be aware of them.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I am not sure whether the work would be better without this solipsistic restriction and blogging experience. I guess different. Maybe not so much me, or maybe more me. Who knows...</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">What I am sure of though is the fact that I am not afraid of this solitary process anymore. In fact, I want to continue working on my own, until I can find some money and pay for some performer to join me. No more frustration with dancers for complaining about their tiredness and my workalcoholism and no more hiding the creative process from the audience. And still in that case, that I do use performers again, I would continue using lots of the elements I have just mentioned as tools for development.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Going to phase B of my research on this piece, I need to find a residence somewhere and continue working on a solitary basis but with some nuances on the participation of the others and of my awareness of the other. I want to see how the work will change if the space is different and the institutional restrictions are different (fucking Laban, I hate its dead criteria). Allow myself to be influenced by the surroundigns and environment more, do the work on my own and critically engage with the other.</span><br /><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);font-size:130%;" ><span style="font-weight: bold;">B. On the result</span></span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Is it different from my first initial idea? Interestingly enough, I don't think it is. Of course my initial idea was very abstract and open to different interpretations, but I think its main core remained the same. I had always in my mind I wanted a performance lecture and I knew how wanted to archive time and make noise.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">However, I was not aware why I wanted to do all these things and I was not aware whether my idea was good or bad, would work or not. I needed to try out and find different modes for making the idea succeed. More than that, however, I discovered different theoretical concepts that helped me solidify my intuition and together with the received feedback to focues on specific applications for the realization of the idea.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Trying hard and harder on the same idea. That's what I did. I never abandonned the initial idea. The way to achieve this idea however has changed many time. Take for example my fighting with the text. I have changed more than 10 times the text and the way to deliver it. And the decisions to change the text came as a reply to accomodate in the best possible way my initial concept. Other times it went closer to the concept, other times further away. But I think all of these stages were needed in order to arrive to this one. Experimentation, trial and error. A lot of error, especially with the text. But also with ways to hang the photos, to make their noise, to structure the whole piece.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I am not sure that this is the best format to accomodate the concept. I feel however confident enough to say that from all the other ways I have tried, this seems to be the most suitable one. Even in the very last moment I had to make changes, bigger or smaller. And I guess continuing on, I have to allow such a flexibility although things are starting to solidify now.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">What is interesting about the result is that things came together in the very last second. And this is not the fist time that I work like that. I think this is a token of method that always questions product and tries to understand what is the best option. If no panic included, this method is very succesful because it doesn't allow to lose time in recycling what has already been produced but it continues shaping and altering the product in order to make sure that the end product will be the best possible.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I am quite happy with the result. I haven't been able to detach myself from it yet in order to see it more clearly, but I think it is the product of a solipsistic and written-reflective process (as mentioned above). What I would now need to do in the phase B of my creative process is to try to see how a different methodology could re-shape the product in order to be more clear and connected to the initial concept.</span><br /><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);font-size:130%;" ><span style="font-weight: bold;">C. About the performance</span></span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Looking back at the video, I realize that the sensation I had from the piece is different than what I see. And that is maybe because I had never seen myself performing the "end product" before (it's not the "end" but you know what I mean).</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I have a lot of remakrs on how to correct the piece.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">For the first part (introduction, Virginia) I need to make sure that I will not spend a lot of time in technical changes. It destroys the energy. Maybe I need someone to do these things. Faster changes. I must have lost more thatn 4-5 minutes in total just rearranging the space which is dead time and certainly not at all helpful for the building up of an energy in the audience and captivating its attention.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Whenever I deliver a caption (either on the table or on the tags-wall) I need to deliver the caption calm, clean and aware of my posture, the space, the audience. After that, I can pick up the red tag and move. Not two things at the same time. It gives an uneasy feeling, a person that is stressed. And that would be ok if it were part of my script. But it's not and it doesnt help me. In general, I need to work out my performing qualities. Now that I have seen it, I can understand why I feel stressed. Probably because I have "intruders" in the space. I have gotten used to work on my own. New people in the space make me feel uncomfortable. I have to feel comfortable. It's ok to be social. I have to break the glass separating the audience and me. FUCK it's such a small space even.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Bein neutral is better. Don't put on a smile. It's slimmy it's disgusting and more than that it expresses an interpretation that makes the piece be very literal. The emotional impact of the photo itself is enough. I don't need to use my face to amplify this carnage.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">For the singing part (it's a good idea) but I need to really work out on the way I am building up movement. There is something very broken in or breaking of the energy. I don't feel very happy. More than that, I need to work out the timing and the way of accumulation much more. An idea is not enough. It needs work to polish it. Just like with the text. I feel quite succesful with my efforts with the text. Not that the singing is so bad. But a little bit more experimentation on how to move and how to accumulate wouldn't harm. Maybe I could even set it out more. Improv is good but in order to make sure that everytime the work is done the way I want then I should set it out.</span><br /><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);font-size:130%;" ><span style="font-weight: bold;">C. Reception of the performance</span></span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I've heard very good comments about the piece. People felt slowly drawn by the juxtaposition of the photos and they were anticipating what would happen next. Some people told me that although neutral and clean, the piece indeed had a very strong polemical stance without being dictating. Some others told me that the level of research, the hours in the studio, the hard work were not only felt and viewed in the piece but they gave a feeling of high professionalism that was beyond a sheer sharing of research work. I was even told that I am smart. True or not I don't know. I like just transferring the words.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I want to know more and more however how the work (piece and research) was perceived. I want to hear more about their interpretation of the result and the method of the work. I want to hear their feedback.</span><br /><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);font-size:130%;" ><span style="font-weight: bold;">Some further questions for going further from now on</span></span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">How did this research work ?</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">What were the main characteristics of the research ?</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">What were the advantages and disadvantages of this research method?</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">What are the links between method and result?</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">What other methods could I use to arrive at the same result?</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">What other methods could I use to change the result?</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">How is the result perceived?</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">What can be changed in the result?</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">How can it be changed?</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">What should not be changed in the result?</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">How do you correct the performer?</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Do you correct the performer?</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">What is the concept according to an audience member?</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Can this perceived concept allow for a different interpretation or is it so strong that no other level of interpretation is accepted?</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">How does this piece make the audience feel?</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">How did this research make the blog-readers feel?</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">How interesting was this research method for blog-readers?</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">How useful was this research method for the piece?</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Could it be easier?</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Could it be more difficult?</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Was it helpful reflecting?</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">What other methods I have used that I have not identifies?</span><br /><br /></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6107862390387282735.post-1856287741842128842008-06-24T00:12:00.000-07:002008-06-27T01:05:01.067-07:00Regarding the pain of others - a lecture performance<iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' webkitallowfullscreen='webkitallowfullscreen' mozallowfullscreen='mozallowfullscreen' width='320' height='266' src='https://www.blogger.com/video.g?token=AD6v5dxtcHr568U-sv-VOptMwlxmIu1rRtABdUDv-DWIw4HUjn6PUabOqhbGq790uJxgHrKY1Z0rdvaK6IyvAbBv5w' class='b-hbp-video b-uploaded' frameborder='0'></iframe><br /><br /><iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' webkitallowfullscreen='webkitallowfullscreen' mozallowfullscreen='mozallowfullscreen' width='320' height='266' src='https://www.blogger.com/video.g?token=AD6v5dwnff2NHivePEUAjf8evKeG5UfvAbiBxcjrsvUIQuHA4brNv-RSLB5pNkJ7rdOUJKAYr7V1EYzS86Ad8cJvtw' class='b-hbp-video b-uploaded' frameborder='0'></iframe><br /><br /><br /><br /><iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' webkitallowfullscreen='webkitallowfullscreen' mozallowfullscreen='mozallowfullscreen' width='320' height='266' src='https://www.blogger.com/video.g?token=AD6v5dxRtn6VsgQlc_Hxv0oiDLHcX0Iav_6CMlD03x7z4lb1f_I5eXp3XWkHFwcH355vTYrlMCKdJ1z2kHmnlqiyvA' class='b-hbp-video b-uploaded' frameborder='0'></iframe><br /><br /><br /><iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' webkitallowfullscreen='webkitallowfullscreen' mozallowfullscreen='mozallowfullscreen' width='320' height='266' src='https://www.blogger.com/video.g?token=AD6v5dwKENtkNKEPVpoll9MYDjTomUGfNh0cnLMrd_WNsRI5BDSqPTj3XeC_hHsJTMP9Y6pBejbg9_lNuaefKsnYBg' class='b-hbp-video b-uploaded' frameborder='0'></iframe>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6107862390387282735.post-5250121944258333962008-06-19T23:20:00.000-07:002008-06-27T01:04:11.529-07:00First Impressions, Program Notes and a not so brief brief<div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);font-size:130%;" ><span style="font-weight: bold;">First impressions</span></span><br />So the show of the work in progress is over.<br />I really wanted to write some things yesterday but I was extremely tired. I spent whole Thursday sleeping and just going from bed to kitchen.<br />Really sorry for all those of you who waited to hear some news.<br /><br />So here it goes.<br /><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">They usually say that a bad dress rehearsal means a good premiere. Indeed the dress rehearsal was awful. I forgot to put the projections on, I forgot my text, I was TOO stressed... fucking bad... you can't imagine.</span><br /><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">But the things turned better for the evening show.</span><br /><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Before that, I had had a brief warming up with Fabio, my spiritual guide. It helped me a lot to release the tension in my body and concentrate on my center. After that, I had 10 mins to reconfigure the space and get ready for the performance.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Leon Carter, the technician was an excellent assistant and he was also very interested in my work and gave me a lot of questions on the content of the presentation. It was nice to work with someone who finds my lecture interesting.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">The performance started and I was less stressed than in the dress rehearsal, still I was tense. With the time passing I managed to relax and take it easy.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Some little mistakes that happened, I managed to take them along board, I hope, and perform s if they are a part of the happening, alongside with the deliberate mistakes that would prove the format of performance lecture.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I was a bit slow in reconfiguring the space after the pig headed mask, and I think that has costed a lot of energy in the audience, especially becoz it was the beginning of the lecture.</span><br /><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">But I think that the text has managed to take the audience with it and to lead them to specific moods.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Maria, a girl following the MAC program, she said she was about to cry. Not all of the audience felt so emotionally pitched but with all these people that I have spoken, they all felt drawn to follow without a breath the juxtaposition of photos.</span><br /><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">One little problem is that the laser was pointing too low and began too early. As a result the line of tags was not the same as I had expected. Weird I felt. I am not sure if it is for better or worse. It just felt different.</span><br /><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">A little bit before arriving to the song, Martin had suggested that I should introduce the syncopated way of speaking one or two sentences before the "I am real"... And so I did... first time ever to rehearse it this way, and it worked out fine.</span><br /><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">During the song, i also decided to add more and more action and to become bigger and bigger. That decision came after having seen the video, where there is a great climax and then because I stop singing and moving, it flattens everything. So I decided never to stop moving (even if i didnt have to sing). I think it brought everything to a nice climax.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);font-size:130%;" ><span style="font-weight: bold;">A nice anecdote on nudity</span></span><br />If you remember by the end of the performance, I leave the space and go out to put some new clothes only to come back and ask the audience members if they have any questions or queries.<br />That was my intention to make the audience members look at the space after I have left it. A small museum. A document.<br /><br />Well here is what happened. I open the door and I get out of the room. I am naked. Some kids are playing just in front of me. They get shocked. Even more shocked when I scream. I rush into the other room to change clothes. That takes some time. I am back, but one audience member thought it was over (that was Tony who is probably now reading my blog).<br />After some difficult questions, the show is over and I learned from the people that the kids went to the security to report the incident of a crazy guy running naked and screaming. The audience who had by that time just gotten out of the room, had to explain to the security guy that it was a performance.<br />My god... I never thought I would shock so much...<br />I feel really sorry for these kids. But the little pets have never played there before so that I could guess that they might be there. Oh well, anyway... they will have to face reality I guess in some years.<br />and as i say in my lecture "but what reality, whose reality are we talking about???"<br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);font-size:130%;" ><span style="font-weight: bold;">Some reflections</span></span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">1. I think this work needs to go further. I feel quite strong connected to it and believe there is something very interesting in it. It is still a work-in-progress though and therefore I need to find time to work on it even more.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">2. Even as a work-in-progress , I believe people realized the amount of work behind it. That gave me a small of a tap in the back and a encouragement to go further. My work has been sort of recognized and there is nothing more I could ask. Imagine if I polish it what there would come.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">3. Not having performed the last 2-3 years it was really difficult for me to come back. I think it was even more difficult because I never had the chance to work as a performer not did I have an external eye to correct me. Never the less, doing and redoing the performance has helped me to acquire a level of comfortability that I was lacking in the beginning. Still, I need to learn how to relax and not stress. If there is one thing I need to work more than anything else that is my stress and anxiety. If I were a bit more loose the piece would be much better. But again it was the premiere. That's ok. Not only that, but it was a work-in progress.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">4. I need to put a tape in the cameras that are doing the supplement document, so that if I ever do it again I can use the material to have a better editing.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">5. I should work out the first part where I reconfigure the space after the pig. It is quite boring to wait and wait.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">6. I should see the video of the performance and then jump into conclusion but for the time being I think that what the text needs is sharpness and clarity in performance and at the same time try to break the glass between me and the audience. I need to be closer to the audience. Not it terms of geographic proximity but in terms of communication. If I loosen up I can do it better.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">7. In a few words, I need to work out my performance skills, for sure. thank god laban does not have that as a criterion :)</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">8. Find cheaper batteries. My god each battery costs 2 pounds and I use 2 of them which means every performance costs at least 4 pounds. That's expensive... I am never going to make any money out of it...</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">9. I would like to perform this piece (when finished) to different audiences and countries and see their reaction. Since, for me, the piece is about war and photography, things that are global. How can the different cultures react to this piece?</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">10. Watch the film and then add up here your next thoughts.</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);font-size:130%;" ><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">PROGRAM NOTES</span></span><br />Here are the notes of the program of the performance. This is what I want the audience to read.<br /><blockquote style="background-color: rgb(0, 0, 102); color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><br /><div style="text-align: center;">TITLE Regarding the pain of others- Performance Lecture<br /><br />"<span style="background-color: rgb(51, 204, 0);">Invited [by Laban] I decided, instead of presenting the piece, to make a lecture about its issues. I have the feeling that this difficult piece hasn't been really understood. Maybe the piece was bad. But I believe that the issues of this piece were relevant, that is why I would like to change my medium and use the tool of the lecture to try to articulate better the stakes of ‘[Regarding the pain of others]’. I will re-contextualise the piece in its theoretical level through the texts of [Susan Sontag] and [Caroline Brothers] and in my artistic situation at that time."</span><br />(copied from Jérôme Bel), [edited by Pavlos Kountouriotis]<br /><br />CHOREOGRAPHER Pavlos Kountouriotis<br /><br />PERFORMERS Pavlos Kountouriotis<br /><br />SOUND “'Mal Reggendo All'aspro Assalto' from 'Il Trovatore'” by Enrico Caruso<br />“I am real” by Pavlos Kountouriotis<br /><br />LIGHT DESIGN Leon Carter<br /><br />SCENOGRAPHY Pavlos Kountouriotis<br /><br />COLLABORATORS Pavlos Kountouriotis<br /><br />Special thanks to my blog fans and haters, to Aaron Paterson and Martin Hargreavess for their great support, to Fabio Culora for his spiritual guidance, to Leon Carter for the lights and of course to me…<br /></div></blockquote><br />And <a href="http://docs.google.com/fileview?id=F.6e17b329-9c80-4065-b53f-06efb1139579&hl=en_GB">this is a two page brief</a>, of a more academic thought on my piece that does not interpret the piece in terms of what the piece itself says already, but tries to unpick another strand of interpretation of my research. Click <a href="http://docs.google.com/fileview?id=F.6e17b329-9c80-4065-b53f-06efb1139579&hl=en_GB">here to access the .pdf file</a>. (If the link doesnt work blame it to Google and ask me to send you the file). You can also read it below but it misses some nice photos and footnots also.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; background-color: rgb(153, 153, 153); color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);font-size:130%;" >2 pages brief (not available to the audience)</span><br /></span><div style="text-align: center; background-color: rgb(153, 153, 153); color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="font-weight: bold;">Regarding the Pain of Others- A performance Lecture</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">by Pavlos Kountouriotis (2008)</span><br /></div><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(153, 153, 153); color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">Research Questions</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(153, 153, 153); color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">• How can documentation be a performative event?</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(153, 153, 153); color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">• How can documentation be an action of the past, the present and the future?</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(153, 153, 153); color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">• How does documentation relate to the dynamics of memory archiving and recollection taking place in the present time?</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(153, 153, 153); color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">• Where does reality (for Sontag) or authenticity (for Auslander) lie in documentation?</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(153, 153, 153); color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">• How do you perform a text? Or how do you get rid of the unholiness of captions?</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(153, 153, 153); color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">• How do you free a document from captions and text or how much of captions and texts are needed?</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(153, 153, 153); color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">• How can you make a piece where different levels of interpretation are possible? Or how do you construct different spaces of time within the same space, so that interpretation of these spaces depends on the angle and perspective of a caption? So that it’s not just what it seems it is, but different realities coexist within the same photo.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(153, 153, 153); color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">• How important are captions?</span><br /><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(153, 153, 153); color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">Aims and Objectives</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(153, 153, 153); color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">This work-in- progress in its entirety draws from the theories by Susan Sontag on the reality and performativity of documentation. Although Susan Sontag explicitly speaks about photography I try to enlarge the notion what that document might. Therefore two parallel universes were created that coexist and complement each other. The one is the choreography of a fictitious past moment breaking the boundaries between now, before and later and the other is the space of a live documentation of time.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(153, 153, 153); color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">In order for me to reply to the above questions and to connect these two parallel spaces I chose to create a third space, a line dissecting the two other universes and serving as a caption to understand, interpret or misinterpret both the choreography of a fictitious past and the live document. The power and the unholiness of captioning is also a constitutive part of Sontag’s theories.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(153, 153, 153); color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">Therefore, I chose for the medium of performance lecture, which, through its self-reflective, mirroring character can serve as a caption to the past, present and future. A thorough investigation on the stereotypes of the mode of a performance lecture has allowed me to give a comment on the authenticity and reality that this reemerging choreographic style builds by framing and staging only what the choreographer has chosen to think about or declares that he has chosen to thing about. Furthermore, if caption is perceived as both an explanation and an intention, without which the document has no meaning, the text and content of the performance lecture operates as a both the cause and the reason for the operation of live documentation and time/memory archiving.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(153, 153, 153); color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">In that sense, "connections between theory and performance are intertwined throughout. The Derridean concept of supplement as document in performance is inspirational for the production of the work. The latter focuses on the concept of present memory, traces, time delay and repetition, which I may find through this project, to be a paradox in the contemporary debate on liveness. This project is based on a hypothesis that notions of liveness and presence can be questioned by allowing manipulation of documentation in the live event to be the performance's opening stage rather than its point of closure thus generating a form of present memory".</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(153, 153, 153); color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">Other than working simply with visual documents, there was also an effort to enrich the notion of what the format of a document could be, other than photography, questioning maybe Susan Sontag’s (2003) comment/caption: “poster ready […] photos are the visual equivalent of sound bites” (86).</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(153, 153, 153); color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">Last but not the least, a very important characteristic of this work was my deliberate choice to work alone in the choreographing, photographing and general documentation of this work. Choreographing, perceived as historiography, as a means for creating a memory, had to be a solo work. As Sontag (1983) says: “Photos become memories and over time, fiction; there is no such thing as Collective Memory […] Memory is individual, irreproducible- it dies with each person.” (85) Furthermore, blogging every day was a part of the research on historiography but also captioning in order to explain to myself what had happened during my research that day and also to open the space for others to send me feedback.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255); background-color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">Bibliography</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255); background-color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">Cologni, E. (2005).Fruition: perceptual time 'gap' as location for knowledge - Mnemonic Present Un-folding, Perspective section of Body, Space & Technology, (05), Retrieved June 17, 2008 from: http://people.brunel.ac.uk/bst/vol05/index.html</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255); background-color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">Derrida, J. (1978). That Dangerous Supplement, in Of Grammatology, Gayatri Spivak (tr.), Baltimore: John Hopkins University Press.</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255); background-color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">Sontag, S. (2003). Regarding the pain of others. New York: Farrar, Straus and Giroux.</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255); background-color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">Brothers, C. (1996), War and Photography: a cultural history. New York: Routledge.</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;"><br /></span></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6107862390387282735.post-72664233710713039282008-06-17T22:13:00.000-07:002008-06-27T00:58:13.355-07:00Countdown: 1 day before presentation of the work in progress<span style="font-weight: bold;font-size:130%;" >Open</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-weight: bold;">ing up: from self-infulgence to other people</span></span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Today, I worked out on my intentions and especially on explaining, and being neutral.</span><br /> <div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">In order for me to have the feeling that I am talking TO someone, that this performance is open TO someone, I put some pictures on the chairs (from the Tuol Sleng prison). I have to admit that the gaze of the everdying girl on the right, probably at the age of my sister now, was really strong. I felt her presence haunting me. There was a moment when I was just asked to stop speaking and look at her. I am not sure if she liked what I said. She was just staring at me. I got the point later, when she whispered to me through her gaze good luck. Weird, huh?</span><br /></div><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjCMn9zv141X21JOvLQLg6J63Lisz0vdLqVRlf3OSHZ7hCAwdHoVLX-jai_aWDWlI38rmLwGPkEPyzRQG1xuQOGig0JbGH4jf6MQTx7TZrAMWWz3SswuRPD88_YtSEuA-Kr5lmSijPybXiy/s1600-h/P6171933.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjCMn9zv141X21JOvLQLg6J63Lisz0vdLqVRlf3OSHZ7hCAwdHoVLX-jai_aWDWlI38rmLwGPkEPyzRQG1xuQOGig0JbGH4jf6MQTx7TZrAMWWz3SswuRPD88_YtSEuA-Kr5lmSijPybXiy/s400/P6171933.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5213086578745371266" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEha_huiTfcANEqEPCOhv_UwKREvwf06fn7ugUmqrZNXORczjt9b5s1X3eik73gDwvHVVwRqI6TmE-Xn8g1LFspWR1Mlt11C8vN5ciWf3o0PUgYTgMh6O1d-rw3rahPbbcx1ad7Z7xrX7I-f/s1600-h/P6171961.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEha_huiTfcANEqEPCOhv_UwKREvwf06fn7ugUmqrZNXORczjt9b5s1X3eik73gDwvHVVwRqI6TmE-Xn8g1LFspWR1Mlt11C8vN5ciWf3o0PUgYTgMh6O1d-rw3rahPbbcx1ad7Z7xrX7I-f/s400/P6171961.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5213086582314939122" border="0" /><br /></a> <div style="text-align: center;">Some of the tags waiting to become an archive of time on the laser's path.<br /><br /><br /><br /></div> <a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiiB10KalETihfX5P7zr_01A38g4iIri7Y3MKvNIVu3z_8cw9XqxffxESuivaGxkTTrZULjVcsIEnKKr-gvdy0AwuOoG8OhDyAoFohpRdTTB1ODhavzzy21IFIX5kL8FUcaKvUDe4-mBtgT/s1600-h/P6171923.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiiB10KalETihfX5P7zr_01A38g4iIri7Y3MKvNIVu3z_8cw9XqxffxESuivaGxkTTrZULjVcsIEnKKr-gvdy0AwuOoG8OhDyAoFohpRdTTB1ODhavzzy21IFIX5kL8FUcaKvUDe4-mBtgT/s400/P6171923.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5213086596334959618" border="0" /></a><br />It was the first time that I managed to do the whole performance with a laser pointer and I had never seen what the path of the point really looks like. I had thought that it would be a straight line. No... I could have never thought. This is sooo interesting. History is not a straight line.<br /><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjzVAo1g9vVsJ-RYcSmQLedCqKcK-_IrpKniUKRAKcwgvLew6rFgvERVAt21i9Qyijli86sKzokyMOLekcr-jWbhXNoqqzQs9qdkRRWd69LntOc0qu0DSmaaJXjWoI6D3pariXei8RDE8N9/s1600-h/P6171940.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjzVAo1g9vVsJ-RYcSmQLedCqKcK-_IrpKniUKRAKcwgvLew6rFgvERVAt21i9Qyijli86sKzokyMOLekcr-jWbhXNoqqzQs9qdkRRWd69LntOc0qu0DSmaaJXjWoI6D3pariXei8RDE8N9/s400/P6171940.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5213086603930782274" border="0" /></a>Well, the space has been blacked out (which I didnt really like, coz it sort of destroyed it) and the lights were put. I would at least have prefered if there was a curtain to hide up the blackness of the window. Unfortunately not. But it's ok... It's STILL A WORK IN PROGRESS REMEMBER???<br /><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjPJIPtJ7_fTwjgxd8BWYyoU9Z4aAz5JMRs6G7eWzbujldgJfrQ1b9kYui35gB6YwZoNBuhsyN74_mKJw_nUqCEVlPoJMqq6i_9SPKzFsWEqwiPLerEXOQk6x-ee-xFKlwc1TUX9MyR5hMs/s1600-h/P6171983.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjPJIPtJ7_fTwjgxd8BWYyoU9Z4aAz5JMRs6G7eWzbujldgJfrQ1b9kYui35gB6YwZoNBuhsyN74_mKJw_nUqCEVlPoJMqq6i_9SPKzFsWEqwiPLerEXOQk6x-ee-xFKlwc1TUX9MyR5hMs/s400/P6171983.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5213086593139616930" border="0" /></a>So yesterday, I did 2 run throughs from the beginning until the end. Some minor mistakes in my words, probably many mistakes in my performance qualities but mainly a lot of lack in coordination with technical demands. So, when I finished rehearsing, I went to a chinese restaurant nearby to have some dinner and I took elaborate notes on the exact steps of technical requirements I have to do in every section of the piece. I hope I won't forget them...Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6107862390387282735.post-20851315098828596992008-06-16T22:55:00.000-07:002008-06-27T00:55:58.025-07:00Security, Comfortability and a still difficult text<div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">So, actually today I started by thinking technical stuff. As I said I needed to figure out how the photo would hang and still make noise. So my first idea was to put a rope and some hangers</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">and just hang the photo from there.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Once I did that, I realized that the rope was sitting too low, and that it looked a bit cheap. So I thought that if it looks cheap, it's better if you do it a bit more so that it looks more like a choice than the only possibility. So I put three rows of ropes and here is the result.</span><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhsV02MdbbRT03PPtlpDJg32DRtp_dFaHOlUCZjbt2max6gdAZOrcqmX43m6MToc0pLgZzGwwU40hA_5WBCcMMWdiyeaz_E5Aor0Wu1W8TVZqG0MouHngjUQW05I2roXZovy5iXP-rPTNAl/s1600-h/hungers2.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhsV02MdbbRT03PPtlpDJg32DRtp_dFaHOlUCZjbt2max6gdAZOrcqmX43m6MToc0pLgZzGwwU40hA_5WBCcMMWdiyeaz_E5Aor0Wu1W8TVZqG0MouHngjUQW05I2roXZovy5iXP-rPTNAl/s400/hungers2.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5212726113992637650" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgFrJgOXvy-yDfkzHRN3d3M-hijrm-ffE7dU3-KxD3DpJYye5_h_NySqgIHb3pM9KqL8LlEmWj9DGDETR3Ltek_1wCcDSHyic5hoAr1fA7Sr3-g-4RDampP1WyiaqpgIZ3rVBfVxKLFzqyb/s1600-h/hungers1.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgFrJgOXvy-yDfkzHRN3d3M-hijrm-ffE7dU3-KxD3DpJYye5_h_NySqgIHb3pM9KqL8LlEmWj9DGDETR3Ltek_1wCcDSHyic5hoAr1fA7Sr3-g-4RDampP1WyiaqpgIZ3rVBfVxKLFzqyb/s400/hungers1.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5212726105386694194" border="0" /></a><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Although I quite liked it, there were two problems:</span><br /></div> <ol style="text-align: justify; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"><li>The tape on the wall made it look cheap and unstable, after some time the rope would just drop in the middle because of the weight of the photos. I manage to solve this, by putting some foamy little stickers on the wall and locking the rope was easier so that it can't slip away. But if I had more money, I would prefer to have a metallic chord (like a silver one) and instead of sticker use something like nails or better you know like a mettalic bar that could be used for hanging one coat. Like a single thingy only. Nickel.</li><li>Nice construction. But do you use it? No... so why have it if you don't use this whole thing. I realized that if I liked such a construction (which I wasn't really sure), I needed to take advantage of it. Not just let it hang. I did not have time until Wednesday. Therefore, this case was out of question.</li></ol> <div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">When I was in these shops in Deptford of one pound, I discovered these metallic corners that they use to put under a shelf to support it. They only had a cheesy golden one. So I bought that for one pound, I discovered the height I needed to put it, I glued a sticker on the wall and voila... My little sound device was ready to be used.</span><br /><a style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhnxozbMt7pmQeNDN85tsCgyyc7hL7nMZ-9SFuYPeTnQK-JeyKdKgS_hdKWFP_RfgBWTFL7neS-Zj_R66UnC_iHRVziuWe-bXOUSBsW4oDDcC8MDD0CGUzXDRysXPkOc6K4_R4Hi91Y2cY6/s1600-h/lecture+2.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhnxozbMt7pmQeNDN85tsCgyyc7hL7nMZ-9SFuYPeTnQK-JeyKdKgS_hdKWFP_RfgBWTFL7neS-Zj_R66UnC_iHRVziuWe-bXOUSBsW4oDDcC8MDD0CGUzXDRysXPkOc6K4_R4Hi91Y2cY6/s400/lecture+2.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5212726123562220194" border="0" /></a><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-weight: bold;">Rehearsing the new text</span></span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">So today I took the decision to go further with this new text as I had discovered it on Sunday. What I did though is to define what the spaces mean to me and set a specific rule for each space. So on the desk I give the following information: date, place, photographer. On the place where the red tag is supposed to be, I give a description but in the style of a caption or the caption. If needed, I turn to the photo and give some part of the theory behind it.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">This is the rule, but I try to play with it as much as possible. Especially in the second part where I am questioning the unholiness of the tags, I am playing more and more with this rule.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Now what I needed to do is to cut the theory as much as possible and let the juxtaposition of photos to speak for themselves.</span><br /><a style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgKTh0gis5WKfWETvsdWNmw9JjNQLT-mVrjCgi9M3ia2UhXZQQd_CIQ30U_4krsnNZjQ9MzqPLgDkBsMgYk2g-h5dStJzmqFpafewAV22F9WfBSFs3fb8QFm67PbO-K8NtTEnoZcyBaGtXI/s1600-h/lecture.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgKTh0gis5WKfWETvsdWNmw9JjNQLT-mVrjCgi9M3ia2UhXZQQd_CIQ30U_4krsnNZjQ9MzqPLgDkBsMgYk2g-h5dStJzmqFpafewAV22F9WfBSFs3fb8QFm67PbO-K8NtTEnoZcyBaGtXI/s400/lecture.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5212726768081321682" border="0" /></a><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 204, 0);">A small feedback I got from Martin is that even when commenting, I should try to keep myself as neutral as possible. Like an example is when I say: "it proved harder for Americans to duplicate Thatchers controls on the recording of the own </span><span style="font-style: italic; background-color: rgb(51, 204, 0);">foreign adventures</span><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 204, 0);">" . "Foreign adventures" sounds too ironic. I could make it less. Or when I say the part of Margaret Thatcher during Falklands, I don't have to show that I have a great gossip that noone knows. more neutral (not that it was bad, but it can make the piece more dubious).</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 204, 0);">He also said that this new style of lecture, has opened up space for the audience to work alongside. He found that he can clearly see the research behind it and he is engaged much more with the idea.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">What I also want to do it to keep myself (ofcourse more neutral) and a little bit more robotic, in a sense, here this, there that, keep it short, clean brief, strong, articulate. Not a lot of movement.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Especially for the second part, where a bit more of theory comes in, I got some feedback from Aaron that I should only say the text in my own words. When I use Susan's words, I don't come to the audience as a knowledgeable person, but I show an insecurity. I don't touch them.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">Aaron also told me that when I am saying the theory the voice is coming from the chest and the head instead of the belly. It proves insecure. I should try to keep it low within me.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">Processing that feedback, I think that I should really try to speak to the audience. MY INTENTION (and here is where Fabio also comes in) is to to pass something to the audience. I am not just reciting. I want to make a conversation, a communication, be sure that you get what I say.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">Moreover, I should also not perform the fact that I am thinking. NO, I know what I am talking about.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">Here is the last last part of the lecture (end of second part). After 8 hours of rehearsals, here I am. TOO tired, but I think it sorts of starts working now.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">What do you think?</span><br />Of course more rehearsals.<br /><div style="text-align: center;"><iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' webkitallowfullscreen='webkitallowfullscreen' mozallowfullscreen='mozallowfullscreen' width='320' height='266' src='https://www.blogger.com/video.g?token=AD6v5dw0LpPJhqYtfFmlyKgS-WuEM6zrEMHGIQTw7EL482NNrDen3Xc5RkEvY01zQqjcEOJI-rZCYHgzLVKUjjxWLA' class='b-hbp-video b-uploaded' frameborder='0'></iframe><br /></div><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-weight: bold;">Warming Up</span><br /><span style="font-size:100%;">Althought the piece is not a dance piece, it is quite demanding physically speaking. Because being able to scream so loud needs to have the breath and center well warmed up. Not only that, but performing 40 mins without a break needs a lot of strength and relaxation. After a while you start losing your energy and falling asleep (the room doesnt help a lot because there is no oxygen). <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">Therefore I have decided to have a small of a "wakeup" warmup everytime before each rehearsal. </span></span><br /></span><span style="text-decoration: underline;"><span style="font-weight: bold;"><br /></span></span><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiik3bqg5f6qKu-U_p8P8RYa8EyRFmxkSlyMluQI0JjnihQjIfkVmo0Bfj-B30y3_gcvqPkm3xeyy5MNQeKATbJ37csWHgNGnAmft7UM40I_PgSNFIUy_Ww9uONRaozH7a4VHx7_VMOmkOI/s1600-h/DSCF1364.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiik3bqg5f6qKu-U_p8P8RYa8EyRFmxkSlyMluQI0JjnihQjIfkVmo0Bfj-B30y3_gcvqPkm3xeyy5MNQeKATbJ37csWHgNGnAmft7UM40I_PgSNFIUy_Ww9uONRaozH7a4VHx7_VMOmkOI/s400/DSCF1364.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5212726101612315938" border="0" /></a><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;"><span style="font-size:130%;">Tomorrow is technical rehearsal</span><br /></span>So tomorrow for the technical rehearsal, I should have the space ready with beamers.<br /><ul style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><li>I should give to the technician the DVD with the video that needs to be played on the PLASMA screens</li><li>I should try out maybe some very basic lighting. I am not sure if I need it. I need to try out.</li><li>I should put black clothe on the window and door.</li><li>I should ask for the cables of the projector and cameras to go back of the audience so that the only cables available are the ones on stage. No cables separating the space between audience/performer.</li><li>I should print out the photos that I dont have and need.</li><li>I should make a DVD of the playmobils video.</li><li>If I use light, I need to give specific cues to the technician.</li><li>After the technician is gone, I should work out 3-4 times the text. Once I feel secure enough,</li><li>I should try and have 2-3 total run throughs. To get used to the exhaustion of the piece. No break should be allowed, even if a mistake happens. What do you do when a mistake happens? How do you treat it?</li></ul><br />Oh my god....<br /><br /><br />Today</div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6107862390387282735.post-35583185960916016792008-06-14T17:15:00.001-07:002008-06-27T01:16:57.928-07:00(new) Text # 6.943.603<div style="text-align: justify; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-weight: bold;font-size:130%;" >A big failure.</span><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">After having made a great script for a lecture, I tried to learn parts of it by heart. I felt quite comfortable with it because there was a logical line and also I felt like I really knew what I was taking about. The script gave me a lot of security.</span><br /><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">By the end of the evening, I tried to perform the whole text to see how it goes.</span><br /><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Already in the first 6-10 min, I felt quite tired and bored and I couldn't keep my concentration. I was feeling sooooo bored. Anyway, because the camera was filming I had no chance to get distracted. I could only keep on going.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Somewhere in the middle (page 8 or 9 out of the 16) I felt that this lecture is taking quite long. I also heard someone and I guessed it might be the guard locking the school. I checked out from the window and I didn't see anything, so I kept on working. But hearing more noises, feeling that the time is really passing by, I decided to check out the time. It was already 18.00. I was naked in the room, ready to be discovered by the guard for being late and not having left the building earlier. Oh my god. I panicked.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Look at this :)</span><br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><img style="height: 266px; width: 320px;" src="http://www.blogger.com/video-thumbnail.g?contentId=586f2ffb7c9291c7&zx=0.12722621784181543" /><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /><br /><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I looked back at it, and it was DEADLY BORING. I am not kidding you. If my piece was about boredom, I could have a great performance. Naive boring, but boring. I was really dissapointed. I had arrived on page 8 out of 16 and had spoken for about 40 min. MY GOD. And imagine that in this time I havent shown even half of my photos, nor did I sing or show the playmobils video.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">3 days before the performance. And here I am still struggling out with Susan. I hate her to be honest.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;font-size:130%;" >What do you do now?</span><br />So<span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);"> what I said to myself is that I need to approach the whole performance anew. What do I need? What do I like? What do I not need? Can I arrange differently?</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">I said to myself that I could suggest completely crazy ideas with the material I already had, so that I can open my mind a bit, and then I could return to the more practical basis of 3 days still.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">Here is some ideas from my brainstorming:</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">- Create a space full of playmobils already "dead' and the video showing, the song playing. The people come in more like visitor to an installation than audience, red tags on the wall, laser pointer playing</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">- Have two big desks of photos, take any photo, stick it on the wall, while singing</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">- Show photos say maximum 4 words for each photo, stick a red tag.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">- Read captions without stopping, then sing the song, show photos without stopping or pausing, show playmobils video and virginia woolf's image</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">- Become the pig and start saying the description of virginia's image</span><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-weight: bold;">(new) Rules to make your text for a performance (draft #1.097)</span></span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">Well, after having opened a bit my mind about the structure, I decided that the best possibility for me would be to do the following:</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">- Identify parts of the theory that I have used to create my "choreography".</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">- Print out thumbnails of the photos and spread them over your bed. Organize them in groups of meaning, time, subject, whatever you might want.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">- Pick up those groups that you need to explain the theories above. Take the rest out.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">- Put the pictures you have chosen and put them in such an order so that the arguments of the theory can come through.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">- Now, try to speak as little as possible per picture. Avoid saying the theory(=give a caption) as much as possible.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">- Always give the following information: date, place, photographer. The rest might not be needed. Make sure you can come through your ideas without any sauce or cherry topping.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">Click on the image below to see my example:</span><br /><br /><a style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg9sTnUBL4KrSYP5SZ7rjD9MAEaaklms1p0hMjcyNkqovkUXZA68sERGL1et-QnvTk6TCd1I4n7J8Pvpj8I_-eN1Ik6-EQE3OQMMAof4yvzHk_qj85_NImL7kYc6iRzgqszvkfvdRGfO8CB/s1600-h/photos+on+bed.jpg" target="_blank"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg9sTnUBL4KrSYP5SZ7rjD9MAEaaklms1p0hMjcyNkqovkUXZA68sERGL1et-QnvTk6TCd1I4n7J8Pvpj8I_-eN1Ik6-EQE3OQMMAof4yvzHk_qj85_NImL7kYc6iRzgqszvkfvdRGfO8CB/s400/photos+on+bed.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><span style="color: rgb(102, 255, 153);">Green circle</span> is questioning reality of documentation through the idea of composition and (self)censorship<br /><span style="color: rgb(102, 204, 204);">Blue circle</span> is about the power of captions to give the meaning to a photo/document<br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 153);">Yellow circle</span> is about memory and how photo/document works<br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-weight: bold;">Well it wasn't a failure after all</span></span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">Making these coloured circles, I realised that I would never have arrived to them if I hadn't written the script. In a sense, they are almost the same groupings that the text is indicating. I needed to write the text to put my thoughts in an order. But now it is about time to get rid of my text to leave the presentation more free again. This game between attachment and detachment for the text (either that being mine, or Susan Sontag's or mine+ Susan's) is really tiring. But I am happy to have taken this step.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-weight: bold;">New Try out on New Text<br /><br /></span></span><div style="text-align: center;"><img style="height: 266px; width: 320px;" src="http://www.blogger.com/video-thumbnail.g?contentId=f03ec01168008dd4&zx=0.07540060194315967" /><br /><div style="text-align: left;"><br />So, now that was a try out of the "new" text. That is approximately 10 mins and is a little bit more than half of the lecture. I am happy as far as timing is concerned.<br />My worries however now are the following:<br /><ul><li style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Is this new mode of delivering the text, allowing space for the text to exist? or is there a lot of movement and a lot of thing happening that people don't really care about what i say ?<br /></li><li style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I should keep two different tones of delivering the text: (a) a sharp and strict one, almost mechanic just giving the very basic of a caption, namely year, place, photographer and (b) a more lose and discursive character when giving comments on the photos. Maybe I could also define spaces for doing each. Meaning on the table I give the year, in the middle of the room (while walking, not stopping) I give the place, on the wall I give the photographer, I turn to the audience and give my comment (if needed). I don't know that's an idea</li><li style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">How do I keep my presence strong, without being slow nor very mechanic, boring or alienated from the audience. How much do I speak with the audience?<br /></li><li><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Technically speaking, where do I put the photo to stand? how can it still make noise? What about Susan Sontag totem?</span><br /></li></ul></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-weight: bold;"><span style="font-size:130%;">Invitation<br /></span></span><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">There are only 4 places left to attend my performance on Wednesday. If you are interested in coming, send me an email or phone me. Entrance is for free but audience is restricted. </span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Just as a reminder nudity and images of violence are included. Not recommended for under 18.</span><br /><br /></span></span><br /></div></div></div> </div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6107862390387282735.post-75295896980151512922008-06-13T13:28:00.001-07:002008-06-27T00:09:43.445-07:00Two days blog (in a summary)<div style="text-align: justify; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"> <div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-size:100%;">It's not that I haven't worked any on Thursday and haven't put something online. In fact I did so much that I was too tired to write a blog (naughty me). So today I am probably going to bomb you with all the new information.<br /><br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="font-weight: bold;font-size:130%;" >Remaking the video with the Playmobils</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">So as you might remember, when I made the list of things I need for this solo, I realized that I had lost the video with the playmobils. So what I had to do on Thursday was to remake the video with the playmobils.</span> I was really angry that I had to do it again.<br />Not only that, but what I liked in the first video is the fact that the video recording and the editing were rough, not at all an attempt to be good (just because I did it in very few hours). Any further attempt would not be as raw as the first time.<br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Indeed, I went to the studio, tried to remember the story, arranged my playmobils in space according to the photos I had taken from "Here is New York" and also from the photos I had taken from the playmobils representing the photos of "Here is New York". In a sense there was something very referential when I shot it again. It was referring more to the video than to the actual photos. But I was quite happy with that because it gave the feeling of aesthetics of failure.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">I took then some of the very little segments of the first material I still had (and hadnt erased) and edited them with the new material, to make what is left down:</span><br /><object height="344" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/RT2gXm_BACs&hl=en"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/RT2gXm_BACs&hl=en" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" height="344" width="425"></embed></object><br /><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Looking back to it now, I think that I want to take out the yellow images because I find them too much effort to pass my idea, too literal. They don't allow for some space for ambiguity. What do you think ?</span><br /><br /></span><span style="font-weight: bold;font-size:130%;" >Earthquake</span><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;">For some reason, I can't remember how we ended up there, <span style="background-color: rgb(51, 204, 0);">Martin told me that he did not know that my piece was 1 hour. I explained to him that my piece, indeed, will not be an hour but approx 45 mins (but still long) and that I had given a detailed letter to the technicians and I had explained him in person. The problem was that my performance was scheduled in between other performances and provided that I have a restricted audience the rest of the audience would have to wait for an hour whilst my lecture.</span><br />I certainly understood that "technical" problem, but being told one week before that my performance was supposed to be less, it sort of like gave me a hard feeling. More than that I did not know whether Martin meant that my piece is not strong enough to be an hour. And that would make it a great feedback information. I wanted him to be straightforward and tell me exactly what he meant and why he tells me less than a week before that my piece should have been 15 mins.<br />Again, he stressed that he said that for techical reasons and that he thinks that my work needs time in order to show the idea of archiving time through the laser. A bit relieving, but in any case the whole discussion just shook me to start considering how interesting/strong or too long/ too prolix might be.<br />So I decided to reconsider my timing and see what is essential and what not. <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">Can I take out the not so essential elements? If not how can I make them look stronger? How can I keep the performance compact?</span></span><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="font-weight: bold;font-size:130%;" >Still problems with the text</span><br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">I decided that I should try and do the whole text in one go. As you remember my idea was to improvising with its structure. But maybe either because I was tired, or maybe because I was very critical, I discovered that some parts of the text were not really needer or did not link to other parts and that generally my text (although I chose how to proceed with arguments) was a bit chaotic. Besides that having an improvisational structure did not really solve the problem of WHEN to show pictures (before or after that specific part of the lecture).</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">I decided thus to write a lecture. Writing for me is easier to understand the overall line of argumentation, the timing of each element, to be able to take conscious decisions on when to show a photo, to be able to eliminate what is not needed to support the skeleton of the lecture etc.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">I don't think that I will read the text that I have written but more or less skim it through with my eyes. But, maybe I should not take decision. I should first try it out and see how it works. I need to be open in interpretation about it.</span><br /><br />You can find the text here (just click on it):<br /><a href="http://docs.google.com/Doc?id=dcxsjkkf_18f376xdf9"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><span style="font-weight: bold;">First Draft of the Lecture on Regarding the Pain of others</span></span></a><br /><br /><ul><li style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Performing the lecturer: In the text as you can see there are some moments where I deliberately "leave" the formal style of a lecture. Like for example the fact that I can't find a photo, or the fact that I introduce a photo at a point when I shouldn't because it goes against my argument etc. I use this as a part of the stylized format of a "performance lecture". If you take a better look on Performance/Lectures they deliberately include moments where they perform the lecturer. The lecturer that cares more about the content than the format of the presentation. The lecturer that has a lot of things to say and a lot of knowledge but will keep them to the minimum for the audience to understand and be able to follow them. In a way they perform the cool and the academic. Take for example the performance/lecture of Xavier Le Roy : Product of circumstances. He deliberately makes some of his papers fall down. He deliberately has put some extra slides in between the ones he wants to explain and skims them through fast saying "oh I could leave that for now, that is very technical" (meaning that is TOO difficult for you who have come to see a dance performance). Since a part of my research is about working with the medium of performance lecture, I would like to make a reference to such elements. Besides my work, by encapsulating the general traits and characteristics of a performance lecture, will be a sort of (maybe superficial maybe not) commentary on the mode of the performance lecture.</li><li style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">Anyway... what do you think of them? And what do you think about the text in general? Does it have a coherence? Do I need to say more on my work ?</li><li><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I mean the choreographic work will pop up on four moments where you see the highlighted text. For the time being I am thinking of just showing the work without saying anything about it. But somehow I find that weak... As if i can't apply the theory when "Speaking" about my work, only when doing my work.</span><br /></li><li>Where you see a small of a white box saying "image" or "sound only" I willbe showing a photo that relates to the text (or because there is no photo I will only be making some sound). I have not yet decided whether the image will be shown simultaneously with the text or a bit earlier or a bit after. That's something I need to do per case, I think.</li></ul><span style="font-weight: bold;font-size:130%;" >Feedback singing</span><br />Today, I showed the singing part to receive some feedback from my colleagues. <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">While performing it I felt the following: I was not sure whether I could look at the audience or not. So in the first part I was staring at them and then later on, when I started screaming i needed to be more esoteric and so I abandoned them. I was not feeling very sure with this idea.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">After having done it and before getting feedback, I felt that the timing was good, but somehow I had missed to do the following: (a) take some breaks when singing and allow only the machine to sing, (b)missed the higher pitches, (c)was too noisy because I sang too close to the amplifier for a long time.</span><br />Here is the video for you to have a look.<br /><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' webkitallowfullscreen='webkitallowfullscreen' mozallowfullscreen='mozallowfullscreen' width='320' height='266' src='https://www.blogger.com/video.g?token=AD6v5dw8gAPnb17C-KeKRdI6Sai83t0_T0cvtdebFRthvlG_lc_1PnySoM4xcEXUae7AykTf51jYmBm_ru6Z5b9skA' class='b-hbp-video b-uploaded' frameborder='0'></iframe><br /></div><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">And here is the feedback I received from the people.</span><br /><br /><br /></span></div> <p align="center"><iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' webkitallowfullscreen='webkitallowfullscreen' mozallowfullscreen='mozallowfullscreen' width='320' height='266' src='https://www.blogger.com/video.g?token=AD6v5dzEj0GXK6HL5yl7rkpGHQRao8xtqSW60GV9D_x-gOKMfd4pSJ1GEV3i6aP2dk16rBx5LSoUhl8kwWAQWa570A' class='b-hbp-video b-uploaded' frameborder='0'></iframe></p> <p align="center"><br /></p> </div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6107862390387282735.post-22487716501704689202008-06-11T11:58:00.000-07:002008-06-27T00:04:25.897-07:00Finding reasons for myself<div style="text-align: justify;">Again I was feelin utterly lazy today. I just did not want to do anything. I was checking and checking over and over again my emails but nothing came every second.<br />In a few words, I have to be honest, I just felt very lazy to work.<br />I met Leslie though who had come from France and we had a nice discussion about our works.<br /><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">Leslie gave me a very concrete question I need to think about.</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; background-color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">- How do I define war photography?</span><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 255, 51);"> what makes war photography? why is war photography different from anything else?</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">After some thought, I am starting to understand that it's better to use the term </span><span style="font-style: italic; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">visual representations (not just photography) of atrocities/sufferings caused in war and/or conflicts, that have been disseminated in media</span><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">. The visibility and public dissemination of these representation have offered them the power to be consider as historical evidence and thus to (re)write history. It is exactly the functions and methods of this power that my performance is talking about. In the course of the lecture I draw the difference between drawings, videos and photos and my focus goes to the latter as I believe it exercises the above power with a bitter and sharper bite.</span><br /><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">It might not sound a big discovery but it worked for me as a chain reaction to start thinking and questioning other things.</span><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjJt3eETYoWlN0_wsluqjjmveYUPig3JCM1N_0NUuj7r-S8VBkCf6-esGsGP8Uv0HfBKl1VZkgousj5m1C1ZdplSGDTqLiSS_x9G4R_qLldvmxeCPzCTf_a5N44JUMYCTLlPKjaswzP_Lh2/s1600-h/thinking+the+structure+and+the.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjJt3eETYoWlN0_wsluqjjmveYUPig3JCM1N_0NUuj7r-S8VBkCf6-esGsGP8Uv0HfBKl1VZkgousj5m1C1ZdplSGDTqLiSS_x9G4R_qLldvmxeCPzCTf_a5N44JUMYCTLlPKjaswzP_Lh2/s400/thinking+the+structure+and+the.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5210752394897311602" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">-What are the parts of the choreographed performance that are influenced/inspired by the parts of the lecture?</span><br /><br /></div> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">As you all remember, there is a fictitious "choreographed performance" that is supposed to have already happened. And this "choreographed performance" was based on the theories of Susan Sontag. What I am doing with the "performance lecture" is I am trying to explain the rationale behind the "choreography".</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">That means of course that the "performance leture" is an explanation of the "choreography" and not that the "choreographed performance" is a decorative or complimentary/supplementary element of the "performance lecture". In a sense there is a subordination of the "performance lecture" (=a real event) to the "choreographed performance (= a ficticious event).</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">But, we all know that the event has never happened and that my research and creative process for the event and the caption was going on simultaneously. Therefore, I felt that I need to work further on this specific relationship between event and caption (the latter between the explication of the former). The following questions and answers are not for the audience. There are destined to be read by me in order to know exactly what I am doing and to help me feel more confident and coherent in my presentation.</span><br /><br /><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">To do that, I had to see </span><span style="font-weight: bold; background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">what are my performance and lecture main contents?</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Performance components: </span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);font-size:85%;" >Virginia Woolf's Image</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);font-size:85%;" >Playmobil's Video of 9/11 photos</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);font-size:85%;" >Video of Photos with mixed tags</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);font-size:85%;" >Singing</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Lecture components:</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);font-size:85%;" >captions</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);font-size:85%;" >composition/ censorship</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);font-size:85%;" >memory</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);font-size:100%;" >The question now is </span><span style="font-weight: bold;font-size:100%;" ><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">do all these elements correspond?</span> </span><span style="font-size:100%;">If they don't work then elements of the lecture should be ommitted and others should be brought in to correspond to the performance components.</span><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span></div> <ul style="text-align: justify;"><li><span style="font-size:100%;">W<span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">ell, the </span></span><span style="font-weight: bold; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);font-size:100%;" >singing</span><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);font-size:100%;" > is pretty easy to say that it works on the idea of</span><span style="font-weight: bold; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);font-size:100%;" > memory</span><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);font-size:100%;" > since it was clearly made on that reason. </span></li></ul> <div style="text-align: justify; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"><span style="font-size:100%;">But the rest?<br /><br /></span></div> <ul style="text-align: justify; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"><li><span style="font-size:100%;">I mean I liked Virginia's image but </span><span style="font-weight: bold;font-size:100%;" >is there a direct correspondance to some theory or is it generally linked to the text of Susan Sontag?</span><span style="font-size:100%;"> why then reenact Virginia's image and why not Mininamata ? Tough question... I think what I need to stress out is that the image of </span><span style="font-weight: bold;font-size:100%;" >Virginia Wolf</span><span style="font-size:100%;"> is connected to this idea of </span><span style="font-weight: bold;font-size:100%;" >memory</span><span style="font-size:100%;">, that we only remember through photos and that other means of remembering are forgotten (that means that it is linked with memory). Of course the photo is made as an inspiration to Virginia's conviction that photography makes real what we the merely safe would prefer to ignore, but what I want to say here is that I need to find also a reason why showing this picture and not any other. It is because this photo (or perhaps its caption) holds a certain power to define the history and to tell us exactly how the spanish civil war was waging. The description of the </span><span style="font-weight: bold;font-size:100%;" >caption</span><span style="font-size:100%;"> is a description of the </span><span style="font-weight: bold;font-size:100%;" >composition</span><span style="font-size:100%;"> of the photo (we learn approximately the location, the props, the amount of people etc). In a few words the reenactment of the photo of Virginia Woolf can be explained by all 3 components of the lecture.<br /></span></li></ul> <ul style="text-align: justify; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"><li><span style="font-weight: bold;font-size:100%;" >Playmobil's video of 9/11</span><span style="font-size:100%;"> is inspired by the "Here is New York" exhibition where the photos featured uncaptioned and anonymous because it was thought that everyone knows about the event. The video is a commentary on the threat of abolishing </span><span style="font-weight: bold;font-size:100%;" >captions</span><span style="font-size:100%;">. Furthermore, the video is also inspired by the elaborate </span><span style="font-weight: bold;font-size:100%;" >composition</span><span style="font-size:100%;"> of the pictures and how the subjects are posing or are being posed. Now another thing is that the video for me shows parts that the photos have deliberately left out of the frame. The video thus works like the </span><span style="font-weight: bold;font-size:100%;" >"uncensored"</span></li></ul> <ul style="text-align: justify; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"><li><span style="font-size:100%;"> version of the images. The </span><span style="font-weight: bold;font-size:100%;" >video of photos with mixed tags</span><span style="font-size:100%;"> is obviously inspired by the idea that the photo by itself does not say anything. It is the </span><span style="font-weight: bold;font-size:100%;" >captions</span><span style="font-size:100%;"> that give the (mis)understandings and (mis)interpretations of the photos.</span></li></ul> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);font-size:100%;" >Now that I know exactly what I think of the choreography I need to decide </span><span style="font-weight: bold; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);font-size:100%;" >WHEN</span><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);font-size:100%;" > to show the choreographic element in connection to the lecture and also </span><span style="font-weight: bold; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);font-size:100%;" >HOW MUCH OF THE ABOVE EXPLANATION</span><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);font-size:100%;" > do I give?<br />First of all I think I should try to avoid explaining my work as much as possible because the theory next to the choreography is already enough for people to make their interpretations and links. The above ideas, as I ahve mentioned, are there for me to feel I know the WHY (a quintessential question in theater and acting)<br /></span> <ul><li style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"><span style="font-size:100%;">Virginia's Image comes as a prelude to the lecture. After showing it I will read Virginia's description. No more comment on the photo at this point</span></li><li style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"><span style="font-size:100%;">Video of photos and mixed captions. Circulates in Laban Plasma Screens. During the lecture I will refer to it when speaking on Captions<br /></span></li><li style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"><span style="font-size:100%;">Video of Playmobil and 9/11. Will come after mentioning Iwo Jima/ Reichtag Berlin and the Vietnamese Police officer shooting a Vietcong prisoner and right before mentioning censorship. I will not give any reason why showing the video at that moment. So that if they want they link it with composition, or with captions or later on with censorship.</span></li><li><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Singing. Singing comes at the very end of the lecture. In that sense I explain them the whole idea behind the song, but do not describe them what is going to happen when I start singing.</span><br /></span></li></ul> <span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I think that this is the best way not to give in all my clues about the performance and not to make it easy/boring boring for the audience. I want it to be a process of active DISCOVERY of the links between the choreography and the lecture</span><br /><br /></span><span style="font-weight: bold; background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);font-size:100%;" >List of Props</span><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);font-size:100%;" ><br /></span> <ol style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);"><li><span style="font-size:100%;">Lego Turning Head Timer</span></li><li><span style="font-size:100%;">Laser Pointer</span></li><li><span style="font-size:100%;">Batteries for Laser Pointer (2 per rehearsal)</span></li><li><span style="font-size:100%;">Red tags with blue tak</span></li><li><span style="font-size:100%;">Photos put in the correct order</span></li><li><span style="font-size:100%;">Papers of the lecture script</span></li><li><span style="font-size:100%;">Table</span></li><li><span style="font-size:100%;">Chair</span></li><li><span style="font-size:100%;">6-7 Playmobils</span></li><li><span style="font-size:100%;">White Masking Tape</span></li><li><span style="font-size:100%;">Pig Mask</span></li><li><span style="font-size:100%;">Microphone and lead<br /></span></li><li><span style="font-size:100%;">Looper, lead and power cable<br /></span></li><li><span style="font-size:100%;">Amplifier and power cable<br /></span></li><li><span style="font-size:100%;">Alesis Air Fx, power cable and lead from alesis to amplifier<br /></span></li><li><span style="font-size:100%;">Ipod and lead to stereo input</span></li><li><span style="font-size:100%;">2 beamers, 2 VGA cables, 2 power supplies<br /></span></li><li><span style="font-size:100%;">My laptop and adaptor for VGA cable</span></li><li><span style="font-size:100%;">Clothes</span></li><li><span style="font-size:100%;">Pavlos (relaxed, not stressed and warmed up)<br /></span></li></ol> <span style="font-weight: bold; background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);font-size:100%;" >Software and Videos to have ready</span><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);font-size:100%;" ><br /></span> <ol style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);"><li><span style="font-size:100%;">Isadora with delay on 5 secs<br /></span></li><li><span style="font-size:100%;">Video with Playmobils</span></li><li><span style="font-size:100%;">Video with Tags</span></li></ol> <span style="font-weight: bold; background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);font-size:100%;" >Technical stuff still need to do:</span><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);font-size:100%;" ><br /></span> <ol style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);"><li><span style="font-size:100%;">Iwo Jima Photo to print</span></li><li><span style="font-size:100%;">DVD burn of the video with mixed tags and hand it over to Karsten Tinnup</span></li><li><span style="font-size:100%;">Brief of 2 A4 pages</span></li><li><span style="font-size:100%;">Invitation to guests</span></li></ol> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 255);font-size:130%;" ><span style="font-weight: bold;"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">I AM NOW REALIZING THAT I DON'T HAVE THE VIDEO WITH THE PLAYMOBILS </span></span></span><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 255);font-size:130%;" ><span style="font-weight: bold;"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">ANYMORE</span></span></span><span style="font-size:130%;"><b style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 255);">!</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 255);">SOS SOS SOS SOS SOS SOS SOS SOS SOS SOS SOS</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 255);">What do I do ? I've searched everywhere... I have most probably thrown it in the bin accidentaly so that I free some space in my computer. I have the raw (=unedited) version that I could always re-edit. But am I happy with it? Could I shoot it better? But better would not be better... It would be TOO good... I like that it was soooo bad...</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 255);">WHAT DO I DO ????????????????????????????????????????????????????</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 255);">6 days before the performance, that's only something that can happen to me. FCUK</span></b></span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6107862390387282735.post-52436364683086934512008-06-10T14:50:00.001-07:002008-06-27T02:49:55.755-07:00Rehearsing- Repeating<div style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify">Well, there are not so many things to say today, other than yesterday I took all morning and afternoon off to relax and get a small distance from the material. I felt overtired and so I needed a break.<br />Then in the evening I went back to the studio and worked on repeating and repeating and repeating in order to perform better. I think repetition is an inherent process to performance.<br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;color:#ff9900;"><strong>Here are some rules I made up for myself when singing.</strong></span><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjYoKRe9uX_bzF1wRW_cZq-QXpq79uHwrloryx_QMgHpXDQotp6QVJL1HOWp61AYwxVCkP_wamAR4UA7rvlLXDwcswvpcSra0T0OCf5CtNUnruBUSeVCVA5Wc4sNhArTie4XDGsP-gcemf6/s1600-h/rules+for+singing.jpg"></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjYoKRe9uX_bzF1wRW_cZq-QXpq79uHwrloryx_QMgHpXDQotp6QVJL1HOWp61AYwxVCkP_wamAR4UA7rvlLXDwcswvpcSra0T0OCf5CtNUnruBUSeVCVA5Wc4sNhArTie4XDGsP-gcemf6/s1600-h/rules+for+singing.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5210492704188153410" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: pointer; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjYoKRe9uX_bzF1wRW_cZq-QXpq79uHwrloryx_QMgHpXDQotp6QVJL1HOWp61AYwxVCkP_wamAR4UA7rvlLXDwcswvpcSra0T0OCf5CtNUnruBUSeVCVA5Wc4sNhArTie4XDGsP-gcemf6/s400/rules+for+singing.jpg" border="0" /></a>And these are some photos I took in order to make more performative the idea of repeating a rehearsal. Hope you like them. Just click on them. Warhol revisited :)<br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEisWI4s5D_3voIXCde5U2o5KVhS8R4Mlaeqq0pDiKhaHgkiZcnHZFxpDcZdrZU7ndbgruttl_V6oFprte6mVA8tr4qwnwZ2U-CwMTy0FfQoLqf-8G3NHd_ibJwpNX2SdtV7ZckkIcHg07aY/s1600-h/P6101877-Panorama.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5210491454735148706" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 337px; CURSOR: pointer; HEIGHT: 91px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEisWI4s5D_3voIXCde5U2o5KVhS8R4Mlaeqq0pDiKhaHgkiZcnHZFxpDcZdrZU7ndbgruttl_V6oFprte6mVA8tr4qwnwZ2U-CwMTy0FfQoLqf-8G3NHd_ibJwpNX2SdtV7ZckkIcHg07aY/s400/P6101877-Panorama.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgvF_4nlpCezDSUkh-4IYAdXpJ8XC7EkIacyJ8O0p6o1P0BDveL5T1xUalac1hVGqM5LY49R7q5L4e1W0j79aQUO6z4Kmvvk0B_245JL8X22rawUmf-WKkM91fdBtD3185M9DYu-kIbyiSt/s1600-h/P6101873-Panorama.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5210491492360270450" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 336px; CURSOR: pointer; HEIGHT: 102px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgvF_4nlpCezDSUkh-4IYAdXpJ8XC7EkIacyJ8O0p6o1P0BDveL5T1xUalac1hVGqM5LY49R7q5L4e1W0j79aQUO6z4Kmvvk0B_245JL8X22rawUmf-WKkM91fdBtD3185M9DYu-kIbyiSt/s400/P6101873-Panorama.jpg" border="0" /></a></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6107862390387282735.post-73431571960516277352008-06-09T14:34:00.001-07:002008-06-27T00:00:10.446-07:00A picture speaks and spiritual guide<div style="text-align: justify; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);font-size:130%;" >If a photo could talk, this is what it would say</span><br /><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">Aaron, who applied for a dramaturg and choreographer in my project, made me realize that the words that I am using are really important </span>a<span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">nd so I decided I should work on what I am saying. And what I am saying should be in close connection to the War Photography issue so as to be a performing element of the "old" choreography I have made as a "famous" choreographer.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">So, being almost in the end of my lecture where I am talking that photos echo photos and that we only remember photos and not real incidents, I wanted to make a small conclusion of the whole lecture. So I ended up with this text:</span></span><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjVLR-00ja5e4SUermW_KbVAZTSJdtiBTYoslGwr7XMQFNSA6sUI9ZBkkCL1jpeZSamQVRAfnKs8sPyLMXN6dmD1vQlU5CCSQjnxNXTPJSSsHNNMqHnBvuNHF-bYv9IHn_i5lMSKhcJsCrZ/s1600-h/song+lyrics.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjVLR-00ja5e4SUermW_KbVAZTSJdtiBTYoslGwr7XMQFNSA6sUI9ZBkkCL1jpeZSamQVRAfnKs8sPyLMXN6dmD1vQlU5CCSQjnxNXTPJSSsHNNMqHnBvuNHF-bYv9IHn_i5lMSKhcJsCrZ/s400/song+lyrics.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5210178252273961730" border="0" /></a><br /><div style="text-align: center;">For me, this is what the photo would say to us if it could speak.<br /></div><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);font-size:130%;" >Controling the masturbation- Performing the masturbation</span><br /><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);font-size:100%;" >Well, I have decided that I have used "masturbation" as a creative process and in a sense it is, if we see it as an expression of solipsism, it is the common element of the performance lecture mode.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);font-size:100%;" >But I have decided I should keep a distance from the character who is masturbating. I should be able to control it and master it. The performance should be a self-indulgent performance to fit in the format of performance lecture, but I should be able to make a comment on this self-indulgence instead of allowing it to overcome me. And to make a comment for me can only happen if I master it.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 102, 0);font-size:100%;" >That's why I have thought of working today on another studio, and in fact on a studio where everyone can see me. Can I keep myself inside me? Can I be so internal forgetting the others?</span><br /><br /><span style="font-size:100%;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi_ifWdUX009fTE6O8nCyd9pxxW8jp6uyn-6CO7W0mslD7ij-dbhxe0H0fFxb2KaZ0sN6vlGV8GoD0drA8YKinnVFIxu8jrAHf9vEAtqK_EomH2ewR5qKPkpHUjpTZ5WjJubRKGu7dCsQ7w/s1600-h/STUDIO+ALONE+GOOD+PANORAMA.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi_ifWdUX009fTE6O8nCyd9pxxW8jp6uyn-6CO7W0mslD7ij-dbhxe0H0fFxb2KaZ0sN6vlGV8GoD0drA8YKinnVFIxu8jrAHf9vEAtqK_EomH2ewR5qKPkpHUjpTZ5WjJubRKGu7dCsQ7w/s400/STUDIO+ALONE+GOOD+PANORAMA.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5210175211523015298" border="0" /></a></span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);font-size:100%;" >The whole Laban could look at me. I was in this fish-bowl room where performing is like being inside a window shop, being looked at by possible buyers. I couldn't allow myself to be in a trance. I could perform trance if I wanted (and I clearly knew how to do it) but I wanted to check out if I could refrain from it.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);font-size:100%;" >In fact, I did. I also managed not to be "over" self conscious of the people looking at me. And that really worked fine. Here is what I managed to do.</span><br /></div><br /><br /></div> <div style="text-align: center;"><iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' webkitallowfullscreen='webkitallowfullscreen' mozallowfullscreen='mozallowfullscreen' width='320' height='266' src='https://www.blogger.com/video.g?token=AD6v5dwPmWAXOth9E1hA4SKRWOV30Wz6ABrFE19KHHVIwHbsH3AN7D1yRcN12HTQXbD-Demddv6YXO3NK8whEXgmVQ' class='b-hbp-video b-uploaded' frameborder='0'></iframe></div> <div style="text-align: justify;"><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);font-size:130%;" >Spiritual Guide</span><br /><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 204, 255);font-size:100%;" >Today, I took a private class on voice mastering with Fabio Culora. Amazing guy. After some basic exercises on breathing he introduced me to voice as a movement not as a sound.</span><br /></div><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgJ3JN1tt8yFisWOBszMpQcY_IQYOck6g8k90-6JvSxAWtEl4N8QuzDDTKw643FLPUiH5al884nkPY91RU4EPoAVeHFFIyoQjP3aB2k0DHlkvdRIXQF_T4Mm9ysQEfehoztE_3LegxRkpIC/s1600-h/fabio+and+pavlos2.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgJ3JN1tt8yFisWOBszMpQcY_IQYOck6g8k90-6JvSxAWtEl4N8QuzDDTKw643FLPUiH5al884nkPY91RU4EPoAVeHFFIyoQjP3aB2k0DHlkvdRIXQF_T4Mm9ysQEfehoztE_3LegxRkpIC/s400/fabio+and+pavlos2.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5210184926137262002" border="0" /></a><br /></div> <div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 204, 255);font-size:100%;" >We did some exercises on posture, diaphragm but mainly we realized that there are two things that are important for me: (a) do less and (b) know my intentions.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);font-size:100%;" >Do less because sometimes I think that the voice is more than what I can whereas when I release my effort the voice just comes out on its own. I need to feel my base, my knees soft, release my belly and allow the sound to go out only to come back to me. I need to feel the rebound or the reverbaration in me.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);font-size:100%;" >When I knew my intention, my voice was clear and my breath more than enough to control the voice. It's all about presence Fabio explained me and we worked on me feeling comfortable with myself. More than that, he made me understand more precisely what my intentions on the text are and to express those through my movement-voice. I need to know what to emphasize. I also need to make the sound syncopated and clean.</span><br /></div> <a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjNx9ePaNa2qqJk2qH7BiWYSXUZ1PdDiW3PzWhOaE6voi0ePn0mZQhyphenhyphenTP46tIMWX2VxflrIXR7PVrvA0N7inD3qj8vIkO9ZGvSPe7TakFK_zVaAVWXBUeARdHNmMSFvNTaaKVTBCJCnTWNM/s1600-h/fabio+and+pavlos.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjNx9ePaNa2qqJk2qH7BiWYSXUZ1PdDiW3PzWhOaE6voi0ePn0mZQhyphenhyphenTP46tIMWX2VxflrIXR7PVrvA0N7inD3qj8vIkO9ZGvSPe7TakFK_zVaAVWXBUeARdHNmMSFvNTaaKVTBCJCnTWNM/s400/fabio+and+pavlos.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5210184919391572338" border="0" /></a><br /><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);font-size:100%;" >By the end of the class, I was feeling I had made a big difference in the way I was approaching my breath, voice, presence and strength. Fabio is a great guy to encourage you to discover unhidden paths in you and to feel comfortable with yourself. I have thus asked him if he would be interested in being my spiritual guide for this piece and he has agreed. He will thus help me warming up, feeling comfortable with my body, relaxing and releasing and connecting me to my presence and intentions before the performance. I feel much stronger knowing that I have someone who can prepare me for this lonely journey I am taking. I am very grateful to my guide and I feel like a hobbit who found his young Gandalf.</span><br /></div> <div style="text-align: justify;"><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-size:100%;">For the next rehearsals, I know what I need to work on to make my voice and presence stronger. I will do my best Fabio.</span><br /></div><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);font-size:130%;" ><span style="font-weight: bold;">Cleaning</span></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">I am realizing that maybe for the next days, I won't have a lot of things to say on creative process, since I only working on cleaning and correcting some bits and pieces. However, this process helps me to identify clearly some elements of the performance that I hadn't really thought about. I don't know what I should be writing these days. Maybe I just give you some idea of what I am cleaning and then you can tell me what I might have forgotten or haven't thought at all about cleaning or methods of cleaning to make my work easier.</span><br /></span></span><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://rafah.virtualactivism.net/newsphotos/05/november%2005/war05.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 400px;" src="http://rafah.virtualactivism.net/newsphotos/05/november%2005/war05.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><span style=";font-family:Arial,Helvetica,Geneva,Swiss,SunSans-Regular;font-size:85%;" ><em>A man cleaning up after the Israeli helicopter bombings in the Gaza Strip.</em></span><br /><span style=";font-family:Arial,Helvetica,Geneva,Swiss,SunSans-Regular;font-size:85%;" ><em> His house in the Northern Gaza Strip was shelled.</em></span><br /></div><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span></span></div> </div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6107862390387282735.post-23979748859159629252008-06-08T14:30:00.001-07:002008-06-27T00:15:57.308-07:00Open call for choreographers, psychoanalysts and dramaturgsHELP<br />HELP<br /><div style="text-align: center;"><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-weight: bold;"><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span></span></div><iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' webkitallowfullscreen='webkitallowfullscreen' mozallowfullscreen='mozallowfullscreen' width='320' height='266' src='https://www.blogger.com/video.g?token=AD6v5dzQZuNtl9p0AiTVnq8GLltmafGjamUVo1kMMKTCZNDemyjTzTzwvSatPL720NiH0GSMBVV589F1jJSOhRSs9A' class='b-hbp-video b-uploaded' frameborder='0'></iframe><br /></div><br /><div style="text-align: justify; background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">Interesting choreographers and dramaturgs of any age/experience/gender/sexuality are needed for a project through internet. Reward guaranteed. Here is the task:<br /><br />I want to approach singing as a choreographer, not as a musician (I am not a musician either way)<br /></div> <ul style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);"><li>a choreographer makes a wooden sculpture. Is is really a sculpture or maybe a choreography?</li><li>a sculptor makes a choreography. Is it realy a choreography or is it maybe a statue?</li></ul> <div style="text-align: justify; background-color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">So, what I need to work on now is<br /></div> <ol style="text-align: justify; background-color: rgb(255, 102, 0);"><li>what kind of "steps" (= words) do I use<br /></li><li>dynamics of each "step" (singing, screaming, hissing, whispering, breathing etc),<br /></li><li>dynamics of the overall composition (immediate accumulation, how fast, how slow etc)<br /></li><li>presence on stage (do I allow myself to dance, to be mesmerised, am I standing, do I go to the floor, am I on my world, do I look at the audience, do I reply to the song as if I have a dialogue?)</li><li>How synchronized with the music I should make it (do I try to say things rythmically or not?)</li><li>emotions?</li><li>overall duration ? (3 mins, 6 minutes, 1 minute?)</li><li>put it live? just record it and let it play as a video ?<br /></li></ol> <div style="text-align: justify; background-color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">I really want to take some decisions on these issues (and many more) but I don't know when it looks interesting to decide accordingly. Since I haven't received any replies on that, I kindly ask you again to<br /></div> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 102, 0);font-size:180%;" >HELP ME <b>!</b></span><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 102, 0);font-size:180%;" ><br /></span><br /><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">I am not going to go on begging for your help, but here you are you have every chance to practice your choreographic and dramaturgic skills through an innovative medium (=internet blogging). Take your chances.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">I therefore have uploaded two different (I believe) versions of m rehearsals and of my experimentations (I am trying out everything). Can you pick up 2-3 things you like and suggest them? Or if you are kind enough can you tell me how you would "choreograph" the song?</span><br /><br /><br /></div> <div style="text-align: center;"><iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' webkitallowfullscreen='webkitallowfullscreen' mozallowfullscreen='mozallowfullscreen' width='320' height='266' src='https://www.blogger.com/video.g?token=AD6v5dzGlzpX_xWzwHFzyRV5fzLG5gZMyAbnzwIV5ByKH8ICkB-gEmCWtTnB2ZoABNziKI-zXeuCuYzWWOEHnzSeZw' class='b-hbp-video b-uploaded' frameborder='0'></iframe><br /></div> <div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-weight: bold;"><span style="font-size:130%;">Solipsism<br /></span></span><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">When I started reading about self-pleasure, self-indulgence, masturbation, I realized that everything has to do with solipsism and I was really fascinated by the fact that I now return back to the sub-title I had arbitrarily given to my blog. At last I am going to address that issue, I thought.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">But isn't it expected and predictable even that when someone is working for so many hours on his/her own to start having moments where he is starting to get lost in himself? In Greece we have a funny proverd that says "A lot of taka-taka and the kid becomes a wanker". Maybe it it is right for me too...</span><br /></span></span><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEijqU9ETDR0JWNbYBYVi0MF7ofIVQbRqV-sUYP9B0J5o2lrkjh0IEwpk_YsHK0iUwhlzobEXBpE3S5bellAU8ZWt7EjQLPG84IPDXckJYjWzRobYGSlEl7FDgmfz4ro0nUzNOvfWs8xHM54/s1600-h/singing+floor.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 572px; height: 248px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEijqU9ETDR0JWNbYBYVi0MF7ofIVQbRqV-sUYP9B0J5o2lrkjh0IEwpk_YsHK0iUwhlzobEXBpE3S5bellAU8ZWt7EjQLPG84IPDXckJYjWzRobYGSlEl7FDgmfz4ro0nUzNOvfWs8xHM54/s400/singing+floor.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5209790904030990498" border="0" /></a><span style="font-size:78%;">Focus on the pink for long time. Now, the image looks like the colours are correct. </span><br /></div><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-weight: bold;">The political correctness of self indulgence: Am I allowed a moment of masturbation during a performance? When ?</span></span><br /><br />Now, once thing that I have realized whilst doing this exercise it that after some time, my eyes close, I feel sleepy. I don't know what is happening to me. I enter in a trance, in another world. I lose contact with this world. That's why I call it mental masturbation.<br /><br />What happens to the political dimensions of a work of art when the artist shows signs of becoming lost, or of being lost, in the pleasures of creation?<br /><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">Geoffrey Sanborn, writing about Sandra Cisneros' novel </span><span style="font-style: italic; background-color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">The Mango House</span><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"> (the most widely read and taught novel by US Latino author) says the following:</span><br /><blockquote style="background-color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">"She does it because she likes it, and she likes it because it transports her experience into another space, a space that is intimate, private, and under her control. She associates the sensation of belonging to spaces with the sensation of being possessed by a ghost, an internal alien entity; she associates the sensation of not belonging to those spaces with a feeling of freedom and relief from pain. "<br /></blockquote><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">Relief from pain, relief from pain, relief from pain, relief from pain...</span><br /><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">Geoffrey Sanborn believes that these are moments of self- indulgence and solipsism. But he goes on explaining that the book is dedicated to</span><br /><blockquote style="background-color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">"<span style="font-weight: bold;">the women in the community who cannot, as yet, make themselves the subjects and objects of their own enjoyment.</span> [...] The spectacle of her enjoyment is offered [...]as an object of identification. Under these conditions of representation, the break introduced by solitary pleasure heralds not the end of interpersonal commitments and socially transformative acts but the beginning of alliances on new grounds. [...] Cisneros treats the narcissistic selfregard of these women not as the death knell of political consciousness but as the way in which they keep from being framed as spectacles, captured by the gaze of others. The effect is to encourage our identification "not with the ideal imago which the women [. . .] so dramatically fail to approximate, but rather with the women themselves."<br /></blockquote><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">In my own words, such an act where I am lost in my own world could be useful for two reasons:</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">- it is the narcissistic moment of the "choreographer" (I am performing a famous choreographer who has just made a piece) who enjoys TOO much his piece and is lost in it.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">- But, a bit like Cindy Sherman and Cisneros, I hope to provide for a new approach to the way of looking at photos and being looked at when looking at photos. The whole lecture is about the non-sanctity of war photography and so a return to real subject of the gaze is the best means for me to have a political stance on the issue.</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">But to be able to do this , I think I need to be a master of my own self-hallunication, I need to be able to control it. Therefore many times, I say to myself, "get off the ground", open your eyes, wake up... You can show mesmerized but be sure you can control it. Just like Sherman. Difficult task.</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span></span></span><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgMmiyXIX5014xcEJT_z4vwnzVQkFAyiwuy7UdxyKAU1xTyZmZAaKZmh0hCUBz-DR-0jg5yiYQdquvGqkd2WZRbakYwT9eftRliwM1WtH4Kr-D8m7eeOsQymYiaLGVkT9UgVxFMgvLc8lo4/s1600-h/P6081699.JPG"><img style="cursor: pointer; width: 323px; height: 242px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgMmiyXIX5014xcEJT_z4vwnzVQkFAyiwuy7UdxyKAU1xTyZmZAaKZmh0hCUBz-DR-0jg5yiYQdquvGqkd2WZRbakYwT9eftRliwM1WtH4Kr-D8m7eeOsQymYiaLGVkT9UgVxFMgvLc8lo4/s400/P6081699.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5209788908514636322" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg006jAU8fn2hIM6w_0s7sXh6d0vlYFUYpmKFvY68QM4_QPZjqJYztx-40I5ghYcQj6ZW3TXEYR8Yl6a0uq8CkvpCZAGbdXzgRXvCb1CVi3PMiL5RLdySF70AvVD6NO0ehSOf-uYGvyffaC/s1600-h/P6081687.JPG"> <img style="cursor: pointer; width: 323px; height: 242px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg006jAU8fn2hIM6w_0s7sXh6d0vlYFUYpmKFvY68QM4_QPZjqJYztx-40I5ghYcQj6ZW3TXEYR8Yl6a0uq8CkvpCZAGbdXzgRXvCb1CVi3PMiL5RLdySF70AvVD6NO0ehSOf-uYGvyffaC/s400/P6081687.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5209788870597146930" border="0" /></a><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">On repetition: psychoanalyzing the spectator, the choreographer and me</span></span><br /></span></span><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Repetitive music has often been linked with Freudian Thanatos. According to Freud, humans have a life instinct - which he named 'Eros' - and a death drive, which is commonly called (though not by Freud himself) 'Thanatos'. Death drive is "an urge inherent in all organic life to restore an earlier state of things". Freud begins the work considering the experience of trauma and traumatic events (particularly the trauma experienced by soldiers returning from WWI). The most curious feature of highly unpleasant experiences for Freud was that subjects often tended to </span><span style="font-weight: bold; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">repeat or re-enact</span><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"> them. This postulated death drive allegedly compels humans to engage in risky and self-destructive acts that could lead to their own death. Behaviors such as thrill seeking, aggression, and risk taking are viewed as actions which stem from this Thanatos instinct.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I approach repetition on three distinct actions:</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">- people wanting to see over and over again (the same) photos of people suffering in wars. There is thus a repetition compulsion by the spectator of war photography and it is exactly that what I am trying to pass through the texts of Susan Sontag and Caroline Brothers and that is what the choreographer is claiming to do (=I, the choreographer, show you the death drive of the spectator of war photography)</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">- the "famous choreographer" repeating over and over again myself as a moment of reliving and hallucinating the trauma of his not so socially accepted, controversial choreography (I, Pavlos, show you the death drive of a choreographer)</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">- Pavlos, who repeats his own voice, in order to make the rehearsal and the performance a more social event than a solipsistic moment. It is a death drive though because it refers to the repetition of a trauma, that of loneliness. I relive over and over my own loneliness and solipsism.</span><br /><br />The image below is very beautiful... It is made out of four angles of the same element and then stitched together. Somehow resembling the 3 actions mentioned above. Click on it to see large scale.<br /></span></span><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjFjeRJ0RdGhh9ZaPyfx1egKszm_AnYhJBFBVFsO_5ga8HnTRsDF9cAIbqvf06NFIWgRxp1bK0Gf83AhCZVSpgC2efmJ9DcNaNzjRqYk5Wm4v22JXBOXNpw4BKCRPfryhtZhEEKgrQznY90/s1600-h/P6081629-Panorama.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 655px; height: 128px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjFjeRJ0RdGhh9ZaPyfx1egKszm_AnYhJBFBVFsO_5ga8HnTRsDF9cAIbqvf06NFIWgRxp1bK0Gf83AhCZVSpgC2efmJ9DcNaNzjRqYk5Wm4v22JXBOXNpw4BKCRPfryhtZhEEKgrQznY90/s400/P6081629-Panorama.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5209787505006436914" border="0" /></a></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6107862390387282735.post-41769156490659932552008-06-07T12:56:00.001-07:002008-06-26T23:52:49.993-07:00Planning, Texting, Masturbating<div style="text-align: justify; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span style="font-weight: bold;font-size:130%;" >Feeling Comfortable (leaving the pictures out for a moment)</span><br /><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">I went to the studio and started working again on the text. I wanted to make sure that I feel comfortable wit it. That I know what I am talking about. I did not use any photos. It was just the text. I learned big parts of the text by heart. Indeed, you can see in this fast forward, my attitude towards the speech is much more lose and open. By the end I start getting worried about my notes etc but it's because I hadn't learned anything by heart on this.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">I still follow the lecturing map I had drawn three days ago. It has a nice logic I think. Once I learn how to deliver the text without breaks, I will re-introduce the photos and play with them. I think this is the best way now for going further.</span><br /><br /><iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' webkitallowfullscreen='webkitallowfullscreen' mozallowfullscreen='mozallowfullscreen' width='320' height='266' src='https://www.blogger.com/video.g?token=AD6v5dw3STln0SVHsLUpFr2pzeVzgWO4ogugFQq2yJCP5aNng0T1XQYL1F5X0eOpTJbVIz8GB1J49YAWSJHMCOANZQ' class='b-hbp-video b-uploaded' frameborder='0'></iframe><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;font-size:130%;" >DEVISING A PLAN (I am also the performer, remember?)</span><br /></div> On Friday I was having a presentation and for me it did not go so well. I think because I was feeling very stressed (there were many technical problems and the presentation was constantly delayed) and because I had not rehearsed a lot the presentation.<br />After falling amazingly sad about it, I realized some things about my Solo Project (they do not necessarily apply to all works as for example to the the presentation because it's too late now and because the purpose of the presentation were different). <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">What I need to start doing now is to really spend time in rehearsing over and over some things. Cleaning... I hate the word cleaning. It gives such connotation about dirt and bad. Anyway, I need to do that so that I acquire a trust to myself and a comfortableness. Also to really make sure I know what is going on. It is not so much about showing my ideas, but abou how i show these ideas now.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">As a choreographer, I did not care so much about cleaning. I think it's the dancers' responsibility to clean and be good in what they perform. As a choreographer I need to make sure that the idea and its composition is what I want it to be. I don't know how right or wrong that is. I think it's about being able to split the work and being very very very responsible.</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">In any case, now I am on my own. I need to do both. I am not just a choreographer. I am also a performer.</span><br />T<span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">herefore I sat down today and tried to think what are the things I still need to do and I devised a plan until the 27th of June. I will of course have the possibility to change this plan but for the time being I will try to stick to it as much as possible.</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">Moreover, for every little block I will write what my specific objective is and what I need to do. Therefore I will know precisely what I have to work with. It sounds like criteria, but I will allow for other things to happen to and influence my work. Furthermore, I plan to show my work next Friday to people to receive some more feedback.</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">Below is my time plan. Please click on it and tell me what you think. Have I forgotten anything???</span><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEih3h-hPYCgdNkaqjpay1_JNj8OVNrBNT90t7zDDLDxzx_gdU8GBR0q5cK3bdL5imGIJwFDailbu4qloIoIeA9eru7rB2yak3-m-d_w0t-NDY75o6eRpATKoYouri0kfEB3F-vgJc8q3uGv/s1600-h/time+plan+for+rad1.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEih3h-hPYCgdNkaqjpay1_JNj8OVNrBNT90t7zDDLDxzx_gdU8GBR0q5cK3bdL5imGIJwFDailbu4qloIoIeA9eru7rB2yak3-m-d_w0t-NDY75o6eRpATKoYouri0kfEB3F-vgJc8q3uGv/s400/time+plan+for+rad1.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5209447184875672546" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjEqLSWGHESXIfTDzMyVbKm3ITyPQKOMvCAYMGjdyY20YZSoXkM07WdynIRXrWSlLT-EvZwSuofC30DsGlQDcExyKIOnRxTi6pFks9tsW4dytp0EzBWvaseyx30Q_rPayy-T5r067A4gXlK/s1600-h/time+plan+for+rad2.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjEqLSWGHESXIfTDzMyVbKm3ITyPQKOMvCAYMGjdyY20YZSoXkM07WdynIRXrWSlLT-EvZwSuofC30DsGlQDcExyKIOnRxTi6pFks9tsW4dytp0EzBWvaseyx30Q_rPayy-T5r067A4gXlK/s400/time+plan+for+rad2.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5209447198420272146" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgvLzBs0kOSl-apLUzHU36UXbgIZ3kjt6ZSWLYARuohi__WeAq7ZsEl3MAZUjJVs-6cIebRUoNOuBOzwYf8LYIqxCJxrMQa74bBtd5Me_Rpqrs8mYF8SbOKnYhWvTkZUtMAaEM_kn8pvjQd/s1600-h/time+plan+for+rad3.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgvLzBs0kOSl-apLUzHU36UXbgIZ3kjt6ZSWLYARuohi__WeAq7ZsEl3MAZUjJVs-6cIebRUoNOuBOzwYf8LYIqxCJxrMQa74bBtd5Me_Rpqrs8mYF8SbOKnYhWvTkZUtMAaEM_kn8pvjQd/s400/time+plan+for+rad3.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5209447207139297890" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;font-size:130%;" >Performing the Text</span><br /><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">In my last blog, I wrote down that I need to make the text also performative. There is a lot of visual performativity of this idea of documentation and memory but none in the sound. Furthermore, as I have mentioned, I would really like to work on this idea of delay, of live documentation or supplement to use Deleuzian terms. Once again my stimulus came from studying the work of Elena Cologni and the discussion I had with her. Only I, instead of visual documentation through video in delay, I want to do audio documentation through voice.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">So, I bought a small loop machine that people usually use for their electric guitars and instead of plugging it to a guitar, I plugged it to a microphone. The machine is looping things I have already said. I can accumulate text this way.</span><br />While doing this, I have realized that although the machine is supposed to just repeat and not change anything, in fact the sound slowly slowly is changing. Ok let me give you an example. I record a phrase A that lasts 2,7 second over an already existing phrase of 2,6 seconds (which makes up of 6 other phrases of 2,3 seconds, 3 seconds, 1 second, 1,7 second, 8 second and so on). If I allow the song to play without accumulating any new voice, I can see that there are waves in each repetition and that happens because the time of the new sentence is smaller or bigger than the preexisting one. So in a sense it meets certain phrases each time to create a rythm that is slowly slowly slowly slowly changing (without being very clear when this change occurs). Too complicated? Listen to the end of the video...<br /><br /><iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' webkitallowfullscreen='webkitallowfullscreen' mozallowfullscreen='mozallowfullscreen' width='320' height='266' src='https://www.blogger.com/video.g?token=AD6v5dxLZUARfRoTkIgkkMzblP2HxtOdwsqja_n_IlBMEb7TID31fzcygKAy_9sbQb9qdh59pC0kGas_ClgQigtybw' class='b-hbp-video b-uploaded' frameborder='0'></iframe><br /><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">A small anecdote: while rehearsing, a lady from an office below my studio, she came and asked me to turn the volume down A LOT. :) :) :) Look the last 20 secs of the video. That's the reason why I have decided to work on singin only in the evenings so that I don't disturb many people. </span><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;font-size:130%;" >Masturbation</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I am not happy about it though. I don't like the beginning with saying numbers because it sounds too much like a music class. But that was the way for me to learn how to use the machine properly. I am thinking I should use parts of the text. Or maybe Virginia Woolf's description. And somewhere in the middle start adding up cities/countries/seas of war.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I am not so sure. I don't really know what I can do.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Certainly I want to go to a crescento.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Why ?</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Well, maybe I have to tell you something. while doing this repetitive singing, you start feeling you are masturbating. You can either mesmerise in it or go for ejaculation. Ejaculation is screaming. You can feel the pain in your voice. It's quite hard to overdube a new voice over something that is really loud. But it gives you a very strong feeling.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I also feel there is something very self-indulgent in creating this music. As if I don't care about the audience. Is that bad? I need to research on masturbation. I am sure that there must have been something written on repetition, masturbation, self-indulgence, creation. Anybody knows anything?</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;font-size:130%;" >How do I link it?</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">How is the song linked to the lecture and the how to the "old" performance? I think it's quite complicated in my head. I am not very sure yet, especially since I haven't found exactly what I want the song to be about or how to be about.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">For the time being, my idea is that this singing is part of the "real" "old" perfomance and it was the soundtrack of the performance. It was built according to the idea that "photos echo photos, echo photos, echo photos" and that we only remember through photos.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">In the "old" performance, you could only listen to the end product of the music (the most blurred of all). Without being able to clearly listen to the different stages. In the lecture, I will demonstrate the procedure.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">How about that????</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">What do you think?</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">and maybe i first sing, and then explain ????</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">or first explain and then sing???</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">what do you think ???</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">I also have a wild idea, that I arrive at the end of the lecture (I don't announce that to the audience) with this singing and when it's the pick of the song, the most blurred part and noisy one, I start really masturbating on the photos that are on the floor. Showing the self-indulgence we have when we look at pictures instead of reality (very Lacanian I know) and at the same time my insolence to the photos. I want to shock exactly like the photos do. But I am not sure, I need to study about masturbation in front of the audience. Any help ? Martin or Tony or Mariella? or anyone out there?</span></div> </div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6107862390387282735.post-14092814390417880662008-06-04T15:15:00.001-07:002008-06-26T23:46:07.422-07:00Deleuze, Cologni, Memory, Truth, Delay, Delay, Delay<div style="text-align: justify; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"> <div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-weight: bold;">Delay (from Chance Practice to Deleuze, through Cologni)</span></span><br /><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Today I decided to upload some video extract from the discussion with Elena Cologni, as I have already mentioned to you.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">While capturing the video from my camera to the computer, I realized that after the 1st minute you can no longer see Elena's face because Nic has accidentaly moved in the frame and is covering the whole of Elena. In that case I said to myself, I should only upload sound and no image.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">While working on it, the word "Delay" striked back to me.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">You know me, I love technology so I thought let's do an experiment and let's put some delay in the sound. After some efforts here is what I have up with (sounds like Reich, maybe I need to check out minimalist music and repetition, delay etc)</span><br /><br /></div> <div style="text-align: center;"><iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' webkitallowfullscreen='webkitallowfullscreen' mozallowfullscreen='mozallowfullscreen' width='320' height='266' src='https://www.blogger.com/video.g?token=AD6v5dw6d7PFv7DzlvIQ-PLrv3Qhl4VndHM3FhZBNFRKkCwYM337bGw7wtx8FjarFnYqmCL2kKmDIKUL24gRJB7J_Q' class='b-hbp-video b-uploaded' frameborder='0'></iframe><br /></div> <div style="text-align: justify;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size:85%;">(the quality is quite bad because I had to compress it, but maybe you can get the idea)</span><br /></div><br />I know that Elena Cologni has been working a lot on Deleuzian concepts of time, and so I decided that I should do some research on Deleuze. <span style="background-color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">In Search of Lost Time in Proust and Signs Deleuze believes that what constitutes the unity of Time is not memory.. The ‘search’ is not steered by the effort of recall or the exploration of memory, but by the desire for truth (which, following Nietzsche, we can say is always ‘hard’). In that sense my theatrical documentation (that Elena Cologni calls theatrical supplement) is not so much working on the idea of memory but on the desire for truth, desire to learn the reality. Moreover, war photography itself works with the establishment of memory as a means of making something (=war) real.</span><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"> As you can see there are many connections of my work to Deleuze and I still need to work harder on Deleuze (because he is very difficult to read). But as far as delay is concerned</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Deleuze in fact speaks of delay in the last chapter. Deleuze seeks to show that there are several 'orders of truth' and no simple or single truth. The third order is the order of universal alteration of death, including the Idea of death and the production of catastrophe (the other two being reminiscences and essences). All that exists is corroded and distorted by time. Time gives life and time gives death. What is the specific effect of time that produces the idea of death? Deleuze argues as follows. With two given states of the same person - the earlier that we remember, the present that we experience - the impression of ageing from one to the other has the effect of pushing the earlier moment into a remote, improbable past. The movement of time from past to present is 'doubled by a forced movement of greater amplitude’ that sweeps away the two moments, stresses the gap between them, and pushes the past far back in time.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Very interesting for me to work with delay now. I will try to steal some more time to dedicate to Deleuze and maybe trying out new things on delay. Especially this idea of 'forced movement of greater amplitude' sounds very inspiring. I think I want to work further with sound also. I believe that there is a lot of visual memorization and archiving going on but not any in the <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">sound/text. And I think that the main problem now of my research is the fact that my text does not have a performative element. I will try to see what I could do with that.</span></span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">One last thing about Deleuze. I think Deleuze has also another relation to Time that he is not mentioning in his book. He is what I would scientifically call TIME CONSUMING... It takes me hours to really understand what he means. It's worth in the end, but that is the reason why today's blog is going to be so small.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-weight: bold;">Concentration</span></span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Before all these great notions came to my mind (in fact they only came now in the night), I spent my whole day in the studio rehearsing. I worked on this very general structure I had made and I tried to make it work. Indeed, I am becoming more and more comfortable with the text, I am improvising and because I am distancing myself from the script, I have more freedom to realize other things that I might at the same time be doing (like I was speaking and I was dropping the pictures on the floor... that was very indecent of mine especially when I had a picture of a Nazi concentration camp).</span> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">I think I should go on playing with this structure. Now my problem has to do with concentration (AGAIN). I just couldn't concentrate to give a whole lecture without every 2-3 mins getting distracted and doing somehting else.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">I think I need to push myself. What would happen if I had an audience? Would I be dstracted? probably not... If only I could invite people... I just can't... Maybe instead I could use a camera. I'll try that out. And if I get distracted, maybe then you can scold me when you watch the video.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">Why is it that we only learn and become better when we know that someone is going to scold us? Where is the self-motivation? Are we all servant students? Do we like masochism in education?</span><br /><br />Deleuze is a very time consuming<br /></div> </div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6107862390387282735.post-72843739017730803152008-06-03T14:32:00.001-07:002008-06-26T23:36:00.111-07:00Regarding the pain of others II- THE RETURN<div style="text-align: justify; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">After a week and half, I am back to writing this blog.</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">Thank you all very much for pushing me or encouraging me to go back to writing.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);font-size:130%;" ><span style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;">4 Reasons why not writing your blog (my own story)</span></span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">During this time, I had to think hard what the reasons were for pausing writing. I had to be hard with myself and here is what I came after:</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">1) I was overwhelmed by the amount of feedback and I needed some time to digest. </span>I am not quite sure if "digest" is the correct word (everybody uses it when we talk about feedback, it's the fashion), but indeed I feel more comfortable with the feedback. Selective memory I would call my case: <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">my memory decided to keep only certain elements and to strike some others out as "not so important". Here is what my memory reminds me today: "I need to work on the text and on the timing of showing the photos". Documentation can tell me the rest (so I am not worried), but I should only approach my documentation once I have solved these two issues. Quite obvious I know... but it's also a matter of a panic because of being overwhelmed and I needed some time to calm down.</span></span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">2) Another reason was that I was having this anarchic idea of not being a god, a leader, a teacher, an educator (and therefore I did not want to show anything).</span><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 204, 0);"> I still believe that this is right. But with Martin (who loves psychoanalysis, Lacan and male hysteria) we have identified that a deeper reason for this aphorism is my fear. (Check out number 4 below)</span></span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">3) I needed to do another work (quite creative and self-reflecting again), and I could not split my mind into two things. I am not so multi-tasky after all...</span>How do you become multi-tasky? Is there a school or a module for multitaskiness? Even now talking, I still have a presentation on Friday and my mind can't just invest on both ideas at the same time. Because for me, going to the toilet, cooking some dinner, walking in the street, brushing my hair, drinking water, are all moments of great enlightment and I am constantly thinking of the piece in these little trivial everyday incidents. How many glasses of water do I need to drink to think of these two projects? And how about the toilet??? Do I need to piss long time or should I try to piss in two periods? Or maybe I should split my piss in two directions just like my thought... Is that possible???</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">4) I was afraid of Laban's disturbingly arid criteria.</span> Hell yeah I am... I am not afraid to say that... I mean two great works of mine (that have been embraced by renowned artists and scholars) have already been thrown to the bin because they just don't meet Laban’s criteria. <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I hate criteria, I already did before, but now it’s soooo obvious. I don't know how many times I should say that... Criteria are about things people have already thought and they want to see again. Not meeting criteria, but meeting the general guidelines of a module/application, means sometimes that you have managed to do something beyond these criteria. Isn't that what Deleuze thinks of art in comparison to craftsmanship? I am sorry to say that to the teachers of Laban but you produce bad imitations of your thoughts. Bad because they will never arrive at your thoughts. Imitations because of your thoughts. Thoughts because of you. You because of you. You and you and you and you.</span></span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">Anyway, I guess people have heard these things before. I am not the only one shaking this old building dressed in new clothes. My students might also be reading this blog today… Guys, I am not saying that criteria should be abolished. I use them quite often because sometimes they help me to arrange my thoughts. But theyare only a guideline and should remain a guideline. Each student/ applicant should be treated individually and beyond my own perceptions. That’s why I like teaching you composition. Coz you do things I would have never thought. Keep on working.</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 204, 0);">What is important is that after a supportive (I like calling it "spiritual) talk with Martin (</span>yes we managed to have one, he doesnt hate me that much), <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I understood that I should not feel intimidated or feared by Laban. My work has a substance, and certainly it still needs some work but it is presentable.</span></span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Furthermore, I have understood, that Laban in not going to change, to accept my anarchic ideas. If they can’t change, I need to take that into consideration and move on.</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Move on</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I think that’s what I am learning here. It’s a barrier. Just move on. It’s ok… Move on.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);font-size:130%;" ><span style="font-weight: bold;">TOPIC OF THE LECTURE</span></span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);font-size:100%;" >S<span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">o, although I was not writing the blog, that does not mean that I didn't work on my solo every now and then. So, what I have thought is that I need to understand what it is exactly that fascinates me with war photography so that my lecture and my performance is all about that.</span></span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);font-size:100%;" >Loosing many hours rereading Susan Sontag, my notes, Caroline Brother's amazing book "War and Photography: a cultural history", I have finally managed to come out to this very open structure:</span><br /><br /><a style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhe6fxH948CrQjJrd7JDQaHODW2kU4wlIvBm37IJ4m7JcDcwFPm64cSmNVgglr1FSQFyQRdLcEvQcCQZe69IZ3LMXuGFeBG7-cReluRKnQlCpxtQrFBihbS6WpTAgkKb77c8Ah2dzqhCcYu/s1600-h/P6041466.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhe6fxH948CrQjJrd7JDQaHODW2kU4wlIvBm37IJ4m7JcDcwFPm64cSmNVgglr1FSQFyQRdLcEvQcCQZe69IZ3LMXuGFeBG7-cReluRKnQlCpxtQrFBihbS6WpTAgkKb77c8Ah2dzqhCcYu/s400/P6041466.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5207987703971910354" border="0" /></a><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">My thought is to leave the structure space. So that means that I will not write down a speech. But, I need to learn some things by heart. I guess tomorrow, that's what I will be doing.</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">As you can see the main idea is about Reality- Captions- Captions echoing Captions echoing captions echong chaptions econg captns acng cpts cn tns cntnsg...- Reality. And where is Virginia Woolf ???</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I have decided on this main idea because my work is a lot about representation of reality and live documentation. So what I wanted to do is to reflect Sontag's ideas in my meta-perfomance. As I have already, I want the ideas of Sontag to gain a performative element beyond what I am saying as a lecturer. That's how the laser pointer came in.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);font-size:130%;" > <span style="font-weight: bold;">VideoPreview</span></span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">I<span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> have also done a smal small work on a small videopreview I want to be shown in the Plasma screens of Laban where they usually show performances that are going to take place in Bonnie Bird. The idea is to make a small video like a teaser, only that it is going to be much more naturalistic than a seductive teaser (naturalistic does not mean realistic though).</span></span><br /><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' webkitallowfullscreen='webkitallowfullscreen' mozallowfullscreen='mozallowfullscreen' width='320' height='266' src='https://www.blogger.com/video.g?token=AD6v5dwEfE98Mxc3Vb8qUoaIQJgexCO6eyauIRdmR1jHhdGgXRr22QgXkKlebPpGuOo7zW677INTWHI4LqnHH2JlGw' class='b-hbp-video b-uploaded' frameborder='0'></iframe><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);font-size:85%;" >(the video keeps on stopping at 00:25. If it does, just move the cursor to 00:27 and it's ok)</span><br /></div><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">Here is what I have made so far... But I realy want to hear your opinion.</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">Yes the video is without sound. I don't want to make the violence be appealing.</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">Yes the caption are randomly put out of order.</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">Yes the red dot is a laser dot, I am sure that in a bigger screen it will look better.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">What do I want to do with this video ?</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">I want first of all to see the public's reactions. Especially</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">(a) whether they are shocked by the pictures, by the playmobils or whether it manages to pass unnoticed, and</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">(b) how does a teaser or an advertisement of vast public dissemination might create an audiencship. I mean, would the people be interested to come and see the piece just because of all this advertisement? "renowned choreographer" ? how do they react on that?after all my piece is about this ficticious or maybe real character who makes this fictitious or maybe real choreography and discusses about it or maybe about something else.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">Documentation</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">On one of my first entries, I was discussing about Mariella's suggestion whether this work is about documentation. I had very passionately, at that time, replied that no, this work is not about documentation, I don't want to make it easy for me, I should really try to make a piece. The last week though I was constantly thinking of it (maybe becoz of my fears).</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">After lots of thoughts, I think that my work is about documentation and has always been in my mind that it is so. But what I mean by the word documentation is very different to what some of you might think.</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">The action of archiving time (with the red tags), the laser pointer showing a time path, the live feed that comes in delay, the live feed of a photo that is a document of a document (like photos echoing photos echoing photos), all that is documentation...The lecture is about reality of documentation and captions. And so the whole performative event should be about documentation and captions.</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); background-color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">In this realization, Dr Elena Cologni, an Italian artist living and working in London, has been a very big influence. I will soon be uploading an enlightening discussion I had with her. For the time being here is a very inspiring piece of hers.</span><br /><p style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span style=";font-family:Verdana,Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;font-size:100%;" ><strong></strong><blockquote><strong style="background-color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">"MNEMONIC PRESENT, UN-FOLDING #3</strong><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"> involves the action of folding a long stripe of paper extending beyond the internal square of teh museum, this is recorded and projected back onto three screens, each with an 8 second delay – the exact time during which each of us is aware of the present events – in relation to the original action so that spectators perceive the event itself both live and deferred. This manipulation of the documentation of the live event is an attempt to generate a sort of memory of the present memoria or mnemonic present to question notions of memory, present and past."</span><br /><br /></blockquote></span><span style="font-size:100%;">There are many similarities to my work especially the delay of the live feed that she calls a "supplement" (according to Derrida's notion). Here is what she says about the delay:</span></p> <blockquote style="border-left: 1px solid rgb(204, 204, 204); margin: 0pt 0pt 0pt 0.8ex; padding-left: 1ex; background-color: rgb(51, 204, 255);" class="gmail_quote"> <blockquote style="border-left: 1px solid rgb(204, 204, 204); margin: 0pt 0pt 0pt 0.8ex; padding-left: 1ex;" class="gmail_quote"><span style="font-size:100%;">"The use of the live recording (or manipulation) projection in my Performative Video Live Installations enables me to investigate this time gap in the audience’s perception of the event. In my recent pieces defined as 'Video Live Installation' (VLI), the 'live-recording' and 'pre-recording' projected during the performative event has opened up questions regarding the involvement of the audience and their perception of what is present and represented. VLI, including its own simultaneous documentation can be regarded itself as a form of 'present memory' of the event, as perceived by the audience. </span><br /> <span style="font-size:100%;"> In the new work I create a 'real time distancing' from the event as part of its delivery at the time of its perception, to draw a parallel between the production of the performance's documentation and methods of memory archiving. The implicit continuous temporal and spatial shift of the event's meaning is thus created together with the temporary presentation and representation of the performer's self in relationship to the spectators - participating in the creative process through the interchange that takes place during its production." (Elena Cologni, ‘PRESENT-MEMORY: LIVENESS VERSUS DOCUMENTATION AND THE AUDIENCE’S MEMORY ARCHIVE IN PERFORMANCE ART’, psi conference 2005)</span><br /> </blockquote> </blockquote> <p style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">The delayed video works in order to create a live memory, a document that is live and interchanges between the past and the present, being a trace but never leaving a trace. A document that is not really documenting anything from the past, but performs the present through the past. Exactly what Susan Sontag means when saying that a photo says more about the now than about the war. </span><br /></span></p> <p style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><br /></p><p><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);font-size:130%;" ><span style="font-weight: bold;">The Return should not be lonesome</span></span><br /></p><p><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">Please do not forget to reply to me, even if you can't read all of this automatic writing... I know sometimes it's too much, sometimes it doesnt make sense. Just whatever you read (a line, a paragraph, the whole text, a picture, a video, please send me your comments). It's too difficult being that lonely</span><br /></span></p><div style="text-align: left;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhd-96x3XKfTmnbSC0Z2vBaZmO5sfMpXxqGW8vkP8YYkqzLKjufAA8IuAsnUuqkYUY9CIAQk-RoUOQ79CJ0MjcBnB86EKJa8S5GvjG-yXdMU_3whmUJGY7EhbnRD2-lTPCC7TwQodrRVQL-/s1600-h/cologni_02b.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhd-96x3XKfTmnbSC0Z2vBaZmO5sfMpXxqGW8vkP8YYkqzLKjufAA8IuAsnUuqkYUY9CIAQk-RoUOQ79CJ0MjcBnB86EKJa8S5GvjG-yXdMU_3whmUJGY7EhbnRD2-lTPCC7TwQodrRVQL-/s400/cologni_02b.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5208002116288150114" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjeeH3Th944XK1AJ__KnI-MJAO5KN4YUjCgH-0y89hgTSnLvo1tiPgCmCT5dFAB-4bTUXIiGz5CT1PFO37fCp9wMiMjgO7qJelpikN2qT1i80eMQwTUzjFVKG35KTzKNfTVHRAAQynf-A1l/s1600-h/cologni_03b-1.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjeeH3Th944XK1AJ__KnI-MJAO5KN4YUjCgH-0y89hgTSnLvo1tiPgCmCT5dFAB-4bTUXIiGz5CT1PFO37fCp9wMiMjgO7qJelpikN2qT1i80eMQwTUzjFVKG35KTzKNfTVHRAAQynf-A1l/s400/cologni_03b-1.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5208002149384045346" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhlTxQ_8inZvpxXDB108XK1bN0HupUoRrl4LfbjWK8sJSV_2dOKPhC-AjGsIE_tir3-iFZRVBRrDE4PLLbcmMRKDhgg_-iW3QpiB4BBVn5w_7zJsR4WIA4Pykb5R-uWLzs7OOiGlvTja4sN/s1600-h/cologni_04b.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhlTxQ_8inZvpxXDB108XK1bN0HupUoRrl4LfbjWK8sJSV_2dOKPhC-AjGsIE_tir3-iFZRVBRrDE4PLLbcmMRKDhgg_-iW3QpiB4BBVn5w_7zJsR4WIA4Pykb5R-uWLzs7OOiGlvTja4sN/s400/cologni_04b.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5208002168201852370" border="0" /></a><br /></div><p> </p> </div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6107862390387282735.post-6145937514491670942008-05-21T00:02:00.000-07:002008-06-26T23:39:53.019-07:00On representation<div style="text-align: justify; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span style="font-weight: bold;">Improvisational Technologies a</span><br />No, it's not about Forsythe. It's about how to make an improvisation with 121 photos and a text that has no logical structure.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Setting up</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">I accidentaly found two large white tables in my room. In the beginning I put them aside, but when I saw the amount of all my pictures, I thought, hey this is a nice lab table. I spread them all on the white table.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">I didn't know which one to pick up. I couldn't pick any. I was just left numb staring at them.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">Then it came to my mind the work of </span><span style="font-weight: bold; background-color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">Ibon Aranberri called </span><span style="font-style: italic; font-weight: bold; background-color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">Politica Hidraulica</span><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">.</span><br /> <br /> <a style="background-color: rgb(51, 204, 255);" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiqARl-Z_KQr4SXQZXkoY6xeJLy3wf8mECsivaCWrjOdJvoS9N4FG67lB2uMywiTxuZXERPcacfGKWy8vDyEQMQ7w6RDHjiVCypeZKiH3Wau3S1q4kn_fiBt1aiF-wCKhp-IudOoU-ciVfm/s1600-h/1184384021_30dad4cd06.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiqARl-Z_KQr4SXQZXkoY6xeJLy3wf8mECsivaCWrjOdJvoS9N4FG67lB2uMywiTxuZXERPcacfGKWy8vDyEQMQ7w6RDHjiVCypeZKiH3Wau3S1q4kn_fiBt1aiF-wCKhp-IudOoU-ciVfm/s320/1184384021_30dad4cd06.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5202728316865151826" border="0" /></a><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">The work features 46 framed aerial photographs, which Aranberri had commissioned. The photographs are printed in various sizes and framed in different colours and forms. The frames and the prints both have a certain retro character. They are then loosely placed on the floor, overlapping one another as if in temporary storage. Aranberri refers to this installation as something that creates a “claustrophobic atmosphere”, and does not try to “rescue memory”. With this form of presentation, he wants to suggest a backstage situation, comparing it with “the storage of an energy company”. It is not the single picture that interests him but rather the large number and exemplary character of the constructions, as well as the accumulation. He is attracted by both their particular “sense of beauty” and the totalitarian idea to shape a “generic landscape”.</span><br /><br /><a style="background-color: rgb(51, 51, 255);" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh1TuZyT71Z6rlywDWDDekQaEuGKDl2ORLyxhNvfWUDoQfx018jaYSaCTMJ2TvZSqfoVHhHmAsTIj5V93PhERARn7QBB1ZpCyuQuMMPcpllpSW-jgkvkg5ffsbc0i-22SVN7FLCBnzZF82p/s1600-h/photos+table2.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh1TuZyT71Z6rlywDWDDekQaEuGKDl2ORLyxhNvfWUDoQfx018jaYSaCTMJ2TvZSqfoVHhHmAsTIj5V93PhERARn7QBB1ZpCyuQuMMPcpllpSW-jgkvkg5ffsbc0i-22SVN7FLCBnzZF82p/s320/photos+table2.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5202729205923382114" border="0" /></a><br /><a style="background-color: rgb(51, 51, 255);" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgPOe-yhHAGCUb5977o99O_u6Ns3c-0q9skb7029tzvFNeYiS44_WO6SWYzN7aHgiU13XdZ_yyCJdOnY_ZjZVfif-gYVu_wAzAen9vghlITFG2DbvfOGLvQZkn2_sJQLjLJ1mnwRe_01hqA/s1600-h/photos-+table+4.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgPOe-yhHAGCUb5977o99O_u6Ns3c-0q9skb7029tzvFNeYiS44_WO6SWYzN7aHgiU13XdZ_yyCJdOnY_ZjZVfif-gYVu_wAzAen9vghlITFG2DbvfOGLvQZkn2_sJQLjLJ1mnwRe_01hqA/s320/photos-+table+4.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5202729205923382130" border="0" /></a><br />I<span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"> was wondering whether I should just exhibit the picture like that... It is about the amount of the photos. But it is also about the single photo that is able to work in order to shape the ideas grouping these photos, namely caption, interpretation, reality, violence, suffering, spectatorship, revenge, peace, ambivalence, power etc...</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I can't take a decision now. The thing is that part of my research is discover the photos that Susan Sontag is talking about. Here they are. My work as an artist now is how to present them. And I think that this would be a great way to present them.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Food for thought for the future. That was just a small hint.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Understanding my weaknesses<br /></span><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Well, you can't improvise without having a vocabulary of movements. And of course everyone can argue in favour or against that, with a plentiful of arguments.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">But what I want to say is, that trying to improvise on pictures that I don't really know what they are is almost bound to fail to grasp the level of a specialized lecture on war photography. Improvisation is a step that will come later. For the time being I need to find another strategy.</span><br /><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">So I tried to identify what are the ways/strategies to start working on the text deeper.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">I made a map of two possible ways and then tried to see their pros/cons.</span><br /><span style="text-decoration: underline; background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);"><br /></span><a style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjpHsa2MvMyUlTreDNHDRB8sSAywLUNwLE9ZnEo_xpHJLxmXILVRapE0yo8ms4XJuVNWyndLMV97FCLjkOXwCe-ZR7AVfa1poZxRZlzZjoYc7QRZ72jZSqbmBquw1K64RQ_d4w8dNkv50lg/s1600-h/map3.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjpHsa2MvMyUlTreDNHDRB8sSAywLUNwLE9ZnEo_xpHJLxmXILVRapE0yo8ms4XJuVNWyndLMV97FCLjkOXwCe-ZR7AVfa1poZxRZlzZjoYc7QRZ72jZSqbmBquw1K64RQ_d4w8dNkv50lg/s400/map3.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5202739243261952962" border="0" /></a><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">Here is what I wrote/thought (but it's great if you click on the image also)</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);"><br />Method 1 (the playful way)</span><br /><ol style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);"><li>Write next to each picture all the elements of it, such as photographer, time, place, caption, Sontag's analysis, other information I find on google. </li><li>Do that for all pictures. </li><li>Learn everyday 10 pictures by heart. </li><li>Everyday make a revision of all pictures studied until that day.</li><li>Go back to the table and pick up one picture. Any picture. </li><li>Say some of its characteristics. Any characteristic (not all).</li><li>Link another picture with this picture because they share characteristics.</li><li>Try to identify the pathway I have chosen. Do I link them in certain thematics?</li><li>Pick up 2-3 thematics and work harder on them</li><li>Revise the steps when you have already done them, I can't predict now what will happen ...</li></ol> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">Advantages</span><br /><ul style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);"><li>learning process will be like a quiz game</li><li>free floating lecture</li><li>focused on photos content rather than a certain theory</li></ul> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">Disadvantages</span><br /><ul style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);"><li>need to learn things by heart</li><li>very fragmented lecture without a thread of thought/focus</li><li>demands time in "choreographing" the results of the improvisation</li></ul> <span style="font-weight: bold; background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">Method 2 (the academic way)</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">1. Read many articles on war photography</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">2. Try to identify what the main issues are</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">3. Write my own article discussing about these issues</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">4. Try to link photos to each word/paragraph/chapter</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">5. Read the article.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">6. Althought its mine, really try to make it even more mine</span><br /><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">Advantages</span><br /><ul style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);"><li>focuses on theory (--> explains the content of my 'old' performance.</li><li>has a clear beginning/middle/end</li></ul> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">Disadvantages</span><br /><ul style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);"><li>needs a lot of reading/time</li><li>will make the lecture more rigid</li><li>fear that photos might not be mentioned and that lecture becomes boring</li></ul><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Decision</span><br />I don't know which method to follow. Yesterday my Athens Log in reached its deadline. Which means I have no access to academic articles anymore. This is a big tragedy for me... I guess method 2 is a bit more difficult now.<br />But I don't want to exclude it just for that reason. I want the piece to decide on its own what the most appropriate methodology is.<br />I wonder whether that article (of method 2) could be of any use elsewhere...<br />What should I do ???? FUCK<br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-weight: bold;">An arts philosophical (idiot but important for me ) question<br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="background-color: rgb(0, 153, 0);">Kate Elswit, lecturer at Laban, some weeks ago had said that my article on nudity/nakedness was a very egoistic one. She could clearly see the amount of research I had done but I never explained anything to my readers.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I guess I am in this situation now. I am right now doing a research. But I don't want to cluster it in 10 mins and present it. I don't understand why I have to present it. The research is for me. I do it for my own sake. I don't care about audiences. I am not doing a research on how to approach audience. Who the f*ck has linked arts with audience? Why do we have to show our work? Why is art a communication? Isn't it creative to work on your own, to find your own paths, to discover new worlds? For me that is creation that is art.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Expressing this knowledge is a show off. Is an assumption that you, or I, are great and can educate the others. Don't give me that shit that you are not interested in educating the other. Once you show something to the other (that has research behind it), you educate him on your research. I am not an educator, instructor, teacher, professor, lecturer, priest, leader, head of state or god.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Now it may sound contradictory that I am putting everyday online this work. And I would agree with you on one hand. Yes, I am showing my work and yes I try to make it interesting for you. But maybe I do that because that's how I was educated by my culture. OR, (and this is what I want to stress) I do it because I am still researching, I am researching with you, I am making no statement about good or bad. You are here to give me feedback, not to learn from me. I learn from you.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);font-size:130%;" ><span style="font-weight: bold;"><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">My Yes and No Manifesto</span></span></span><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"> (inspired by Yvonne Rainer and Mette Ingvartsen)</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">No to </span></span></span><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);font-size:100%;" >teaching/ instructing/ educating/ leading/ forming<br />No to dissemination of results<br />No to results<br />No to reducing your research to 5 pages<br />No to imposing a certain interpretation of your research<br /><br />Yes to allowing your research have multiple strands and interpretation<br /></span><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);font-size:100%;" >Yes to egoism<br />Yes, to accumlating knowledge together with other people<br />Yes, to asking opinions as a means of research<br /><br />No to spectacle<br />No to finishing a research<br />No to encapsulation<br /><br /></span><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);font-size:100%;" class="text" > Yes to non-sense/illogic<br />Yes to organizing principles rather than fixed logic systems<br /><br />No to expression<br /></span><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);font-size:100%;" class="text" > Yes to methodology and procedures</span><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);font-size:100%;" ><br /><br /></span><span style="font-weight: bold; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);font-size:100%;" >P.S. </span><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);font-size:100%;" >This needs redefinition. Anyone wants to help to make it better?</span></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6107862390387282735.post-4788311736496641562008-05-19T14:01:00.000-07:002008-06-26T23:09:01.811-07:00Haven't done anything today<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); background-color: rgb(255, 102, 0);"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">(still waiting for your corrections on how I read your feedback)</span></span><br /> <span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-weight: bold;">Not working (for the piece)***</span></span><br />I<span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">t's true. I haven't done any work today.</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">I went to the studio only late in the evening. The space was different. People had moved the furniture. It seemed very tidy and clean. Nothing to do with me. </span><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer; background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhQ4mILFX1BmSaylpNzlGtD6cgtQuY8vU-HR7tDQrSg9_AUmhOeDn8bmSzJ4vdmow_501IlSXVYKdRwfFENDjpna0ilikEbuW1UPbKITCueJhmUrwVW75B_SF1pYRr5x9rwZHTsauCV_rVa/s320/P5191229.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5202352202284073794" border="0" /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">It seemed fiendish welcoming. I wanted to leave. I convinced myself to stay at least 1 hour in side the studio. I did. I thought that my laziness would chill out and I would start being creative with it.</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">It didnt happen. I took some pictures of the space. I didn't want to work.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I knew what I had to do. I just didn't want to do it. I saw the boxes with all my material inside. I opened them to check out if everything is inside. Everything ok.</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I didnt work today. My spirit needs to calm down from the feedback. Although I know where I have to head to, I am not sure whether I really do know the importance of it. I give to myself the excuse that I need to digest. Well, of course I do. It's not an excuse.</span><br /> <br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I can't work. I feel that the things I need to do now are small and tedious. I don't feel ready yet. I need some time away. I don't have the time. Where do I find the time? How do I manage it?</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">There must be a good strategy for people in my situation and I am sure some of you must have felt like that before.</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">So... what should I do???? How can I put myself back to work ? Here is what I've thought</span><br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic; background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">Solution No. 1</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">I can cry and cry all day. Thinking I can't</span><br /> <span style="font-style: italic; background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">Solution No. 2</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">Whenever I feel I can't work, I should watch a video of a performance lecture and keep notes.</span><br /> <span style="font-style: italic; background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">Solution No. 3</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">Read again the feedback notes. Try to find steps on how to solve the problems.</span><br /> <span style="font-style: italic; background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">Solution No. 4</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">Skip the work and go for a drink.</span><br /> <span style="font-style: italic; background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">Solution No. 5</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">Something else you can suggest me ????</span><br /><br />*<span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">** I was working though in the library for another module I have in shitty Laban called Creative Strategies, and I think this will take lots of my concentration this week. This is not necessarily bad because I am doing work and I am creative, but, still, I can't focus on the "pain of others" and it makes me angry. Here is a pic i took in the library while studying:</span><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhu9OeXC3SFsSQZ4PrbWECjsnkRloLwVFRfppBmPia7UxREs4n-H8FezpGzDD0JPy5BMg3teSrbbYijD8WKITupp5_4S5RgY7Rk_eC1Zqjl7UqcnERtjbUf29PwFFxSnXw3zQZQv4ho3UCx/s1600-h/P5191204.JPG"><img style="cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhu9OeXC3SFsSQZ4PrbWECjsnkRloLwVFRfppBmPia7UxREs4n-H8FezpGzDD0JPy5BMg3teSrbbYijD8WKITupp5_4S5RgY7Rk_eC1Zqjl7UqcnERtjbUf29PwFFxSnXw3zQZQv4ho3UCx/s320/P5191204.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5202347117042795250" border="0" /></a><br /></div> <div style="text-align: center;">Pic. 1 The raw material<br /></div><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-weight: bold;">Experimenting with photographic Composition</span></span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">While taking this first picture, I realized it needed a bit of composition to make it look more beautiful. And thinking of my lecture when I discuss about such photographers as Alexander Gardner and Timothy O'Sullivan who would drag the dead soldiers bodies to certain places so that their pictures look more interesting, I decided to experiment on what composition really means. How does it function? Just an empirical approach from an amateur, nothing academic.</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Here are some of the results.</span><br /><div style="text-align: center; background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhKqFnelUl9XMPiPPBP1OpwUuOXYkjoDuazwGtqEv3RIFFYVQ994Nbcuy7A7mckiSKfRG4OGS8GRfxdX2C_P2G4RY6IQkNHm8cIMbtBauGeJekl9tE5c_aqwCzkNKnQyH9F96k-wBiHjKuw/s1600-h/P5191207.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhKqFnelUl9XMPiPPBP1OpwUuOXYkjoDuazwGtqEv3RIFFYVQ994Nbcuy7A7mckiSKfRG4OGS8GRfxdX2C_P2G4RY6IQkNHm8cIMbtBauGeJekl9tE5c_aqwCzkNKnQyH9F96k-wBiHjKuw/s320/P5191207.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5202349101317686066" border="0" /></a>Pic 2. Changing the perspective<br /><br /></div> <div style="text-align: center; background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiYCsng5JHnRazwwKaMc2JlF0qOLMUKLZwDneZdjwVwzXZm23ZfbKAYSe7mbEgqeTit_rBkk3LbOzHzqOMPqlSeXSOXVBklx3AYbB1L90puTPTkVxRV2ZL2MRrgpoyO7e7OKcvyyDhEsi_z/s1600-h/P5191208.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiYCsng5JHnRazwwKaMc2JlF0qOLMUKLZwDneZdjwVwzXZm23ZfbKAYSe7mbEgqeTit_rBkk3LbOzHzqOMPqlSeXSOXVBklx3AYbB1L90puTPTkVxRV2ZL2MRrgpoyO7e7OKcvyyDhEsi_z/s320/P5191208.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5202348697590760210" border="0" /></a>Pic 3. Changing the objects<br /></div> <br /> <div style="text-align: center; background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjUHYPRr7dqpr-1TDBVo2YGXK4p8Z36n80FQ8dqhS_sYDgB7rAY55smvYwhqStmdlcJRiSN_KEj7Vn8BH3EPWsgnhPn8qGjevsPQifjXqCv0OdFziZhzO0IJb9EWcmbuGmI1DRPzeQ4pZBl/s1600-h/P5191216.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjUHYPRr7dqpr-1TDBVo2YGXK4p8Z36n80FQ8dqhS_sYDgB7rAY55smvYwhqStmdlcJRiSN_KEj7Vn8BH3EPWsgnhPn8qGjevsPQifjXqCv0OdFziZhzO0IJb9EWcmbuGmI1DRPzeQ4pZBl/s320/P5191216.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5202348701885727522" border="0" /></a>Pic 4. Chaning the perspective again<br /></div><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Results of my little experimentation: Photographic composition is really fascinating. It has many similarities with dance composition but since it's a new field to me it feels amazing. The results are strong. I should experiment more on that.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-weight: bold;">Still Processing</span></span> <div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">(still waiting for your corrections on how i read your feedback)<br /></span></span>Aaron has seen the videos of the presentation day and he sent me a very sharp (sometimes pleasurably painful) email. What I will do again is split it up in thematics and then asnwer my four question. So here I go:<br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">1. Regarding the text</span><br /><ul><li><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">What did I do? How did it function?</span><br /></li></ul><span style="background-color: rgb(0, 153, 0);">I show as if I have no ownership, I dont show confident so that the audience can believe in me. When I read text he thinks I am an academic lecturer.</span><br /><ul><li><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">What should I do?</span><br /></li></ul>I<span style="background-color: rgb(0, 153, 0);"> should detach myself from the original text of Sontag. Some questions to consider: where do you pause? for how long? What word do you hit? What is a question? I need to own the text and the language. He suggests that I should study more books on the topic to widen my knowledge and strengthen my base and confidence.</span><br /><ul style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);"><li>How am I thinking of going further?</li></ul><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Well as I have already said, yes the text was crap. I need to work on it. Probably through the means of improvisation. I am also going study a bit more two more articles I have on war photography. Keeping some quotations from people is not a bad suggestion, I could have them next to me and read them aloud if it comes on the course of my improvisation. After getting comfortable with the improvisation of the text, and slowly slowly building up a certain structure, coming up from the repetition of certain pathways, I should consider questions of emphasis and pause (but I should wait a bit on that... it sounds TOO advanced for now).</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">2. Regarding the self reflective convention of a performance lecture</span><br /><ul><li><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">How does it function?</span><br /></li></ul><span style="background-color: rgb(0, 153, 0);">He thinks that I haven't been clear enough when separating the lecture with the solo performance that has happened some time in the past. He thinks that the excerpts I am showing from the solo during the lecture were not enough.</span><br /><ul><li><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">What should I do ?</span> </li></ul><span style="background-color: rgb(0, 153, 0);">I should not use future tense as a means of talking about the past because it is confusing. I could ask the audience if they have seen my solo. He would like to see more excerpts from the solo performance that has "happened". He wants to know clearly his position/function in the setup.</span><br /><ul style="background-color: rgb(255, 102, 0);"><li>How am I thinking of going further?</li></ul><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">The distortion of the position of the audience is something that really interests me. I am pretty happy Aaron is upset with that. I am questioning now whether there lies something in there that I should try to pick up and that is helpful to make my point clearer. I think yes. That is the correct use of grammar (I am sorry my english that day was very very very bad, probably bcause of the intrusion). And I should state maybe more often my position in this lecture. I am a choreographer that has made something in the past and here is my thoughts/theories behind it.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">3. Sound</span><br /><ul style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);"><li>How did it function?<br /></li></ul><span style="background-color: rgb(0, 153, 0);">He found the music modulation in the pigheaded image very strong (unsure why). He got less interested though when he saw me changing the programs of the apparatus during the showing of photos, because he understood all the magic.</span><br /><ul><li><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">What should I do?</span><br /></li></ul><span style="background-color: rgb(0, 153, 0);">I should change the programs of the FX before people can hear them, so that they are less obvious.</span><br /><ul style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);"><li>How am I thinking of going futher?</li></ul><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Well my idea is to link each photo with a specific noise. Either the war alarm or the wind etc. I need to rehearse more. I should definitely be faster in changing the program. I should never change a program when sound is produced. Only when no sound is produced I can change the program.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">4. Nudity</span><br /><ul><li><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">How did it function?</span><br /></li></ul><span style="background-color: rgb(0, 153, 0);">He is questioning whether nudity is a part of my aesthetic, he was not convinced about its usage.</span><br /><ul style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);"><li>What should I do ?</li></ul><span style="background-color: rgb(0, 153, 0);">No suggestion, but I think he wants me to think more whether I need to be nude or not.</span><br /><ul style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);"><li>How am I thinking of going further?</li></ul><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I am quite sure that I want to deliver the work nude. It's not an aesthetic choice so much as a part of (a) revealing the truth, (b) blurring the boundaries between the "previous performance" and the today's lecture, and (c) referring to other performance lectures (Schneemann). If these points are not clear enough, maybe I should make them clear to the audience. On the other hand, I am not sure I want to explain everything to the audience. Maybe that's what Aaron means, find the boundaries between explaining my intentions or nor explaining at all.</span><br /><br /><ul><li>What did Aaron actually say?</li></ul>Initally I had thought of putting all Aaron's email but it's 2 pages and it was too big. If someone wants the original though I can certainly send it back to you guyz. For reasons of brievity (does that exist???). Not censorship. He is indeed very strict, and sometimes painful, but... it's the pain of the others, not mine. :) Thanx Aaron</div> <div><br /><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="font-weight: bold;">Kate Bush Fan Club in Laban</span></span><br />Anita and I are thinking of opening a Kate Bush Fan Club in Laban. All current or ex students, teachers, visitors, haters or admirers of Laban School you are free to join us. For our opening ceremony I suggest we all dance "Wuthering Heights" in group formations. Waiting for your membership. It's free and fun :)</div> <div><p style="margin: 0px; font-family: Helvetica; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; font-size: 12px; line-height: normal; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal;"><object height="355" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/Hv0azq9GF_g&hl=en"><param name="wmode" value="transparent"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/Hv0azq9GF_g&hl=en" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" height="355" width="425"></embed></object></p><br /></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6107862390387282735.post-87550898307049193372008-05-18T13:50:00.000-07:002008-06-26T23:02:01.258-07:00Working from home<div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-weight: bold;">Next picture is dedicated to all you (intruders, emailers, phoners and haters)</span><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhs5DWQkZG07YpVmgXWiU5maxcX6RoN6koEnn0uCXEzlcq2WXXHN3QlwdVgPtZdb78y3Ng8x09C6PByF7_PTX0d8LIr_oxhzzgL-cqnZtgzlP2uI7lkk4obH-0et2rRl3Q5dC7QugjCU_iI/s1600-h/thank+you.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhs5DWQkZG07YpVmgXWiU5maxcX6RoN6koEnn0uCXEzlcq2WXXHN3QlwdVgPtZdb78y3Ng8x09C6PByF7_PTX0d8LIr_oxhzzgL-cqnZtgzlP2uI7lkk4obH-0et2rRl3Q5dC7QugjCU_iI/s400/thank+you.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5201837304424760034" border="0" /></a><br /><br /></div><br /><div style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Today, alhough my day off, I still worked in trying to digest the feedback that I received. And I guess I will still be doing that for the next week. I dont' think I am ready to go back to the studio and work. So I stayed at home and did work from here. </div> <div style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Here at bed working</div> <div><br /></div> <div><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiWCWs5huPurz53VrmRnwYIGq8y3_dA0ETQq3QXsP19pZbslGQeYJlwWTNuPpW-YpcJWTRgAAHR72epKP_F1pARpP3NdkybWOb_ki1y3rigZvqWydI32_evJQ1Ox8kZN28gULKXplhluPAk/s400/P5171107.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5201833542033408690" border="0" /><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div></div> <div><br /></div> Yes the thank you card lies on top of my head. <div><br /></div> <div><br /></div> <div style="text-align: left;"><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-weight: bold;">Shaving as a marking of a new beginning</span></span><br /></div> <div>One thing I did today is re-read sections of the book of <span style="background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);">Mary Douglas "Purity and Danger: an analysis of concept of pollution and taboo". The book has been really inspiring to me in other times.</span></div> <div style="background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);">This time I was again fascinated by the idea that dirt is something we are afraid of, trying to avoid it and that cleaneliness is the sacred. Anyway, she gives her personal experience on that saying that she says that she needs to clean up her space, room or house before she begins on a new work. I decided to shave my beard.</div> <div><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgJvbi35p47MbtMYMOxrd4nXniIIn12WrV6AuK2rNmuBQzqL1lt-8orBCa0x79_ZxZ83YlXTDGb158z2KxbCyGwwJFtBEpxQYuMtRowEZj2q2bOraEEYTkED-jF8zRewsiXtwUi-e-VZvkW/s400/panorama+shaving+2a.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5201836660179665618" border="0" /></div> <div>Here is the hideous result. OMG... I understood how much fat I have gained, I understood that my skin has dried out, I reallly dont like it...But it's okay since it symbolizes for me all that which I couldnt see before and now my eyes are open.<br /><br /><blockquote style="border-left: 1px solid rgb(204, 204, 204); margin: 0pt 0pt 0pt 0.8ex; padding-left: 1ex;" class="gmail_quote"><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);font-size:100%;" >"</span><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);">There is nothing fearful or unreasoning in our dirt avoidance: it is a creative movement, an attempt to relate form to function, to make unity of experience</span><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);font-size:100%;" > " (Mary Douglas)<br /></span></blockquote> </div> <div><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-weight: bold;">On the mess of my space</span></span><br /></span></div> <div><span style="font-size:100%;">In that book also I discovered some things about my messiness:</span></div> <div style="background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);"><div style="text-align: left;"><!--StartFragment--> </div><p style="text-align: left;" class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;font-size:85%;" ><span class="Apple-style-span"><blockquote>“Purity and danger presupposed that everyone universally finds dirt offensive, which I still stand by. But what counts as dirt? It depends on the classifications in use. Basil Bernstein made a cogent criticism: some areas of one’s life are kept clan and tidy, but, in others, a lot of mess is happily tolerated. Some people live in a highly classified way all the time. Should I not allow for the obsessional artist whose tolerance of disorder is practically complete? His studio is chaotic, he sleeps there, eats there, urinates in the hand basin or out of the window when his passion for his work gives him no time to go to the w.c. Everything looks wildly disorderd, except on his canvas: there alone do calm and order reign. For him the canvas is the only sacred space, where repletness is compulsory and where the least sign of disorder would send him into fits of anxiety. (Douglas, second publication 2002).</blockquote></span></span></p> <!--EndFragment--> </div> <div style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"><span style="font-size:100%;">I think the fact that my space seems so messy is a great thing for me as it works in a way that is shocking the audience, it puts them in a discomfortable place of something that they don't like (=dirt) but they have to watch it now whether they like it or not. </span></div> <div><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span></div> <div><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span></div> <div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;font-size:100%;" ><span class="Apple-style-span"><span style="font-size:130%;">Some ideas that are really outsiders on the presentational mode of the work (still on my head though)<br /></span></span></span><ul style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"><li><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:100%;"><span class="Apple-style-span">Maybe I just present this blog and that's all. It speaks for itself. And I never present the performance lecture live<br /></span></span></li><li><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:100%;"><span class="Apple-style-span">Maybe I get interested from now in writing the blog as if this performance has already been asked by different cities and I present it there. It's like building up a certain mythology around my name. This way I could work more on the blurring of the boundaries of reality. But the lies would be so well done or so small that noone would tell what is true.<br /></span></span></li><li><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:100%;"><span class="Apple-style-span">Maybe I change space. I might need a bigger one. I am not sure why though.</span></span></li></ul><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:100%;"><span class="Apple-style-span"><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">I was also watching Miguel's video again. During the performance at a point of time the song of Kate Bush "Wuthering Heights" is featuring while he is standing over a candle and burning himself. Anyway, I loved the song, so I went to Youtube to see the videoclip. I got very excited with the artist and her dance/choreographic abilities. So I decided to check even more on her. Here is what I discovered that is really interesting on my research:</span><br /><object height="355" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/tWdHOm256N4&hl=en"><param name="wmode" value="transparent"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/tWdHOm256N4&hl=en" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" height="355" width="425"></embed></object></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:100%;"><span class="Apple-style-span"><br /><object height="355" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/tWdHOm256N4&hl=en"><param name="wmode" value="transparent"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/tWdHOm256N4&hl=en" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" height="355" width="425"></embed></object><br /><br /></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:100%;"><span class="Apple-style-span"><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">The song is talking about the BFPO (British Forces Posted Overseas). The song was written in 1980 and speaks about death of young soldiers (maybe in the Vietnam war? I don't know). Seminal importance is given to the role of photography in the video. Everything comes from the eyes of Kate Bush who act as a photographic camera. More than that, remember that Vietnam war is the first war ever to be witnessed/covered by tv 24/7 and so the war really became a living room experience. Look at the movement of the camera especially during the bombing session. It has nothing to do with the experienced hands of a Holywoodian cameraman. It has the touch of raw material. Also attention to the movement of her eyes on the sound of a photocamera shot.Very interesting. </span><span style="background-color: rgb(0, 153, 0);">A friend told me that the sound of a photocamera is very similar to when you arm your gun.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(0, 153, 0);">Hope you like it too.</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:100%;"><span class="Apple-style-span"><br /></span></span></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6107862390387282735.post-31498936917582630772008-05-17T12:16:00.001-07:002008-06-26T22:53:48.845-07:00Processing and Digesting<span style="background-color: rgb(0, 153, 0);"></span><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Yesterday I tried to put in an order the feedback I got from some emails and from some friendly intruders when they entered my rehearsal space.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">So, what I'll do here is write in my own words what I thought they said. This is a great exercise to make sure you really get what other people tell you. Sometimes we understand what we want to understand and some important issues our memory just strikes them out. And then put also some videos/text from them. I would like you to tell me what is wrong or what I have forgotten.</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">How will I do that?</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">I will have three questions that I need to reply.</span><br /> <ul style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);"><li>How does it function for the audience;</li><li>What did the people recommend me to do;</li><li>How do I think of going further; and</li><li>What did they actually say/ wrote.</li></ul> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">Again, I would like you to write me back and give me corrections or addition to what I think you said about the work, on what you recommended to do, on what I think of doing. Thanks. So here we go...</span><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 0, 0);font-family:verdana;font-size:130%;" >On Virginia's image</span><br /><ul><li>How did it function?</li></ul> <span style="background-color: rgb(0, 153, 0);">I think people found it very strong as an image and the fact that I framed it as a part of another performance that had happened in the past, it was very intriguing for the audience as if was questiononing who is the real audience. It put them in a certain mode of looking for the rest of the piece. There was something unattractive and disturbing that made it strong. Giving later the description of Virginia's image it gave another layer to it.</span><br /><ul><li>What should I do with it ?</li></ul> <span style="background-color: rgb(0, 153, 0);">I haven't understood if people recommended me that I have to do something, good or bad, with it. I think they gave me their interpretations of the image and allowed me to see it from their eyes so that I have a stronger and deeper understanding of its function.</span><br /><ul><li>How do I think going further?</li></ul> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I will keep these functions of the image in my mind and let them inform my body awareness whilst performing. One more thing I would like to do, after having seen the video myself is to increase the time of delay in Isadora so that the difference is stronger.</span><br /><ul><li>What did the people actually say?<br /></li></ul> <div style="text-align: center; background-color: rgb(0, 153, 0);"><div style="text-align: left;"><span style="font-style: italic;font-size:85%;" >Dr Martin Hargreaves commenting Virginia's image</span><br /></div><iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' webkitallowfullscreen='webkitallowfullscreen' mozallowfullscreen='mozallowfullscreen' width='320' height='266' src='https://www.blogger.com/video.g?token=AD6v5dyvNHDkqLwTfDmNBoFaBjfi3XyTh_WZPqXnXYs6InbT-G-r3bbYvVVIdRLC0bormXlg8JaP0KsCxVf1jb50Mg' class='b-hbp-video b-uploaded' frameborder='0'></iframe><br /></div> <span style="font-style: italic; background-color: rgb(0, 153, 0);"><span style="font-size:85%;"><br />Monica on Virginia's image</span></span><br /> <div style="text-align: center; background-color: rgb(0, 153, 0);"><div style="text-align: left;"><div style="text-align: center;"><iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' webkitallowfullscreen='webkitallowfullscreen' mozallowfullscreen='mozallowfullscreen' width='320' height='266' src='https://www.blogger.com/video.g?token=AD6v5dzvVYHOFdJgISf_g_ulVSsS7iSEkjdNPMAkQB8n59D8Yv2dtDT2eJUBPb3PtBFujhnNZuUmi47gx2Ydi56T-A' class='b-hbp-video b-uploaded' frameborder='0'></iframe><br /></div><span style="font-style: italic;font-size:85%;" ><br /><br />Me givin</span><span style="font-style: italic;font-size:85%;" >g some further explanation</span><br /></div><iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' webkitallowfullscreen='webkitallowfullscreen' mozallowfullscreen='mozallowfullscreen' width='320' height='266' src='https://www.blogger.com/video.g?token=AD6v5dxjPEu4X4s6eXA-EuCdhKWt2jQiUx1ItzT0A8PrJBR0YUCwrzp7sO1GaG9SqnIYVzhxciZd2eTu2wlI1ivfrw' class='b-hbp-video b-uploaded' frameborder='0'></iframe><br /></div> <span style="font-style: italic; background-color: rgb(0, 153, 0);"><br /></span><br /> <br /> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;" ><span style="font-weight: bold;">Regarding the text of the lecture</span></span><br /><ul><li>What was the function or the discussion about it?</li></ul> <span style="background-color: rgb(0, 153, 0);">I think that this is where I got the most of the (constructive) criticism. In a very very very few words: People felt that it was not strong, it was a bit boring, I was lookin insecure about it, there was no structure. Some others wanted me to to position myself clearly whether in favour or against war.</span><br /><ul><li>What should I do?</li></ul> <span style="background-color: rgb(0, 153, 0);">Different suggestions. Some people suggested I should be more free with the text and not be bound by my scripts. In that sense, I could have pictures in front of me and let the conversation go wherever it leads. Another suggestion was to become more secure when delivering the text by working harder on it and really knowing what I am talking about. Another suggestion was to think the timing of the individual components of the lecture so that I dont give more weight to something that I dont want to. I should also try to link it back to Virginia Woolf's primary image otherwise I dont explain what there is in this picture. The pictures of Ernst Friedrich with the huge facial wounds , I should also first people to enjoy their looks and then make them feel guilty with their pervert desires (and I mean that I should sometimes first show the picture and then talk about it so that I dont preempt what they should read. Or at least put them simultaneously).</span><br /> <ul><li>How am I going to go further?</li></ul> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Well actually I am thinking of letting the lecture be more loose. For my next rehearsal I will do the following. I will have all pictures in front of me. Then start speaking in any order. Leaving it live and see where the course of the discussion will take me. Learn by heart 5-6 sentences I really fancy but no script. For that reason, I will have the papers close by me (at least for the beginning) to feel security and refer to them whenever english doesnt come out of my mouth, but I should try avoiding that as much as possible. After doing it 6-7 times I will understand more or less interesting time paths that I am taking. Hopefully there is going to be some sort of repetition in some parts of the lectures. That will help me to start building up a structure but not a script. In that sense I will work the text like a choreographer. It's not going to be a text anymore but a choreography. And the style of it: improvisation. After that I will try to see when do I show the photos? I will try to build a "on the spot" awareness of the timing of the photo in relation to the text. This awarenes should take into consideration the following:</span><br /> <ol style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"><li>the content of the picture</li><li>the composition/light/ colour and artistic strength of the picture</li><li>the content of the spoken text</li><li>the dynamics of the argumentation</li><li>what I need to convey or what affect do I want to create in the audience</li><li>the freedom and easyness of my performance (instead of a cubersome work with lots of thinking)</li></ol> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I should also try to refer back to other images I have already spoken about so that I built up a thick net of interrelations that can serve as a basis of my argumentation</span><br /><ul><li>Here is what the people actually said</li></ul> <div style="text-align: center; background-color: rgb(51, 204, 0);"><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 204, 0);"><span style="font-weight: bold;"><iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' webkitallowfullscreen='webkitallowfullscreen' mozallowfullscreen='mozallowfullscreen' width='320' height='266' src='https://www.blogger.com/video.g?token=AD6v5dyR5tjhc9bIj4SFAHE2GswtIVtav772lKYMckAUYqn6CTML8su_NyAltDjzAY9EO1t9wqPxwdIOUDiQyU3oTQ' class='b-hbp-video b-uploaded' frameborder='0'></iframe></span></span><br /></div> <br /> <div style="text-align: center; background-color: rgb(51, 204, 0);"><br /></div><br /><br /><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><div style="text-align: left;"><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 0, 0);font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;" >Playmobilling the 9/11</span><br /></div></div> Although Deborah, the director of the school in Germany where I am teaching, was physically not present with the other friendly intruders, she sent me an email concerning the video.<br /><ul><li>How did it function?</li></ul> <span style="background-color: rgb(0, 153, 0);">The contrast between the childlike game and the horror of reality augmented the affect of the experience. Being able to see me manipulating the playmobils and not being always succesful gave the idea of an ugly reality. The voice and the noise of the ambulance has an impact (not really sure what that easy for Deborah but I felt she was intrigued by it). It was understood as both being prerecorded (Debora the ambulance is the only real noise I've put).</span><br /> <ul><li>What should I do with it ?</li></ul> <span style="background-color: rgb(0, 153, 0);">The idea of the live version being projected on the wall would make it more real. As a suggestion for being able to do all the tricks at the same time (camera, playmobils, script etc) I could strap the camera on my head (although Deb said it as a joke, I am really thinking of it now).</span><br /><ul><li>How do I think going further?</li></ul> <p style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I think I want to try again the live. I know that the aesthetics of failure (my expression that i will try to explain another time) really work out great, so I am not going to challenge that too much (maybe just be more sure about what I do). I want to see what it means to do it live. I want to rehearse it many times. It might just end up a video again, but I would at least have done a lot of research behind it. I don't really know how I should go further. Maybe just do it again and try to catch up any possibility that might pop up. Sticking the camera on my head is NOT a bad idea.</p> <ul><li>What did Deborah actually say ? (that's easy coz it's an email)</li></ul> <p align="right"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEikS4hk6qfqWEsImUMy4BWd58duHOYbUS_LlZA5qrzpCN8W25KKziatG8srtm8xAPuxnufeHEIb1knEcnVGvaHyt3W9KOylivi_wBL_veBpEHQz0Iau7U_zf5w5S3IRSCCXzJ6NHeCxL7v2/s1600-h/deb's+close+up.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEikS4hk6qfqWEsImUMy4BWd58duHOYbUS_LlZA5qrzpCN8W25KKziatG8srtm8xAPuxnufeHEIb1knEcnVGvaHyt3W9KOylivi_wBL_veBpEHQz0Iau7U_zf5w5S3IRSCCXzJ6NHeCxL7v2/s200/deb's+close+up.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5201802390635610770" border="0" /></a><em style="background-color: rgb(0, 153, 0);"><span style="font-size:78%;"> Hey Pavlos, well, I loved your Playmobil video. Wow.. I´m serious. It had a really profound playfulness about it that actually didn´t hit me until half an hour after I watched it and am writing you this mail. Yes a playfulness that wasn´t so obvious in the first moment because I was also concentrating on the connections to the real fotos... which is of course really really facinating and I focused firstly on that connection. I don´t know whether thats what you want to hear or not. I thought it might be interesting for you to at least hear from maybe an outsider who could oneday be sitting in the audience who has never seen the pictures from Viginia Wolf before and who has never read the book that you read. I HAVEN`T so I represent that part of your audience. Well Its now quite emotional, my feelings about the video. Because of the childishness, even seeing your hand come in and pick up a figure that has fallen over..... I love it!! Its such a contrast to the horrific pictures and what actually happened that it also makes those horrific images even stronger. Am I making sense????? Then I thought of you with your loneliness in the room by yourself.... playing.... reflecting.....deciding.... not being able to decide........giving up... starting over again...... Was that your voice on the film... or a recording of original sounds? I didn´t hear even what language it was... sorry I didn´t have the sound up very loud when I watched it. You know, I think I´m gonna watch it again and see what affect it has on me now... Wait a few minutes... I´ll be right back Deb</span></em></p> <p><strong><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span></strong></p> <div style="text-align: left;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiLYJfI7Zk__oVEdYSGpW12uY8mlYqqzq9Bk-60_AE5d_HrW7_wYt0QUPp8O_YysvLLKfSDlcMy38pFObc2Nnhrj1DQX8dUB0uHtr0jy16Q_thVx0qd7AxJvdz34h3DvW-wqMnyCcwbOA76/s1600-h/eye+see+performance.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiLYJfI7Zk__oVEdYSGpW12uY8mlYqqzq9Bk-60_AE5d_HrW7_wYt0QUPp8O_YysvLLKfSDlcMy38pFObc2Nnhrj1DQX8dUB0uHtr0jy16Q_thVx0qd7AxJvdz34h3DvW-wqMnyCcwbOA76/s200/eye+see+performance.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5201802399225545378" border="0" /></a>[By the way, these days Debora is also passing very difficult times with the preparation of her new piece in Staatstheater Kassel with the school. The piece concerns the gaze and issues of intimacy in relationships. Here is the flyer of the performance ]<br /></div> <p><br /><strong></strong></p> <p><br /><strong></strong></p> <p><br /><strong></strong></p> <p><strong><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span></strong></p> <p style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);font-family:verdana;"><strong><span style="font-size:130%;">Archiving Time</span></strong></p> <ul><li>What was the function of laser-labeling?</li></ul> <p style="background-color: rgb(0, 153, 0);">For people it felt now the marking of the border between then and now. It was a device for archiving and documenting history. It has an intersting touch. Although it was not readable what the content of the label was, there was something very important about them. The laser helped the space be dense and materialize. </p> <ul><li>What should I do with it?</li></ul> <p style="background-color: rgb(0, 153, 0);">I am not quite sure if i felt there was a suggestion on that issue. But I think I might be wrong. In that sense, I take all your readings and interpretations of the "laser-labelling" as an enrichment of my awareness.</p> <ul><li>How do I think of going further?</li></ul> <p style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I think I need to be quicker with the labeling so that the wall gets more dense of red tapes. I need to find a better solution with the laser-pointer since that one last only 40 mins and the batteries cost 3 pounds each time. Besides it looks very very messy. I like messiness but a little bit less to make it clear if not clean.</p> <span><ul><li>Here is what people actually say</li></ul></span><span style="font-weight: bold;"><p style="background-color: rgb(0, 153, 0);" align="left"><em><span style="font-size:85%;"><span style="font-weight: normal;">Archiving time by Dr Hargreaves</span></span><br /></em></p><br /><p style="background-color: rgb(0, 153, 0);" align="center"><iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' webkitallowfullscreen='webkitallowfullscreen' mozallowfullscreen='mozallowfullscreen' width='320' height='266' src='https://www.blogger.com/video.g?token=AD6v5dzYZT1-wBWU_XVTwR88AvItPTF6KRLjgMSjl23oEnt8s7VdMmNBsrbfegtSp02vw8oNPQZLwi6fo5sdXxVUkQ' class='b-hbp-video b-uploaded' frameborder='0'></iframe></p><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);font-family:trebuchet ms;" >The written Feedback per person</span></span></span>Below is what <span style="font-style: italic;">I think</span> people wrote on their papers as part of the feedback process. If you have seen all the videos from the presentation day (=Friday) then you will realize that on the last part, I have asked from people to write down their thoughts and reflections. Do check the video because I did a lightful little montage there. Again this is what I think you wrote. Please send me any corrections or additions as appropriate.<br /><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(0, 153, 0);">Nic:</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(0, 153, 0);">Would like me to explain a bit more about the function of captions as a magic tool for interpretation of an image. She would also like to link back to Virginia Woolf in the end especially on how photos make the war feel "real". She was intrigued by the pigheaded image. She loved the room that looked like a playground. She found the throwing of the pictures down to the floor an irreverent movement with strong impact. She loved Sontag's presence. She was not sure of the function of the tags although she liked it.</span><br /> <br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(0, 153, 0);">Edita:</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(0, 153, 0);">She found the naked body as a vulnerable position. She wanted to hear my position on war (whether I agree or not). She found the video with the playmobils as a strong and violent act of power against the weak and innocent causing injustice to toys.</span><br /> <br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(0, 153, 0);">Chris:</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(0, 153, 0);">He spoke from a more "affect" perspective. He saw the violence, the suffering, people suffering, people not being here and now anymore, he saw the time passing, he saw people looking at suffering. He was lost about what the main interest of the work was. He said that the first image (from Virginia) it fades away.</span><span style="font-style: italic; background-color: rgb(0, 153, 0);"><br /><br /></span><span style="background-color: rgb(0, 153, 0);">Leslie:</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(0, 153, 0);">Had a lost of question: why naked? what is war? what is photography? what is the distinction between them? She found the lecture unorganized and without an underlying concept. She found the space interestingly messy. She seems doubting about the overall.</span><br /> <br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(0, 153, 0);">Eleni:</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(0, 153, 0);">Like Chris she had a phenomenological approach in her feedback. She saw Sontag's mask as an ugly lady hanging from the wall. She saw a lot of technical equipment and a big mess (she wants it cleaned up). She saw my dick and a pig mask as a strong image. She heard me trying to explain that war might be different from what we have been taught. She didnt concentrate on the pictures shown, the lazer was distracting. She wondered why the bottle and glass if not used. She wasnt sure about the end of the performance and my relationship to the audience (are they classmates or lecturing audience or what? The lecturing needs more rehearsal.</span><br /> <br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(0, 153, 0);">Martin:</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(0, 153, 0);">Found the pigheaded image wonderfully intriguing (disturbing and attractice). The contextualization and framing of the image made it even stronger. Sontag served as a totem and refusal of iconicity (I don't know what he means by that... ) He asked whether I need a script or I could go free. He asked whether I need the real photos of the 9/11 running simultaneously with the video (he found it too literal). He found that my description and talk was framing the pictures as if it were a caption to them and it would be great if I could challenge that.</span><br /><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">CONCLUSIONS</span><br /> <ol style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"><li>I am sorry about the bottle with water and glass, I wanted to put it on the table and be able to drink about it.<br /></li><li>I knew somehow that the space was messy. I tried to put it in an order. I think I still want to. I am not sure. Maybe... At least I am aware of it now. I'll think of it again.</li><li>The text... well I have already said I am going to improvise on it. I dont know what comes in the future.</li><li>I don't want to say whether I am in favour of War or not. I think it's irrelevant to the lecture. I want to leave it ambivalent, it makes the experience of looking/hearing more shocking.<br /></li><li>I want to play more with the timing of showing the pictures in relation to the text. I want to make it more interesting for the audience to make their own thoughts and then me telling/imposing them my own.</li><li>I know why I am naked. It's a strong decision. In fact, if you read my article (already published in Pa Spissen and soon in Movement Research Journal), I am nude (because I am dressed up and disguised by my text and role as a lecturer). I am not naked. Other than a reference to Schneeman, I link it to this part of my article where I say that"when nudity is disguised as nakedness" it distorts reality with "the powerful potential to produce severe misreadings of the body". Since my work is about the playing between what is real and not (like captions distort reality, photos make war real, I am not real but pretend I am real etc) I think this element fits in quite strongly. (WOW DID I SAY ALL THAT ???? I need to find a better and easy way to explain this)</li><li>I think I need to interlink between images (not so important though that Woolf comes in again, but maybe it is, since it's so strong)</li><li>My relationship with the audience is clear. I am having a meta-spectator. Meta in sense that he is staring that something that is supposed to have already been viewed by someone else and so he becomes a spectator of the spectator. He is there to spectate me and also the feelings of the previous spectators, altough he knows that he is the very first one that spectates it. I want him to question the previous spectator, try to understand how he might fell. But since he knows that there has been no other spectator, he questions himself. I want him to be lost in his position. I want him to find his way out. On his own. I am not talking to classmates, I am just addressing whoever is infront of me and pitch it to him/her. Because it's about him or her, judging someone else, who in the end is him or her. So I need to make it approachable to draw them in this game of questioning. I guide them through their emancipation Ritsema and Bel would say.<br /></li></ol>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6107862390387282735.post-24928644704160157672008-05-16T23:14:00.000-07:002008-06-26T22:48:03.064-07:00Virtual Work in Progress<div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family:verdana;">Today, I presented my work to some colleagues. Below you may see the whole presentation divided in 4 segments for easier uploading/downloading/viewing.</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;">However, I have made up some pictures just as a small exercise according to the feedback I got after. This is NOT the original work in progress, nor is it the final work in progress... It's a virtual work in progress</span>.<br />So for those of you who saw it already, please a have look once again. For the rest, just bear with me. It's half an hour and sometimes boring in a video, since it is a lecture and not a fast-changing-imagery-video-clip with people dancing.<br /><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;font-family:verdana;" >Part I: Introduction</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;">On Part I, I introduce myself and the topic of the lecture and prepare the space to start working</span><br /></div> <div style="font-family: verdana; text-align: center;"><iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' webkitallowfullscreen='webkitallowfullscreen' mozallowfullscreen='mozallowfullscreen' width='320' height='266' src='https://www.blogger.com/video.g?token=AD6v5dygae-OGAjzmJSHT6M3k-R8Dr4OOF6CEvGN6wjlhrrIJ8Dtg-JjVEn6wpXJ6YqRhj4jImJBEn3Xoqw6R4Sgdw' class='b-hbp-video b-uploaded' frameborder='0'></iframe><br /></div> <div style="text-align: justify;"><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;font-family:verdana;" >Part II: Virginia Woolf & the unfoundable image</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;">On Part II, I show the unfoundable photo of Virginia Woolf. Sorry it's not great quality with the camera. Live I think it's stronger since you are faced with a huge projection. Anyway you will get the idea</span><br /></div> <div style="font-family: verdana; text-align: center;"><iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' webkitallowfullscreen='webkitallowfullscreen' mozallowfullscreen='mozallowfullscreen' width='320' height='266' src='https://www.blogger.com/video.g?token=AD6v5dzBou17VAQLYfTtS6HyB1vbUtMG_1FOvdVQjaqylghc6589Ke2TmKrTBHuwut3mqPJLQHy9ZXPC38jua0etiA' class='b-hbp-video b-uploaded' frameborder='0'></iframe><br /></div> <div style="text-align: justify;"><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;font-family:verdana;" >Part III: What are the functions of War Photography? an encapsulation of Chapter I of the book of Susan Sontag. </span><br /><br /><br /></div> <div style="font-family: verdana; text-align: center;"><iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' webkitallowfullscreen='webkitallowfullscreen' mozallowfullscreen='mozallowfullscreen' width='320' height='266' src='https://www.blogger.com/video.g?token=AD6v5dyHVeiQcaYdo9jP16k4qNos8NhJdvZGEX1VdH0mx4-wjgug0PPPpcaXQnK2q7Xku2CQDyolQh1BBLV_kCN8tg' class='b-hbp-video b-uploaded' frameborder='0'></iframe><br /></div> <div style="text-align: justify;"><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;font-family:verdana;" >Part IV: The Power and Myths of War Photography. based on chapter 2 of Sontag's famous (by now) book</span><br /><br /></div> <div style="font-family: verdana; text-align: center;"><iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' webkitallowfullscreen='webkitallowfullscreen' mozallowfullscreen='mozallowfullscreen' width='320' height='266' src='https://www.blogger.com/video.g?token=AD6v5dyx9rOduGkARbGHreCVMygCNL2tJtyAoJWRn0CSiTj3p4VGmKvDw3_xnyWDNr8ol0HaddexoyWHe7fGO4B0xA' class='b-hbp-video b-uploaded' frameborder='0'></iframe><br /></div> <div style="text-align: justify;"><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;font-family:verdana;" >Part V: My 'disrespectful' 9/11 video and some explanations</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);font-family:verdana;" >The video of 9/11 is the one you can read below with Playmobils. I claimed that some people, when they saw my performance, they found it disrespectful. Below you may read why I think that I was not disrespectful but tried to explain to people my fears for the future when captions are omitted. Still I think that the video does include a part of destruction and pain in it. And that is what makes it so ambivalent and strong.</span><br /><br /></div> <div style="font-family: verdana; text-align: center;"><iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' webkitallowfullscreen='webkitallowfullscreen' mozallowfullscreen='mozallowfullscreen' width='320' height='266' src='https://www.blogger.com/video.g?token=AD6v5dxQWyq0m_CWCULhmfQzqwb_uDLd81rqzoCT9haXq4wm_bo70UXPUPY4WgB_DROK5EVmb_x1dkT0qTjLz85wlA' class='b-hbp-video b-uploaded' frameborder='0'></iframe><br /></div> <div style="text-align: justify;"><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;font-family:verdana;" >A seminal decision</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;">As you can see above, <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">I took a last minute seminal decision which in the end worked out fine.</span></span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);font-family:verdana;" >That was to treat the lecture as a presentation of my own artistic practice and its failures.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);font-family:verdana;" >Thus, I created a fictitious situation around me.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);font-family:verdana;" >I say that I have already done a solo that has been presented as a performance and in this lecture I trace the theory/thoughts behind it.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);font-family:verdana;" >This fiction around me was multifunctional: (a) it fitted the convention of a performance lecture since it is a self-refection, hiding under it a narcissism, and always with the aesthetics of failure in mind, (b)brought the link between the theory and the practice, (c) helped me to feel more strong since it allows me to aknowledge my mistakes in a nice way.</span><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;font-family:verdana;" >Some other last minute decisions</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;">That's a great anecdote. You will love it.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);font-family:verdana;" >Well, in the beginning of the piece the camera is spotting on some "dead" playmobils. Later on though I need to change the camera to focus on the place where I will project my photos. I need thus to mark that area on the wall to find the place easier and don t spend time while the audience is waiting. In the beginning I put a tape. It was ok for me.</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;"><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Then I went on doing other works and preparing the space and realized that the only thing that was left outside and didn't know what to do with it was Sontag's muppet. So, I decided to put it there on that spot. Which meant that Sontag was contantly projected on the beamer. It felt like having the photo of a queen or something like that</span>. <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">People loved it. I loved it too coz it was like I was having her to support me. It was like a totem. Soon you will read the feedback of the people and will understand better how it worked.</span></span><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;font-family:verdana;" >Pressure of Presentation</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);font-family:verdana;" >There is something good about the pressure of presentation. It sort of forced me to work harder. I had a deadline and I had to experiment but without being lost from my track which effectively is to show/present my work to others. So I experimented all this time, and only the last 1 (or even less) days I started thinking on HOW to present. There were last minute decisions (most of which worked out fine) and ofcourse the presentation itself I treated it as a rehearsal, so I didn;t know the result. It was the first time that different elements were coming together in one entity. It was an experiment for me. An open rehearsal. With the pressure of someone staring at me and being forced to make it work.</span><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;font-family:verdana;" >My feedback to myself</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);font-family:verdana;" >I felt like starting to find my way in this chaos. I still don't know where I am going but I have a feeling of a sense of direction.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);font-family:verdana;" >It's a choreographer that explains his research on war photography for a piece he has made earlier and that created a lot of controversy around his name.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);font-family:verdana;" >That's the idea. I still think I need to work on what I call the "performance" (that I did as a choreographer). I should not allow myself to hide behind the "aesthetics of failure. What do I mean by that? Well you know, just because I am a choreographer who knows that his work was not good but claims that he had a great theory behind, it doesnt mean that I should not work harder on making a good choreography. I think if I manage to make a great "choreography", then the audience will follow me better.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);font-family:verdana;" >Another thing that I thought is that the laser doesnt work. I mean it's great but I need to find a better one where the batteries last more time, that i dont need to tape so much.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);font-family:verdana;" >My question is... do I want to make the whole lecture or do I want to work in depth ? Coz I managed to do two chapters and it took me half an hour. Imagine if I wanted to do the whole book (thinking especially chapter 3 and 5 that are full of pictures). I still have some more ideas I need to work on. Should I keep this as a time of experimentation on new things or should I experiment in how to go deeper? To be or not to be?</span><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;font-family:verdana;" >General Feedback</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);font-family:verdana;" >When the feedback session finished I had the impression that it was very positive. In general people commented on my messiness in the text and that I need to make out what there is there. There was a suggestion to play more with the timing of pictures to allow for more ambivalence and engage the audience with confronting them with their real feelings instead of imposing them my own views.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);font-family:verdana;" >People, I think, enjoyed my laser device as a means of tracking time, the tags as a meas of archiving, Susan Sontag's muppet, playful but dramatic effect of playmobil video. The image of Woolf's description was a big hit, the pig face with me lying nude on the floor was strong.</span><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;font-family:verdana;" >Steps further</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;">W<span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">ell, as I said above, this is my impression of what people thought. I am not sure thought that this is what they said or this is what I understood. So my task for today is:</span></span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);font-family:verdana;" >-to take pedantic notes of the minutes of the feedback session</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);font-family:verdana;" >- write a summary from these notes</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);font-family:verdana;" >- send them to all people present and ask them to amend them by adding, erasing, correcting as appropriate.</span><br /><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);font-family:verdana;" >Furtherthan that, I need to take some distance from the piece itself to understand how it works and what are its strenghts/weaknesses. That is great since I have to prepare myself for another presentation.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);font-family:verdana;" >However, I am responsible to write down everyday things that I have reflected upon and thought, or things that I have come up with that have a relationship to the piece and help for another interpretation or understanding of it.</span><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;">and a little hint from my psychology these days</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;font-family:verdana;" >My yesterday's real nightmare</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;">I was giving my perfomance lecture in Thessaloniki, the city were I was born and raised as a child. Some friends were there (among who was Pepi, an old dancer of mine, and Niki, an old old old fellow student in english classes who I recently learned she entered the school were I was teaching last year). I was naked. When I sat down to do the beamer, Niki coughed and told me that my ass was red like a rose. I hadn't cleaned my ass after my poopoo.</span><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;">I felt ashamed. I felt dirty. I felt vulnerable. I had never thought of the repercussions when taking off my clothes.</span><br /><br /><br /></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6107862390387282735.post-72549473686150510132008-05-15T12:55:00.000-07:002008-06-26T22:42:13.805-07:00My midrehearsals crisis and some solutions<span style="font-weight: bold;">A battle of grey and colour</span><br /><br />For most of this post I do automatic writing. I know it won't make sense from the first moement but I need to write it down. In the end you will get what I mean.<br />Take a look first to this army of playmobils. With its colourful enthusiasm and grey fears, ready for battle. The result is unknown...<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiBBkt0mMFR5moXRZxaLWC2Xk49zRW7T8TPeDVCNQ2UJlnnaKD4V_0fiQCMm_tBQ8NOPz0tYVMou1zVNdIulzUIWBm86qcS_wzYKxRnNztNiIzmduLmuwsIWPNyQ8QvSfcsKH-4bh0BzHfr/s1600-h/army+of+playmobils.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiBBkt0mMFR5moXRZxaLWC2Xk49zRW7T8TPeDVCNQ2UJlnnaKD4V_0fiQCMm_tBQ8NOPz0tYVMou1zVNdIulzUIWBm86qcS_wzYKxRnNztNiIzmduLmuwsIWPNyQ8QvSfcsKH-4bh0BzHfr/s320/army+of+playmobils.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5200753310513824386" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I was wondering when that would come. A crisis I mean.</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I have ended up my day with a crisis...</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I don't know what I am doing.</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I don't know IF I am doing anything in fact.</span><br /> <br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I had the thought that what I am doing is going to develop to a really interesting piece.</span><br /> <br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I was mischiefed.</span><br /> <br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">What I am doing is a big shit.</span><br /> <br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I have just read a book and going to present it.</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I have some ideas on how to make it performable but I don't know how to materialize them.</span><br /> <br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I don't even know how performable I want it to be. Sometimes I say it's a lecture. Some others I am thinking of it as pure performance, just reconstruction of images.</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">(I am avoiding the word performative...)</span><br /><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I watched the piece from an outside eye today.</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">There is nothing</span><br /> <br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Only complicated thoughts in my mind.</span><br /> <br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">These thoughts mingled as they are they try to begin their journey to arrive to your mind. But heavy as they are, they never make it. They remain in my head.</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">What you see is my head burning of thoughts.</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">You don't do anything. You let me take fire.</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Just like my yesterday's dream.</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Prophetic you could say.</span><br /> <br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I love gadgets, props, technology. That's all what I have been doing.</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">An accumulation of materials.</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I fooled myself. I thought that materials were material enough to make my thoughts materialize.</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">How idiot of me.</span><br /> <br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Why am I wondering all these? Why this crisis?</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Tomorrow, I am having a presentation in front of my fellow students. I tried thus to see what I've done until now and how I could present it.</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">It's nothing.</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">And don't tell me it's still the beginning. It's not the beginning. I am working on these ideas in my mind long time now. Even in studio, I am working a lot of hours.</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I just don't think I have the talent.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">What are you going to present?</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Yes, exactly, that was my question.</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I thought a bit of lecture, a bit of making the space...</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I can't play with the playmobils. They were the reason of my crisis.</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I realized that I can't film, make the music show the pictures, show the video, tell a story at the same time. Technically, I need looooong DV cables (and even if i had them, I wouldnt be able to wander around in the rest of the room with meters of cables and a camera). Performingly (if it exists), I need talent (and if I had one, believe me I wouldnt end up in fucking Laban).</span><br /> <br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Ok ok let me take everything from the start.</span><br /><iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' webkitallowfullscreen='webkitallowfullscreen' mozallowfullscreen='mozallowfullscreen' width='320' height='266' src='https://www.blogger.com/video.g?token=AD6v5dw5-Q-RpgkAzlBtS1mUVF1Y3g1PBDphHJPxRyDm9Jk5kEo_M6gbZv3tTVXpesYn1i9o-_w57p8diUjiXeNFJQ' class='b-hbp-video b-uploaded' frameborder='0'></iframe><br /><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Today I decided, as I had told you, to work on putting pictures of 9/11. I first recreated them with Playmobils, then put them in random order and made a story that has nothing to do with the real. Then narrated the story while playing with the playmobils. Then held a camera on my hand and narrated a story while playing with the playmobils. Then showed the corresponding real pictures, while the playmobil story takes place.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Complicated to explain. Complicated to understand. Complicated to do.</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">But I said ok, that's my task. To manage to do complicated things on my own, without the help of anyone.</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I think the result is a tragedy.</span><br /><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">If I do decide to keep up this part, then it will either be a prerecorded video or i might show photos of playmobil instead of a video.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">For sure the live playing of playmobils is out of question.</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I am simply not mediocre enough.</span><br /><br /><br />Which means....<br />Well, if we take the playmobils live playing, then the performance lecture becomes a lecture.<br />FUCK......<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjs6aO4_2H-qAvAvpxH-58kDuMGAvL6kfv7-XptkorwtVtHonXWJMQnPfaScVYqplFWnAOini8Y_rU5VTaGkee5yNPRg7rQah_rxMReawelT7gwxldvhXzsZ942DFi9PIGImpsAq7wx6Z3Z/s1600-h/P5151071.JPG"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjs6aO4_2H-qAvAvpxH-58kDuMGAvL6kfv7-XptkorwtVtHonXWJMQnPfaScVYqplFWnAOini8Y_rU5VTaGkee5yNPRg7rQah_rxMReawelT7gwxldvhXzsZ942DFi9PIGImpsAq7wx6Z3Z/s320/P5151071.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5200748263927251538" border="0" height="150" width="200" /></a><span style="font-weight: bold;">How did I make my storyline</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">I took some of the original pictures from the "Here is New York" photographic exhibition about the 9/11.</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">I then tried to put a caption under them. </span><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);">Remember that these pictures remain uncaptioned, unnamed, untitled. And Susan Sontag says "one day captions will be needed."</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">The caption had to be something obvious but not necessarily in connection with the real events.</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">These captions where sort of like little segments of stories.</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">I then put the different captions in categories.</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">I made a map.</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">I called it caption map.</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">Each area is circled like in a bubble and contains a small story. Different little stories were then mixed up together to make one unified story.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;"><br /><br />Corresponding Pictures and Tags</span><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiFY-0aLef9LOTLnQxP4xw4Hr955bEwIS4E3LXBcoFcsUW9zNUU6G3gqdisS2jIGct9ZvwLnufLkEmBDjXOAqVKMC6EzLEmWLRsfDMElIXXqmbWrkO7nd3eafpuoGld287msLhSQlsmBqOm/s1600-h/tags.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiFY-0aLef9LOTLnQxP4xw4Hr955bEwIS4E3LXBcoFcsUW9zNUU6G3gqdisS2jIGct9ZvwLnufLkEmBDjXOAqVKMC6EzLEmWLRsfDMElIXXqmbWrkO7nd3eafpuoGld287msLhSQlsmBqOm/s320/tags.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5200752816592585314" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg_52xshXMXyXdJT93t4GprJ3-oHIm0s72BQO_yBaP2pAM0zoaElEUcuLXSmkCeIqPUepZWwqnlx9eR7dgL9-rHRSiOW0AnwsSNniA4b_aLggSOEJG636dYoy8w1v4VitxpDmi56g_WDMR_/s1600-h/tags2.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg_52xshXMXyXdJT93t4GprJ3-oHIm0s72BQO_yBaP2pAM0zoaElEUcuLXSmkCeIqPUepZWwqnlx9eR7dgL9-rHRSiOW0AnwsSNniA4b_aLggSOEJG636dYoy8w1v4VitxpDmi56g_WDMR_/s320/tags2.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5200752816592585330" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Some further research on performance lecture.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">If there is such thing as common denominator or a convention of Performance Lectures then that is it's relation to the "I". Performance Lectures are highly self-reflective. </span><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">"This self-reflective form of artistic practice questions the doings of one’s own and the conditions of these doings, conditions in this case meaning the predominant ways of producing and receiving" (Pirkko Husemann, 2004).</span><br /> <br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">In the double framing (as a lecture and a performance) the lecture performance oscillates between embodying and accounting, between narrating and enacting, representing and presenting, playing and lecturing, executing and explaining.</span><br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">This enables a whole range of modes of perfection and imperfection on stage – every mistake, every imperfection is automatically an reflection on the situation of the performance itself. Xavier Le Roy even puts small imperfections – like skipping a slide – into his lecture to make it more “real”.</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Why does that happen?</span><br /><div style="text-align: right;"><span style="font-style: italic;"><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);"> Lecture performances are artistic bastards, somewhere between poor or conceptual theatre and minimal art. They show the impossibility of imitation, of representation and at the same time its possibility. It is this why the space lecture performances offer, is so often used for testing abstruse theories in a game of fact and fiction (like Marten Spangbergs “Extra Clear Power” or Sibylle Peters “The Art of Demonstration”). And it is this why the space lecture performances offer, is so often used for talking about oneself: The “I” is a disguise for the “I”; it offers the possibility of being totally honest and hiding oneself behind oneself at the same time. This is crucial hence it allows a distance to oneself whilst being closing in to that very same self at the same time.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);">(I in disguise, Tanzquartier Wien, 2005)</span><br /><br /></span><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 204, 0);font-family:lucida grande;font-size:130%;" ><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 102);">I think my blog is my Performance Lecture. The rest is something else...</span></span><span style="font-style: italic;"><br /></span></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6107862390387282735.post-87669569964045166842008-05-14T15:24:00.000-07:002008-06-26T22:27:59.205-07:00Some Developments of my Research<span style="font-weight: bold;">Dreaming (an early reply before I forget)<br /></span><span>Yesterday, I dreamt of being invited at a friend's place. The house of Konstantinos Gerardos, a choreographer and amazing person from Greece for whom I was working like year. I could stay at his place for some nights. I was given a room.<br />I wake up in my sleep and start wandering in the house. The house seems very big and sunny. A large corridor and on its side there are windows looking at a large balcony.<br />Outside the window I can see for a flame coming from a tube. As if the gas pipe has taken fire. Black smoke, red fire. I can't hear anything, the windows are sealed. The house will be burnt if it goes on. I run in the house to find an extinguisher. The house is empty. Noone is there. I am all alone. I thought of saving his kids but they are not here. I find the extinguisher. I go to the fire. It's still there. Can I put out the fire? what happens if I go too close to it and it enters the extinguisher. Will it blast?<br />I woke up. I don't know what I did. Probably nothing<br /></span><span><br /><br /></span><span style="font-weight: bold;">To all you that read my emails</span><br /><br />Today I begin with something very important. I could never believe how many are actually reading my emails. It's amazing. <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">Some people tell me how much they enjoy them and others give me feedback ideas. Guyz, I reallllly appreciate all your support. I am so happy when I read your emails. I dont have a problem if you are bitching me either. It means that you are taking care of me. Thanks :)</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">An amazing email</span><br />Anita, a fellow student in the MA choreography, sent me this email yesterday. I am sure she doesn't mind me publishing it although it gets personal by the end.<br /><br /><div id="idOWAReplyText4606" dir="ltr"> <div dir="ltr" style="font-family:courier new;"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);font-size:85%;" >Doing nothing is an importanmt part of the process. </span></div> <div dir="ltr" face="courier new"> </div> <blockquote style="border-left: 1px solid rgb(204, 204, 204); margin: 0pt 0pt 0pt 0.8ex; padding-left: 1ex; background-color: rgb(0, 153, 0);" class="gmail_quote"> <div dir="ltr" style="font-family:arial,sans-serif;"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);font-size:85%;" >Being away from this biulding is even more important. </span></div> <div face="courier new" dir="ltr"> </div> <div style="font-family: courier new;" dir="ltr"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);font-size:85%;" >How much of what you are doing right now is defined by where you are? </span></div> <div style="font-family: courier new;" dir="ltr"> </div> <div dir="ltr" style="font-family:arial,sans-serif;"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);font-size:85%;" >Why is Seminar Room C "nice?". Do you want to be in a nice space? Why?</span></div> <div face="arial,sans-serif" dir="ltr"> </div> <div style="font-family: arial,sans-serif;font-family:courier new;" dir="ltr"><span style="font-size:85%;">Are you dreaming about the piece yet?</span></div> <div face="arial,sans-serif" dir="ltr"> </div> <div style="font-family: arial,sans-serif;" dir="ltr"><span style="font-size:85%;">I had a dream the other night:</span></div> <div style="font-family: arial,sans-serif;" dir="ltr"> </div> </blockquote> <div dir="ltr"> <blockquote><span style="background-color: rgb(0, 153, 0);font-family:Arial;font-size:85%;" ><span style="font-family:courier new;">I had parked my car and lost it. Then I found it again and realised something was missing. What was missing was a baby who WAS in the back seat, but all was left was an image on my phone of the baby in a paper bag left under a tree.</span></span><br /> <br /> <span style="background-color: rgb(0, 153, 0);font-family:Arial;font-size:85%;" ><span style="font-family:courier new;"><span style="font-family:arial,sans-serif;">Anita</span></span></span><br /></blockquote> <span style=";font-family:Arial;font-size:85%;" ><span style="font-family:courier new;"><span style="font-weight: bold;font-family:times new roman;" ><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;"><span style="font-size:100%;">I found it very inspiring and encouraging. Thanks Anita<br /><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Questioning Space and Me (by Anita)</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 204, 0);">Well, about your question for the space.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 204, 0);">Here is what I think.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 204, 0);">- First of all it's a Lecture Room. In that sense, I respect the identity of the space and do not produce something irrelevant. I was looking for a space where Lecturing is a part of its smell.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 204, 0);">- I am not using the space as Laban would do, like finding the lines, the restrictions, the material etc.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 204, 0);">- I am not intervening in the space, meaning changing it's looks.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 204, 0);">- The two beamers are projecting on a space designated by the architecture of the space</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 204, 0);">That's my evaluation.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 204, 0);">I think it's not enough now that I am thinking of it.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 204, 0);">Do I want it to be enough ?</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 204, 0);">Well, if I want to make a piece that is easy to tour and transfer it elsewhere, I should keep my relation to the space to the minimum. So that this piece could be performed in another space too.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 204, 0);">On the other hand, it's always great when we feel that this piece is connected to the earth, it has an insurmountable relation to its surroundings. And I could always rework the space if I am invited to perform the piece elsewhere.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 204, 0);">In any case... the piece is for now, here and now. Let's make something and when the "there and future" come, I can think of it again.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 204, 0);">So, I think that all my work now should be focused on questioning how much I am influenced by my surrounding space and its architecture. My new task with the playmobils will certainly work on that.</span><br /><br /></span></span></span></span></div></div><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Working towards a presentation for feedback</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">I hope that until tomorrow I will have a substantial amount of work to show to my fellow mates and teachers. The more I show of my ideas the more feedback I will get to correct.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">The thing is that usually I know where a piece is standing. With this one I have no clue. How will it be perceived? What kind of suggestions do they have? What did I forget to think ? Which reality have I forgotten to take in mind? Will I ever be able to take the whole of reality in mind before presenting it to other people?</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Some questions</span><br /><br />Below you can see a footage of the rehearsal. <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">It takes me 26 minutes to set up the space. Initially I had thought to have the audience in the space and watch me setting up the space. But it's really boring. REALLY boring. And it doesn't fit the topic of the lecture. So I think I'll take it out and ask the audience to enter once I am ready. The two reasons why I wanted audience to enter while I am setting up the space were the following: (a) based on my methodological concept that I am working on my own, I should show to the audience my loneliness even in the process of setting up the performance for them, and (b) Miguel Gutierrez is a great influence to me on that, because he puts the music loud and enters the space bringing one by one and very fast his objects inside the space. I don't know what I should do... Probably I'll take the setting up out.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">Another question that I have is: should I first show the reenactment of the picture of Virginia Woolf? or should I first introduce myself as a lecturer, welcome the audience explain them what happens etc? Then take off my clothes and represent Woolf's photo? What do you think ?</span><br /><br /><iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' webkitallowfullscreen='webkitallowfullscreen' mozallowfullscreen='mozallowfullscreen' width='320' height='266' src='https://www.blogger.com/video.g?token=AD6v5dxEBbLYqM004bazcPa3rpkNEP0V5Vpq9uPCsc2Tt6wWhHKI0IFpZAJi1-e4Nq-RB9KEYlRnXYqXXIk9NZj1Cw' class='b-hbp-video b-uploaded' frameborder='0'></iframe><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Why Naked?</span><br /><br />I was wondering these days why nobody has asked me why do I give the lecture naked. <span style="background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);">Well apart from my research on nudity and nakedness. </span>Here is what I have for you:<br /><br /><br /><div style="text-align: right; background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);"><span style="font-style: italic; font-weight: bold;">Naked Action Lecture (1968)</span><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">[In] Naked Action Lecture... I lecture on my visual works and their relations to antecedents in painting while both dressed and undressed, dressing and undressing.</span><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">Naked Action Lecture asked the questions: can an artist be an art historian? Can an art historian be a naked woman? Does a woman have intellectual authority? Can she have public authority while naked and speaking? Was the content of the lecture less appreciable when she was naked? What multiple levels of uneasiness, pleasure, curiosity, erotic fascination, acceptance or rejection were activated in an audience?</span><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">... In the course of the thirty-minute lecture I undressed and dressed and walked back and forth with a pointer, discussing aspects of perception and spatial organization. </span><br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">Carolee Schneemann, 'Naked Action Lecture' (1968), More than Meat Joy: Complete Performance Works and Selected Writings, ed. Bruce McPherson (New Platz, New York: Documentext, 1979) 180.</span><br /></div> <span style="font-style: italic;"><br /><br /><br /></span> <div style="text-align: left;"><span style="font-weight: bold;">Performance Lecture research</span><br /></div><br /><div style="text-align: left; background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);">Unlike common beliefs, performance lecture is not a new trend nor an invention of Xavier Le <a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://www.lamekanica.com/complicitats/UserFiles/Image/Programs2/xavier_le_roy.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer; width: 320px;" src="http://www.lamekanica.com/complicitats/UserFiles/Image/Programs2/xavier_le_roy.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>Roy whom most people aknowledge as the first performance lecturer.<br /></div> <span style="background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);">Yvonne Rainer already in 1968 wrote :</span><br /><br /><div style="text-align: right;"><span style="font-style: italic; background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);font-size:85%;" >"Between 1968 and 1970 my work moved along in overlapping stages. I devised a format variously called Performance Demonstration, or Performance Fractions, or Composite, which would include fragments from old work plus slides, sound and whatever new work I was engaged in. On Sept. 16, 1968, I presented my first Performance Demonstration at the Performing Arts Library at Lincoln Center."Yvonne Rainer, "Performance Demonstration"</span><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);font-size:85%;" ><br /></span><span style="font-style: italic; background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);"><span style="font-size:85%;"> in Dies. "Work 1961-73"New York 1974 S. 109-115</span><br /></span><div style="text-align: left;"><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);">Later on, in 1986, Marianne Goldberg gave a performance lecture on "Ballerinas and Ball passing" at the Women in the Arts Symposium.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);">But it is only Since Product of Circumstances (1999) by Xavier Le Roy that there has been a boom of lecture-performances in the dance world. Just to name a few I recall works like Self-Interview (2000) by Xavier Le Roy, Distanzlos (1999) and Stationen (2003) by Thomas Lehmen, Tino Sehgal’s Untitled 1997-2003 (2003), Mårten Spångberg’s Extra Clear Power (2003), The Last Performance (A Lecture) (2004), Jochen Roller’s Perform Performing 1-3 (2002-2004), Edit Kaldor’s Or Press Escape (2002), Directory (2003) by deufert+plischke and finally, Juan Dominguez’ All good spies are my age (2002) and How heavy are my</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);">thoughts (2003) by Ivana Muller.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);">Pirkko Husemann said in his own performance lecture:</span><br /><div style="text-align: right;"><span style="font-style: italic;"><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);font-size:85%;" >"This almost inflationary accumulation of lecture-performances coincides with a growing tendency to selfreflexivity in performing arts. Inspired and activated by a scepticism of themarket’s dominating commercially- oriented production and presentation forms, more and more performing artists have set themselves in search of other ways of working, striving the way to (re)discover new or forgotten concepts of staging and perception, and aiming to use these forms as part of a critical practice. This self-reflective form of artistic practice questions the doings of one’s own and the conditions of these doings, conditions in this case meaning the predominant ways of producing and receiving. This critical practice is formulated as a resistance against taken-for-granted practices, expectations, opinions and institutions, in order to bring to light the potential of one’s own field of work and influence, a potential yet unknown or forgotten. The goal of this critical plan of action is to change, from the inside out, dance and theatre’s dispositif of representation by using this field’s already inherent possibilities, in other words, to change the function through use." Pirkko Husemann, "The Absent Presence of Artistic Working Processes, The Lecture as Format of Performance.“ Lecture Performance, Frankfurt, 5. 8. 2004</span><br /><br /></span><div style="text-align: left;"><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">As lecturer in different schools giving a lecture in the form of a performance is like a comment on our society of knowledge. The performance lecture features a kind of not knowing, which belongs to an order that has nothing to do with the order of knowledge. A not knowing, which does not represent a lack, which is not obscure, ignorant, or non-scientific but which produces an event beyond knowledge (ideas from Derrida).</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">How do I find the energy?</span><br /><br />I felt like having done quite a lot of work or at least important work today. When I came back home I was full of energy even after 10 hours of rehearsals (plus extra time writing my blog, replying to emails etc) . I<span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"> think there are many factors why I worked harder today than other days. And it's good if I can identify them so that I know how to be effective with my work.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">(a) Weather</span><br />First of all it's the weather. Yes, it was a bit worse today so there was no desire for me to get out and lay in the grass. Although that doesn't hold true for the whole day. At a point of time some students and teachers (including Martin) they were suntanning in the Laban gardens.<br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">(b) No Park</span><br />Another reason might be because I didnt go for a long walk in the park. I didnt get tired by staying in the park.<br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">(c) Supernap</span><br />I took a supernap. Do you know what a supernap is ? Well that's my word. It's when you just lie on the bed for 10 mins. Close your eyes. You are in a situation semi asleep non asleep. You are aware of the things around you but youjust sleep for a small time. AMAZING... It's the most relaxing thing ever. After this I am ready to go wild :) whereas if i had taken a a real sleep i wouldnt be able to wake up.<br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">(d) Not working from scratch</span><br />Working from scratch is the most painful and tiring thing ever. So today I had to work with things I had already done and just rework on them according to my notes. It's easier before you know exactly what you need to do. You direct your thought easier. That's maybe what I suggest to my students when I say : "Take a fast decision and then go for it..."<br /><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">For tomorrow:</span><br /><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">1) These are things I need to do for tomorrow. I need to finalize script of chapter 4 and learn script of chapters 3 and 4 by heart or almost by heart.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">2) reconstruct the photos with the playmobil, put them in space, connect them with a silly story line (just like i did with Ilona), engage camera and take good attention to the angle of the camera's perspective, try to find a way to project on the other beamer the real photos. Do you show the real photos during the story or do you show them after the story ???? THINK OF SPACE ....</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">3) correspond each photo with a sound</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">4) prepare the tags for every picture. Put the pictures in the correct order, take out the pictures that you don't need.</span><br /><br /><br /><br /></div></div></div></div> <span style="font-weight: bold;">Chris Crocker</span><br /><br />sometimes I feel that this work of this blog is like being Chris Crocker. Like I need to maintain it interesting, I need to spit out things from my heart. Chris is a great idol in internet for me. I love watching for his videos and wait for some of his new additions. I find him great... Don't you know him? Enjoy him.<br /><object height="355" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/_5MVp5WEY3U&hl=en"><param name="wmode" value="transparent"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/_5MVp5WEY3U&hl=en" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" height="355" width="425"></embed><br /></object>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6107862390387282735.post-68798131419168918582008-05-14T06:48:00.000-07:002008-06-26T22:18:09.215-07:00Virginia Woolf & her images<span><span><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">Below you may watch my efforts for defining technology and space. I took these pictures because I wanted to see how it looked from outside when I was inside. Slowly slowly and by many trial and error photos, I have some ideas on how I would like the space to look like.</span> Take a tour...</span></span><br /><br /><a style="background-color: rgb(255, 102, 0);" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhLv6PGBIFjRdBlxcTqOVfPc2_YLJS-ELKOOAMJDo6PHEBn7CR71U5Eo5yfOSPdZblcvFi4ZcQ1bJvwkh8HvY-nuQwGYPpW5fesZVhlcKsagLzTqhb-qG7lj9zMEjD57O7mVH1PSor6axE0/s1600-h/P5140988.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhLv6PGBIFjRdBlxcTqOVfPc2_YLJS-ELKOOAMJDo6PHEBn7CR71U5Eo5yfOSPdZblcvFi4ZcQ1bJvwkh8HvY-nuQwGYPpW5fesZVhlcKsagLzTqhb-qG7lj9zMEjD57O7mVH1PSor6axE0/s400/P5140988.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5200240628857635394" border="0" /></a><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 102, 0);"><span><br /></span></span> <div style="text-align: center; background-color: rgb(255, 102, 0);"><span><span>Picture 1: That' s one of my first try outs. On the right projector I have an Isadora edited "almost" live version of a video shooting me. On the other o<span style="background-color: rgb(255, 204, 0);">ne is live shooting of Playmobils. Isadora came because when Eleni saw it, she told me that it is important for the audience to see the frame of the photo that Virginia Woolf suggests. And then I thought that I could just have a camera projecting the image with a beamer. But I also wanted to have a delay. Isadora provides for a delay. The delay is because there is something going on with memory and time. </span><br /><br /><br /></span></span><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgLQ2B2laCypBraH2D4vx7peWwQ68xaf8_4UHYEwZgAxeMokq-cWiH_WUzV_T-EgpIZOgRt-o59aeHs-ECIfR2V_y751LfuCXf8qd9pKA4hiYfBmqZYDKanbSmM0y9CLOvKyg_5as3uXA7c/s1600-h/P5140984.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgLQ2B2laCypBraH2D4vx7peWwQ68xaf8_4UHYEwZgAxeMokq-cWiH_WUzV_T-EgpIZOgRt-o59aeHs-ECIfR2V_y751LfuCXf8qd9pKA4hiYfBmqZYDKanbSmM0y9CLOvKyg_5as3uXA7c/s400/P5140984.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5200233473442120098" border="0" /></a><br /></div> <div style="text-align: center; background-color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">Picture 2: That's the view from down there, I wanted to make a close up on the screen and at the same time trying another posture. It might look beautiful but from the audience perspective it's bonkers. How can a dead person leave his foot up there???<br /></div> <br /> <br /> <div style="text-align: center; background-color: rgb(255, 102, 0);"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhTDfuJSePceHawedLXKhEmK3volkIz8p7ebgATqVLvaxwWaDgA_NLDBQkl0laCFSiD_KvZpcpNP17SCKgNPupdwEshOG9jumaD-iVF55ALnLZlP43dy7COpjXF6W7CXXHYoEgAhD6e2Okp/s1600-h/P5140985.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhTDfuJSePceHawedLXKhEmK3volkIz8p7ebgATqVLvaxwWaDgA_NLDBQkl0laCFSiD_KvZpcpNP17SCKgNPupdwEshOG9jumaD-iVF55ALnLZlP43dy7COpjXF6W7CXXHYoEgAhD6e2Okp/s400/P5140985.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5200233482032054706" border="0" /></a><br />Picture 3: I liked this one but I thought I should take off my clothes, because the posture is not the best for showing the element of a "mutilated" body of unknown sex. Besides the playmobil don't have a nice posture that would recommend dead children on the ground. If you take a good look on them they are on the wall.<br /><br /><br /></div> <br /> <a style="background-color: rgb(255, 102, 0);" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhAq56aVLzePXPe6nH5oJr9257jpwr0XS4dlV_QGRQxL15StzL0oPVJPGfh8fnQe6BzH_dMKcdtchDIxfG5EB6LNjCnU8pr2SYnuSsnqVpHnC8BLhWbKl_5RD02enDZekn9WQ7ySZasMtFI/s1600-h/P5141010.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhAq56aVLzePXPe6nH5oJr9257jpwr0XS4dlV_QGRQxL15StzL0oPVJPGfh8fnQe6BzH_dMKcdtchDIxfG5EB6LNjCnU8pr2SYnuSsnqVpHnC8BLhWbKl_5RD02enDZekn9WQ7ySZasMtFI/s400/P5141010.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5200233503506891234" border="0" /></a><br /> <div style="text-align: center; background-color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">Picture 4: Playmobils changed place. Still I dislike the fact that the two images are so much overlaping. It's too obvious.<br /><br /><br /></div> <br /> <a style="background-color: rgb(255, 102, 0);" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEicTSy8je_GLkGKvg0yv0uhpVHfGjb8JwD2LmuHDL_HKFSG1AKqm5iDvu4hdoLjh16sq0oI9tGJwZ5xU3rrMbOJrygt7XQQwNfn3gzfhOMyBbd9GSiqQQ2tyUrkd9GhHReSNjBrJTezBMCe/s1600-h/P5141001.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEicTSy8je_GLkGKvg0yv0uhpVHfGjb8JwD2LmuHDL_HKFSG1AKqm5iDvu4hdoLjh16sq0oI9tGJwZ5xU3rrMbOJrygt7XQQwNfn3gzfhOMyBbd9GSiqQQ2tyUrkd9GhHReSNjBrJTezBMCe/s400/P5141001.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5200233499211923922" border="0" /></a><br /> <div style="text-align: center;"><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">Picture 5: That's the view from the other side. The audience.</span><br /><br /><br /><br /><a style="background-color: rgb(255, 102, 0);" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgfuEoOv8ULbNRqLRrvwWVynPLrZisWB03wAV7flAQn8AacIytgfbR1XjRPRRyXrmiULnC71y2lCb17J3kCEA6SFmsznVC9IGh0jRZ0x-qpfPojp8_W8MG_JHHe7T7vOQqGfvJeqR63Vz6D/s1600-h/P5141019.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgfuEoOv8ULbNRqLRrvwWVynPLrZisWB03wAV7flAQn8AacIytgfbR1XjRPRRyXrmiULnC71y2lCb17J3kCEA6SFmsznVC9IGh0jRZ0x-qpfPojp8_W8MG_JHHe7T7vOQqGfvJeqR63Vz6D/s400/P5141019.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5200237033970008562" border="0" /></a><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">Picture 6: I managed to make the two beamers not to overlap and to be a continuous one image. I had to stabilize them better and put a small piece of paper in front of the light to feather the edges. Now I am happier. I also had to change place in the space coz I didnt want to be hidden behind the table. I obviously need to take off my cheesy socks and do it in the evening when no sunlight comes in.</span><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><a style="background-color: rgb(255, 102, 0);" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg5plC_-K9c21GqYNsiW7aQiLeGP5PPpDwJQbMTRPzxtCuE_nFOPNOWxKA3cirXkcPUtLXHzNyOmlu7Fsj5HoJBwX8ChYbemehCk_wdP-b6q-PhXZLu0UYUyLagK_o_M0SquPaPr4V0ZJDo/s1600-h/P5141023.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg5plC_-K9c21GqYNsiW7aQiLeGP5PPpDwJQbMTRPzxtCuE_nFOPNOWxKA3cirXkcPUtLXHzNyOmlu7Fsj5HoJBwX8ChYbemehCk_wdP-b6q-PhXZLu0UYUyLagK_o_M0SquPaPr4V0ZJDo/s400/P5141023.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5200237042559943170" border="0" /> </a><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">Picture 7: That's something else. These are some tags that slowly slowly during the course of the lecture I will be sticking on the wall. Every picture will have a tag. Where do I put them? Well I have a laser clock that is scanning the wall during one hour. Every time I mention a picture I show the picture and then I put a tag on the wall.</span><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><a style="background-color: rgb(255, 102, 0);" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjM7PF4_ySdNpYCtj7XdUQOdwaGor9zHkvVJ4T6OgiSVXy9fg_QFbFt5RO7pSgM_wMMxM7ryjYNCYfLQBTE3EsflEF26MBeYVncpbJpKcIixNntMs3ppocTSXtAkUn8vuLN8IuYkl-DU4L7/s1600-h/P5141030.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjM7PF4_ySdNpYCtj7XdUQOdwaGor9zHkvVJ4T6OgiSVXy9fg_QFbFt5RO7pSgM_wMMxM7ryjYNCYfLQBTE3EsflEF26MBeYVncpbJpKcIixNntMs3ppocTSXtAkUn8vuLN8IuYkl-DU4L7/s400/P5141030.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5200237051149877778" border="0" /></a><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">Picture 8: Why tags??? Well first of all these tags are like price-tags. In the exhibition Here is New York, featuring photos from amateur and professional photographers with the topic of 9/11, the picture where one next to the other and they had prices. One could buy them at the end of his tour but he wouldn't know if he had bought a Perress or a Nautwchey.</span><br /><br /><br /><br /><a style="background-color: rgb(255, 102, 0);" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhTygmtel4gVUkDdjlGgIkwVNzl__BULH111BiM5sPd5Ai_SbrD8bAd201BYNyo-_0o1r0RbbFNRtzQ3X-IiYvyPhcOolplq4dr6LdZ-mROY7UdbnQ4w-JOGssg6aaZP9BJm60PYMj3kXIo/s1600-h/P5141034.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhTygmtel4gVUkDdjlGgIkwVNzl__BULH111BiM5sPd5Ai_SbrD8bAd201BYNyo-_0o1r0RbbFNRtzQ3X-IiYvyPhcOolplq4dr6LdZ-mROY7UdbnQ4w-JOGssg6aaZP9BJm60PYMj3kXIo/s400/P5141034.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5200237055444845090" border="0" /></a><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">Picture 9: Here you can see the laser invention that is pointing to the wall. <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 204, 0);">The most important reason for me though is the fact that photographic artillery is the same as war artillery. Lasers are used to spot the enemy and shoot him. Tags are being put there where the laser has shot. Tags are a memorial of those who died. Have you ever seen these big memorial statues with names on them ? <u style="background-color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">But even more important, I consider the laser pointer as a way to mark the time of the performance. As a way to make a document out of the performance itself... Does it make sense? <span style="background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);"><br /></span></u></span></span> <div style="text-align: left;"> <div style="text-align: left;"><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 102, 0);"><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 204, 0);"><u style="background-color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);">Auslander (2006) in the PAJ on an article called the "Performativity of Performance Documentation"says the following:</span></u></span></span><br /> </div> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 102, 0);"><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 204, 0);"></span></span></div> <div style="text-align: right;"> <div style="text-align: right;"> <blockquote style="border-left: 1px solid rgb(204, 204, 204); margin: 0pt 0pt 0pt 0.8ex; padding-left: 1ex;" class="gmail_quote"> <div style="text-align: left;"><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);">"I am suggesting that performance documents are not analogous to</span><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);"> constatives, but to performatives: in other words, the act of documenting an event as</span><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);"> a performance is what constitutes it as such. Documentation does not simply generate</span><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);"> image/statements that describe an autonomous performance and state that it</span><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);"> occurred: it produces an event as a performance and, as Frazer Ward suggests, the</span><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);"> performer as 'artist.”'"(84)</span><br /> </div> </blockquote> <div style="margin-left: 40px;"><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);"></span></div> <div style="text-align: center;"> <div style="text-align: left;"> <div style="text-align: left;"><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);">And Auslander goes on further concluding:</span><br /></div> <span style="background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);"></span></div> <div style="text-align: right;"> <blockquote style="border-left: 1px solid rgb(204, 204, 204); margin: 0pt 0pt 0pt 0.8ex; padding-left: 1ex;" class="gmail_quote"> <div style="text-align: right;"> <div style="text-align: left;"><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);">"crucial relationship</span><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);"> is not the one between the document and the performance but the one between</span><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);"> the document and its audience. Perhaps the authenticity of the performance document</span><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);"> resides in its relationship to its beholder rather than to an ostensibly originary </span><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);">event: perhaps its authority is phenomenological rather than ontological"</span><br /> </div> </div> </blockquote> <span style="background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);"></span></div> <div style="text-align: left;"> <div style="text-align: left;"><u><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);"><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 204, 0);">In that sense Auslander's explanation of the authenticity of the document links very well to Susan Sontag's ideas about "what reality is". So, by creating a document out of this performance, the document becomes a performative and not a constative element. A performative element of Sontag's book on the reality of photos, of documents.</span></span></u><br /></div> <span style="background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);"></span></div> <span style="background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);"></span></div> </div> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 102, 0);"><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 204, 0);"></span></span></div> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 102, 0);"><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 204, 0);"><u style="background-color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><br /></u></span></span><br /><div style="text-align: left;"><span style="font-weight: bold;">What this installation?</span><br /><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);">If you go to Tate Modern in London, on Floor 3, Room 8 you can see an installation by Paul McCarthy that I found really inspiring. Unfortunately I couldn't take any pictures of it nor do they have on their websites. But here is the description that the museum gives.</span><br /><p style="background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);"><i>Projection Room (1971 – 2006)</i> is an installation combining seventeen of McCarthy’s early videos produced between 1972 and 1978, as well as 170 slides documenting performances from the same period. The selection is highly personal: most of the videos were made in the intimate settings of McCarthy’s homes and studios in Pasadena and Los Angeles. The participants are generally close friends, including Karen McCarthy, his wife of 40 years, and the artist Allan Kaprow.</p> <p style="background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);">McCarthy’s practice has often involved scrambling the chronology of his own work. He repeats and recycles themes, and transfers certain works into other media to emphasise his view that art and history are in a perpetual state of transformation. <span style="font-style: italic;">Although most of these videos would originally have been presented autonomously on monitors, here McCarthy collages and overlaps them in an immersive installation that maximises their physical and spatial effect on the viewer.</span></p> <p style="background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);"><i>Paul McCarthy was born in 1945 in Salt Lake City, Utah. He lives and works in Los Angeles</i></p> <p style="background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);">Curated by Stuart Comer</p>More than that, I think the whole intallation is a way of making a live document<br /></div></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6107862390387282735.post-15188783067452519952008-05-13T23:39:00.000-07:002008-06-27T02:14:38.381-07:00Working in fragments<span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">Well as we have decided together, I started working on small fragment of the work and then I will assemble them together. I need to keep each fragment simple and well executed and then put them together.</span> So here is what I did yesterday.<br /><br /></span> <div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' webkitallowfullscreen='webkitallowfullscreen' mozallowfullscreen='mozallowfullscreen' width='320' height='266' src='https://www.blogger.com/video.g?token=AD6v5dyBjp-2uxslo8m9Xc36NEE8iHuIB34N-g8MlbBvBYsnLvHuY8IxPUmEIcEjURlPO4O4oY9yUDNBBVV2q2Av8Q' class='b-hbp-video b-uploaded' frameborder='0'></iframe></span><br /></div> <span style="font-size:100%;"><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Virginia Woolf's image</span><br />Sam Boardman-Jacobs, the theater director and a researcher on Virginia Woolf, who happens to be a fellow student this year, told me the following: </span> <span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="background-color: rgb(0, 153, 0);">" I think the idea of it not existing is rather poetic and lovely to recreate with only a text description of what it looked it".</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I had thought of the same, but hearing it from somebody else made me gain confidence and solidified my idea.</span> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Above you can see an image of the very first effort/idea i had on how to to do the recreation of the image.</span> Since then I have worked a lot. Sorry I dont have any snippet of the last rehearsal. Here is the description woolf gives:<br /></span> <div style="text-align: right;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="font-style: italic; background-color: rgb(51, 102, 255);font-size:85%;" >"This morning’s collection contains the photograph of what might be a man’s body, or a woman’s; it is so mutilated that it might, on the other hand, be the body of a pig. But those certainly are dead children, and that undoubtedly is the section of a house. A bomb has torn open the side; there is still a bird-cage hanging in what was presumably the sitting-room..." (Woolf, 1938)</span><br /></span> </div> <span style="font-size:100%;">Well, I dont know what do you think?<br />As I have already said, I<span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"> don't like the tripod, this very tall thing, in the middle of the room, because it obstracts the vision and takes focus aways from what I want to give importance to. That's out. Then although you can't see it very well on the background you see two playmobils. These are the kids (hellooow... i know u r not dump, just saying it). I am thinking that I better be in the frame of the picture. I dont know how.</span> <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">Hmm I'll try again today and keep you informed. But do you have any ideas????????? PLEASEEEEEE</span><br /><b><br />Space</b><br />Yesterday I started setting up the space and I found quite of a nice format there (picture and video coming very soon today). How did I end up there?<br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Well, as you remember last time I realized that I could not give a lecture sitting on the floor. It was not really appropriate. So I had decided that I need a lectorer or you know this tall wooden piece of furniture that they use for lectures ? Anyway, since the production office was closed in the morning, I decided I should try out with a different option. I was not very happy about it but what could I do, I needed to start a rehearsal. So I took a table and a chair and put them in the one side and front of the room, knowing that on the back wall on the other side of the room there would be a projection of the photos.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Then I needed to find a place where to put my music creator. I put it on the floor next to my chair in the thought that I wouldnt like people to see it. But... in the end it was more visible (coz it was on the floor everyone could see it from the top) and besides I would constantly need to lean from my chair to the floor to play music. So I had the brilliantly, fucking idea to put it on the table... MAGIC... :) :) or at least I felt like magic. Because I realized that the table was big enough to accomodate the music, my papers, my arms, and still have some space.</span><br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">The question then was where to put the camera that would be connected to the beamer and project the photos in a larger size. Initially I had thought next to the music, coz this is where I have the pictures. Especially in my last relevant email I had written that the camera has to be filming from top to botom not like panning from far away. So I tried. But the cables where really far away from the projector and so I wasnt able to connect camera and beamer were I to decide to put the camera far away. Coz the beamer is sitting on the front right of the room and the camera would be on the front left. So I said, ok ok. Just for today let's put the camera on the fron right (next to the beamer) and let's just zoom in filming horizontally the pictures. IT worked. </span>I am telling you, it was a realllly realllly reallllly great idea. So I decided to keep that.<br /><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">So there you are. Everything was against my initial thoughts. What I wanted not to do (as I had thought would be crap) it worked out perfectly fine and even better than what i had thought as the perfect solution. I still need to put my laser-timer-lego construction and need to put my playmobils somewhere in the space.</span><br />I am also thinking of using two beamers. Well we will see... Wait until today evening. I'll have a photo for your to realize better what I am saying so that you give me your point of view.<br /><br /><b>How to write a script for a lecture in 7 steps</b><br />After setting up the space, I started working with the text. I managed to do Chapters 1 and 2 very well or at least when I speak them out I feel it's a very organic lecture (with good argumentation and logical continuation). Now I have been talking I think quite a long while about the text and how I am making a script. This is my methodology for making a script for a lecture<br /><b style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">Step 1:</b><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);"> Read the book. Enjoy it. Be fascinated. Nothing more though</span><br /><b style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">Step 2:</b><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);"> Read it once again and underline what you think is nicely written</span><br /><b style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">Step 3:</b><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);"> Take notes of each chapter. Do not follow your own logic, do not try to understand what it is being said. Just take notes. LOTS of notes. Don't worry about how many you have (2-3 pages per chapter???)</span><br /><b style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">Step 4: </b><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">Now you want to find a logic why the author is saying all these things. Why (a) after (b) ... Is there a reason? That means that you will make a small map of arguments. Put arrows, use colours. Keep it short. It's just for you to better understand the pathway of argumentation. (one-two sides of a page per chapter????)</span><br /><b style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">Step 5: </b><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">Put titles in each chapter or in different words, try to identify what each chapter is talking about (less than a page for all chapters???)</span><br /><b style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">Step 6:</b><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);"> Start speaking out what you have written in step 3 but you don't need to say all of that. Eliminate (in your mind, not in the paper) what you think irrelevant or too big. Keep it to the essential as you have defined it in step 4. Try out many times. Don't try to do the whole chapter. When you feel something is not as smooth of a transition try again. Find transitions between arguments. But don't go in great detail. You dont want to bore your audience (unless you do, so then DO IT).</span><br /><b style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">Step 7</b><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">: I don't know yet. I guess after all these practical rehearsals, you have a more concrete text that probably is not on any paper. You could put it down on a new piece of paper. I personally like the idea of having my old papers, just because it give s the idea to the audience (I guess) that I have a lot to say and I am making some shortcuts for the sake of them understanding. Who knows ? I'll revise step 7 soon I hope. So stay tuned</span><br /><br /><b>My confession</b><br />Yesterday I didnt work a lot. Mariella was here and so I had to hear her exciting news about her interview for a PhD studentship. Then I met Aaron and we went to the park doing a lot of wheels and hitting ourselves in the grass. By the time I was back to the studio, I was knacked (that's how you spell it ????) There was no beamer for me and I felt a bit sleepy. I tried out some things especially with the video but it didnt really work. So I said let's go back home and work there. And so, without pushing myself to work, lazy me, I went back home. sat in front of my pc. Read my emails. took some crisps and started working on script for chapter 3. Well, I was loosing concentration, feeling a bit spaced. I think I was having 2 minutes of speaking loud the script interrupted by big intervals of 5-6 minutes of just not doing anything, just looking to the direction of the paper and being spaced out. MY GOD...<br />So I said let's do somehting else. lets watch the video I shot with Ilona and me playing with the playmobil. So I did. I then said let's premiere it. And so i did. but somewhere there I fell asleep at 22.00......<br />AMAZING.... why was i tired???? what did I do all day ??? And anyway I say all that to get your sympathy probably but the question is... <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">why the hell did I watch the video and why the hell did I want to premiere it ???? There was NOOOOO reason. It was a loss of time. Here is the video... go figure why I did that. I lost one whole evening rehearsal without doing anything...And now I woke up at 6 in the morning either because of remorses or because I slept too much, I don't know</span>. But the work is not going further with this lazy style. Come on, move it you lazy bitch (that's how Damien Jalet used to call me :) I can see now why<br />Look at the video on myblog: http://painofothers.blogspot.com<br /><br /></span> <div style="text-align: center;"><object height="355" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/m9LCDHEzHto&hl=en"><param name="wmode" value="transparent"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/m9LCDHEzHto&hl=en" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" height="355" width="425"></embed></object><br /></div> <span style="font-size:100%;"><b><br />Playmobils</b><br />Well, looking back to the video, w<span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">hat I like is some of the angles and movement of the camera and the perspective but also the lightness of the story. In fact with Ilona, a fellow student from the MA Choreography, we were improvising. We didnt have a script. So we were just playing and we were throwing lines the one to the other. And here is how our story became a video. I like this lightness that kids have (and for sure improvisation) that a story doesnt need to have a full circle with beginning and an end, that the story is not predictable. It's out of their hand. I will try using these elements too. More than that, I like this aesthetic of failure (to be a perfect camera, to be in an expensive Holywood production), this roughness that comes because of the movement of the camera. It makes the event look more real. </span><br /><br /><br />I hope I work more today<br /><br /><br /></span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0